Duo's Song
By Jason Resno
A/N:This is Ch5. Below is the song that Duo 'wrote' and sung at the bar. it is really by "The Higher" and called Movements. It fit too perfectly to pass up.
What happened? The whole world was laying itself out to him. His future had glowing signs and arrows pointing him in the right direction. It was all so easy.
But then the world tipped back and poured himself and his dreams right out. Floating around in everything else that was this gross world, he was lost.
Dressed up
What's up, movements
I can't control
I can't confess my fear
Don't Don't
Everybody has a reason
To call them all too young
You've cut me off to young
He collapsed into onto the Yuys couch. His head was spinning. It moved so fast. Everything moved so fast.
A clammy hand went to his brow and he wiped off the beads of sweat that had begun to pool there. He had jogged over 15 miles back to the house. Everyone beat him back, of course, but they all understood his need to be alone.
The lights were off in the living room. Which was good. He didn't want to see anything right now.
Messed up
Am I moving
I can't control
I can't predict my years
I fall so fast and careless
It's just something I do
It's not like
We don't know
What we're fighting for
He felt sick. Not a stomach ache or a headache but something deeper and more jolting. The pain was more like his heart dropped down behind his naval and was threatening to explode.
It was unbearable. It was heartbreak. Today he truly faced everything he had ignored behind his sulky attitude. But not anymore.
It hurt him, so bad, that she would still go out and party with the guy that effectively ended their relationship...not that he deserved much credit. Hilde managed well enough to ruin it. Maybe it wasn't even that jerk offs fault. It was all Hildes.
Dearly departed
Certain tragedy
When we started off
We were such an indestructible team
When you had your plans
I had my dreams
But had he been wrong as well? Did working so much really hurt her so badly? Why wouldn't she just confront him? It's not like, when they were together, he didn't give her his everything.
A sigh broke the buzzing silence. Maybe he wasn't around enough. But that was no excuse.
He sat up on the couch and his head fell between his hands. He was beyond tears but a dry sob managed to break its way out of his throat.
Duo got up, shaking his head as if to clear cobwebs, and walked silently down the hall.
Heero had left their door open, which was completely uncharacteristic, but it was probably just so he could hear Duo when he got home. He couldn't resist peaking in.
Under the thick comforter Duo could just see Relenas head poking out. It was affectionately nuzzling against Heeros bare chest. She looked blissful.
Heero had a sharp line creasing his brow but was otherwise motionless. Asleep together.
He had that once.
A sharp pain shot across his heart at the thought and he continued down the hall. Reaching the bathroom he opened the medicine cabinets, quietly, and began rummaging around.
Tylenol. Ibuprofen. Dental Floss.
A-ha. Sleeping pills.
Duo frowned over the instructions on the back. They were so small and hard to read. Pocketing it he turned back down the hall towards his couch.
He plopped down and put his feet up on the table. Glancing down at the television remote he briefly thought of watching some television. Changing his mind he grabbed the half empty beer he had from early and began chugging it.
It clanked as he sat it, empty, back on the table. He grabbed the sleeping pills.
Lessons that I'm learning
I have the world suspended in my hands.
Would you know we'd kill it
Just me and you girl
It's not like
We don't know
What we're fighting for
Outside it was still dark as ever but Duo knew from the sounds of the birds that it was getting closer to dawn. He was still awake.
He tapped on the cap of another cold bottle of beer and then opened it. Heero would be pissed Duo was drinking it. Oh well.
Taking a long draught he set it next to the two empty bottles on the coffee table. He picked up the innocent bottle of pills and twisted the cap open. He dropped one into the rough palm of his hand. A dark thought shook him. He tapped a few more pills out of the bottle.
Dearly departed
Certain tragedy
When we started off
We were such an indestructible team
When you had your plans
I had my dreams
This wasn't a good idea, probably. But neither were a lot of things he had done. Or Hilde had done. That's just how life is.
The tears he thought he had avoided began to well up in the corners of his wide and oddly boyish eyes.
Dearly departed
You know you messed things
That's how you lost my trust
Now your lost
It's all because
You were not strong enough
We forget
We forget
How come this always happens to me
It's such a certain tragedy
Three. No four. Five. How many did he have to take? He wanted to sleep. To really sleep.
His hand was shaking unsteadily as it tapped out even more. He looked down at the candy like pills in his hand. There were at least ten.
That would be enough.
Passion, listen
He's slippin, switchin'
On these unsteady floors
Overloaded with emotion
No one even knows him
He threw them into his mouth like so many skittles before hand and picked up his half empty beer. He held it halfway to his mouth, his soft lips were quivering. His heart was beating unsteadily in his chest. He paused.
Dearly departed
Certain tragedy
When we started off
We were such an indestructible team
When you had your plans
I had my dreams
His eyes were wide and dilated. Sweat was rolling down his forehead, matting his hair down. Every boyish dark feature stood out tenfold in the dim light. of the rising sun.
He put the bottle to his lips.
Dearly departed
You know you messed things up
That's how you lost my trust
Now you're lost
It's all because
You were not strong enough
A/N: Cliffhanger. Oh no! I have no idea what happens next everybody so no use in asking. I'm writing as the ideas pop into my head. I never realized that I would be able to flesh this story out for so long. I had initially planned for a three chapter story but...well...if they stay entertaining they'll keep coming!