Title: Change
Episode: 3x21 ("Desire")
Word Count: 226
Rating: K
Note: For reasons I shall never understand, the #13 is
considered to be unlucky. As such, here is a scene from an infamous
episode that does not sit well with Addison/Alex shippers. I have
always admired the character of Addison, & just her reaction &
the facial expressions portrayed by Kate Walsh during this scene in "Desire" were heartbreaking.
Alright, here it is. R&R.
Hearts break every day, but it's not every day a heart is broken in the same day it's been made whole.
"You're not my girlfriend."
What had she been expecting? For him to make a declaration of love? She knew better by now, or so she had thought. With those words, and his nonchalant manner, he made Mark Sloan look like a saint. Except that even with that, she had to admit that with Alex she could actually imagine a future.
She had attacked his lips without a second thought, all the time aware that this could make or break her. If only she could stop relying on men to make or break her. She was supposed to be stronger, self-reliant to the max, but she could only force herself to be so much.
Standing outside the hospital, staring up at the entrance, with the wind bellowing through her frame, Addison Forbes Montgomery is aware of her mistakes. Of her failures. Love eludes her, and she doesn't even want to blame the men anymore. She has to rely on herself, has to make the difficult decisions if she wants to go somewhere.
Fine, Alex Karev (the man she fell so fool-heartedly for) doesn't want her, then she'll make a change. Otherwise, she isn't sure how much longer she'll be able to survive this side of life.