A/N: Sweet Lord was Undercover not the best episode ever!! Mariska really played it convincingly. Loved it... Anyways, here's the chapter. Hope you like it.

P.S Thanks to all the reviews, you guys are what keep me going : )

Olivia quietly gazed out the window of Elliot's car as the buildings slowly gave way to the homes in Queens. She had only spoken one word to Elliot when he told her that Lizzie needed her and that was 'ok'. She shot a look at her partner out of the corner of her eye. He was gripping the steering wheel tightly and working his jaw muscles. Olivia let out a loud sigh and ran her fingers through her hair. She glanced down at what she was wearing scrunching her nose up now at her choice of clothing. She had on black yoga pants the white tank top (sans a bra) that she had on earlier and a black hoodie that sat just above her hips and white flip flops. Elliot shot her a look taking in her appearance. He so desperately wanted to reach out and take her hand in his but since she had gotten in the car she acted as if he didn't exist.

"Liv..."

"Don't Elliot. Just don't" she cut him off softly.

Elliot swallowed against the lump that had formed in his throat. He thought that once he had Olivia and Lizzie back his life would somewhat go back to normal. But his life was anything but normal at the present time. His divorce had been finalised yesterday but due to Lizzie's extreme distress he had spent most of his time still in his old home and now he had also lost touch with his partner who seemed to be closed off from everyone.

Olivia felt bad for the way she was treating Elliot but in herself preservation mode she needed to remain detached from him. As Casey had pointed out just a few weeks before Elliot was not hers to turn too to take comfort in, he had a family one that at this very moment needed more than she did.

Elliot pulled the car into the driveway and put it into park and killed the engine. He made no move to exit the car. Olivia shot him a look and seeing that he was not about to leave the car and knowing how dangerous it could be for her to sit with him in the dark she reached for the door handle to escape her temptation.

"Liv wait," Elliot said quietly taking a hold of her hand in his. Olivia tensed up but didn't pull away. "Before we go in there are some things you need to know."

Olivia turned in her seat to look at him her eyes meeting his for the first time that night. She had missed his eyes the most. His eyes had always told her everything she ever needed to know. But now looking into his eyes she could she sadness and pain. She was sure that her eyes held the same emotions. She gave his hand a quick squeeze letting him know that she was with him. That she would always be with him.



"Lizzie hasn't been sleeping at all. She keeps having these terrible nightmares which in turn has kept me and Kathy up. I haven't had a decent night's sleep since before all this happened. She keeps crying about what she saw...how she saw you...being...being raped" Elliot finally managed to get out.

Olivia quickly pulled her hand out of his grasp her eyes flashing angrily. Not this again. Jesus, does no one listen to me, she thought.

"Elliot if you bothered to read my statement at all you would know that I was not raped" Olivia spat out

"Liv its ok" he said with sympathetic eyes.

"Jesus, what do I have to do to get it through to everyone I was not raped. I was not raped! OK, he tried he couldn't...," Olivia made a gesture to Elliot's crotch, "you know."

Elliot's eyes widened in surprise. Off course he had read the report. More than once. But he had assumed that from his daughters account of the incident Olivia had been in denial and/or greatly ashamed.

"Liv...I ah...It's ok if you were."

Olivia rolled her eyes and grabbed his face between her two hands and turned him so he was looking in her eyes. "I swear to you El, it never happened. It got too fucking close for my liking, but he never. He touched me a bit but no penetration of any kind. Please believe me."

"I believe you." He said turning his face to place a kiss in the palm of her left hand that still rested against his face. She gave him a small smile of gratitude that they had overcome one obstacle in a series of many.

With that the two hopped out of the car and made their way up the front walk to the Stabler home. Kathy pulled open the front door before Elliot could knock. She had seen her newly ex-husband and his partner sitting out in the car. She had seen the way Olivia had placed her hands on Elliot's face and the delicate kiss he placed on her palm and the smile that she rewarded him with. Though she was by no means on Team Benson's side knowing all that had happened between her and Elliot she was not above acknowledging her daughter's cries for the woman she despised.

Olivia felt her guilt wash over her as she made eye contact with Kathy. She had not seen her since before she and Elliot had started their little bad habit and being in the home of the woman that she was having an emotional affair with left Olivia with a queasy feeling in the pit of her stomach. Thank God for small favours that she doesn't know what me and her husband were getting up to, she thought.

"Thank you for coming Olivia" Kathy said stiffly moving away from the front door to allow her and Elliot to enter in to the foyer. Olivia gave her a small smile and a nod of her head. She glanced around and looked into the living room noticing the wall that was covered with hanging photos of what appeared to be a very happy family. Once again Olivia felt the guilt swirl through at how close she came to destroying this most precious thing.



"Lizzie is in her room. I'll take you up there" Elliot said softly removing his coat and hanging it up on the coat stand by the front door. Olivia again just nodded mutely unsure of what to say in this very surreal situation.

Elliot motioned for her to follow him up the stairs. She followed him with Kathy following quickly behind reluctant to leave her husband, err ex-husband, alone with her even for a moment. They reached the top landing and made their way down the hall stopping at the third door on the right. Elliot knocked softly.

"Baby, its Daddy can I come in?" Though it was nearly midnight Elliot knew that his daughter was more than likely wide awake in her room. He listened carefully for her answer not receiving one he slowly opened the door. He stuck his head in and saw his daughter lying on her bed with her back to the door. The room was dim with only a small night light casting the room into a hazy glow.

"Lizzie, I have someone here who wants to see you" Elliot said walking into the room and nodding at Olivia for her to follow him in. Kathy stood silently at the door wondering if this was going to make a difference at all to her distressed child. Maybe she was beyond seeking comfort from Olivia and needed some sort of medical help.

Lizzie didn't even stir at her father's words she just sucked in a deep breath and let all the air in her lungs out. She was so tired. All she wanted was sleep. And Olivia.

"Hey Lizzie sweetie" Olivia said softly walking over to the twin bed. As soon as Lizzie heard her voice she bolted upright in her bed her eyes growing large at seeing Olivia standing right there before her.

"Livvy!" The young girl cried stretching her arms up from the bed. Olivia lowered herself onto the edge of the bed and pulled Lizzie into her arms. Lizzie started to sob immediately out of sheer relief that Olivia had come to her. Olivia's own tears spilled down onto her cheeks as she cursed herself for not cheeking on her sooner.

"It's ok baby. It's ok. I'm here now" she soothed rocking the girl back and forth gently in her arms. Lizzie wrapped her arms tightly around Olivia's waist and buried her head into her chest.

"It's so horrible Olivia. It's all I can think about" Lizzie sobbed into her.

Elliot felt his own tears fall from his eyes as he watched his daughter open up finally about her experience.

"I know sweetheart. But it's all over. It's all over and no one will hurt you now" Olivia whispered into her hair.

"He hurt you so bad" Lizzie said pulling her face away from Olivia's chest to look in her eyes.

"No honey I'm fine"

"But I saw...I saw what he did to you."

Olivia looked over to Elliot clueless as to what to say or do. She didn't what Lizzie to go on believing what she thought she saw but she was not sure how to explain what did happen to a young girl. Elliot scrubbed his hands over his face and come over and knelt in front of Olivia and Lizzie. He 

quickly looked over at Olivia and they had a small conversation with their eyes letting Elliot know that she was ok with whatever he decided to say.

"Baby I'm going to explain something to you, ok? And I need you to listen real carefully so I know you understand what I'm telling you," Elliot took one of his daughter's small hands in his large ones, "remember when your mother and I talked to you about sex and how a woman's body worked and how man's works?"

Lizzie nodded still wrapped in Olivia's arms but facing her father. Olivia felt a blush coming on just thinking of the embarrassment Lizzie must have suffered getting the 'talk' from big bad Detective Stabler.

"Well remember when we said that a man's penis had to...be...hard to...," Elliot was stumbling over his words his own blush creeping up his neck at having to explain this to his daughter in front of his partner, he shot a look at Olivia to see a small bemused smirk playing on her lips, "to be able to enter...the ah...ah vagina?" He was sex crimes cop for God's sake explaining the birds and the bees really should not get him this flustered. Lizzie nodded again crinkling her forehead in confusion.

"So was he not hard?" she asked in all innocence.

Kathy who had been standing in the door way watched as the two detectives locked eyes and saw them share a quick smile over Lizzie's head.

"No honey he wasn't. That's why I'm telling you he didn't rape me. Do you understand? I know it looked scary, and it was, but he never hurt me. Not like that anyway" Olivia jumped in much to Elliot's relief.

Lizzie nodded again. "Liv? Do you think you could just stay the night here with me? I'm so tired."

Olivia quickly looked over at Elliot to see if it was ok. He gave her a quick nod of his head and a small smile at the thought that his partner was going to be spending the night.

"Sure. Let's lay down it's getting late" Olivia said kicking of her flip flops and crawling under the covers with Lizzie putting herself near the edge so she could get up through the night is she had to. Lizzie snuggled into Olivia reluctant to let her go just yet. Olivia smiled as the young girl snuggled into her and wrapped her arms around her kissing the crown of her head.

"Night Livvy, I love you" Lizzie whispered closing her eyes and letting the sleep she so desperately need wash over her.

"I love you too Lizzie"

Elliot felt his hear swell at their declarations of love. He sat on the floor near the bed his face less than a foot from Olivia's head. He had no intention of getting up and leaving. If Olivia was staying the night by his daughters side than so was he.

Kathy took in the scene in front of her. There in her daughters bed laid the woman who single handily ruined her marriage. She knew that was not entirely true but she wanted to lay the blame somewhere and Olivia was the easiest target. She sighed in frustration seeing Elliot settle in for the 

long haul. She should have known that he wouldn't leave Olivia's side. She turned and made her way down the hall to her own bedroom and her lonely bed. Reminding herself that sooner or later she would have to let Elliot go.

Several hours had past and Olivia could tell from the deep breathing of the girl beside her that she was fast asleep. She could feel the weight of Elliot's head near her shoulder where it had dropped back onto the mattress. She refused to turn her head and sneak a look at him afraid that if she did she would be to tempted to reach out and run her fingers through his hair. She let out a small moan of frustration. She was nowhere near tired, that's what happens when you spend the past five days sleeping. She toyed with the thought of creeping out of bed and calling a taxi to take her home, she really was not looking forward to the morning scene she was going to encounter with Kathy. If she left now she would be home before sunrise. The thought was so tempting. She could avoid all the early morning awkwardness that she used to think only existed after a drunken one night stand. The morning she was about to have was going to be worse than any one night stand encounter she had ever had.

"You promised her you would stay" Elliot's sleep filled voice said causing Olivia to jump a little.

"I thought you were asleep" Olivia whispered turning slightly so she was looking at the back of his head.

"Are you going to stay?" He turned around from his spot on the floor to look into her deep mocha eyes. Olivia couldn't believe that once again he proved how well he knew her in knowing what she was thinking.

"I...ah...don't know. I don't want it to be weird in the morning" She answered studying his face. She had loved him for so long now she could hardly remember a time when she didn't. She loved everything about him. She loved they way he walked, how when he entered a room he silently commanded everyone's attention, and she loved at the moment the stubble that he had going on his face.

"It won't be weird..."

"Elliot after everything that has happened. I really don't think it's best for your other children to wake up on a Saturday morning to find that their father's partner has spent the night."

"It's no more stranger for them to wake up and see their father here on a Saturday morning"

Olivia's brow furrowed in confusion. Why would that be out of the ordinary?

"I don't understand"

"Liv, I think me and you need to have a talk" Elliot said taking her hand and standing up pulling her from the bed. It was time. Time for him to come clean with his partner. Time to talk, to cleanse his soul. Time to tell her.

A/N: Like it? The whole hard penis talk was just thrown in. Hope it works. Let me know. Cheers.