Chapter 5
?What Just Happened?
I let the soft cool wind blow onto my face. It felt good. It was relieving. It made me forget all of my recurring thoughts. I sighed. If only I didn't have to go back inside. I think I'd truly be happy if I could just run away from Las Noches and live out here in the desert always feeling the cool wind, always sleeping under the black sky, always feeling the soft sand. That was a pure thought. I knew it would never happen. I had a duty in Las Noches. I had to serve under Lord Aizen, and help him seek out his dream of becoming king of the Soul Society. I looked up at the moon. Looking at it now felt like I could reach out and grab it. I looked down and turned my head halfway when I felt the reiatsu of another. It was Grimmjow. I would know his reiatsu anywhere. I surprised myself, but relaxed. I would blame this one on pure logic that everyone had a different reiatsu, so they could be recognized. I looked back at the face he was giving me. It was shock. I turned back around. I guess he thought it was my job to be the first to speak whenever we met.
"Grimmjow, heave you come to look as well?"
"Depends what I'm looking at." He said. Excuse my language, but I really hated when he had to be a smartass. I closed my eyes and looked back at him opening them.
"I meant the scenery."
"Oh, then yeah, I did."
"Then you may join me, but refrain from addressing me directly."
"So…what? No talking?"
"Precisely." I answered turning back at that moment. I could hear his footsteps in the sand. He stood next to me. I felt his eyes on me, but I continued to look up. He smiled. The smile is what made me look at him with only my eyes.
"I don't understand why you look at me like that."
"Neither do I." He responded. I looked back up as did he. We stood there, just the two of us, looking at the moon, feeling the wind on our faces. Soon, I noticed Grimmjow interlace our hands. For some reason, I did not have the urge to scold him. In fact, I gripped his hand back. I looked at him; he was perfectly content. So was I. What was this feeling spreading through my body? It was a feeling that everything was going to be okay. It was a feeling that I didn't have to think so negatively about everything. I continued to look at him, and he turned to look back at me. There was a look in his eyes. It was a look of comfort. He started to lean in towards me. How was I supposed to act knowing he was trying to kiss me? I was a dedicated Espada that was ranked fourth in the army of Lord Aizen. How would he react if he discovered I was with another Espada in an actual relationship? He would be downright shocked. I was set to pull away but found myself leaning forward. We met in the middle, peach on black. I was thoughtless for once. All I could actually think about was the here and now. I would deal with the consequences later. Nothing could ruin this perfect moment I was sharing with this piece of trash. I was still mad at him for tricking me into succumbing to my doubted feelings. He pulled away to take a breath.
"Trash…" I breathed out before he connected our faces once more. We held this pose for more than two minutes when I put this to a halt. He was a bit confused I could see. As dumb as he was, he was probably wondering why I had stopped. Even more so, he was probably thinking I didn't like him which was completely illogical at the moment. If I hadn't liked him, why would I even kiss him? My assumptions were right.
"Ulquiorra? Why did you stop? Do you…like me?" He pouted.
I couldn't answer the second question. I, myself, was not entirely sure of that. I looked at our hands still intertwined and back at his somewhat pitiful face.
"I stopped because I have to breathe sometime."
He chuckled at my statement. His face grew solemn. Most likely, because I wouldn't answer his second question. I looked away from his face. He chuckled angrily.
"I hope I didn't just waste my time with this." He spit. I cringed at the harsh tone. I looked at him again.
"No…I just don't know…" I said quietly. He blinked at me, all anger vanished from his face. He looked down, closed his eyes, and smiled.
"I'm glad you don't because I don't know what the hell I'm doing."
"You'll figure it out." I said mockingly. I knew he didn't have the brain power to solve such a confusing problem that even I couldn't solve. I shook my head quickly. I was light-headed from the kisses we just shared. Grimmjow spit.
"I need to be by myself for awhile." I said walking past him.
"You do that." He said standing where he was. I couldn't tell if he was disappointed or not.
