The Struggles Of Their Destiny.

Chapter – 3

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Matsumoto walked gingerly down the hall giving her lovely smiles that brightened everyone's day however it was slightly off. Her mouth was in a tight line even while she smiled and her eye brows were knitted together. To the more experienced and outgoing shinigami it was obvious to what took place to have her on edge and in such discomfort. She had a very wild, rough, night with Toshiro. He had taken her three times that night. That wasn't a problem for her nor was it unusual. She had done it more times than that in one night already but she usually took the day off to soak in a bubble bathe and take it easy and wait for the rawness and pain to wear off. But on this nothing than glorious day she had to be out for work at seven in the morning. It was Toshiro's fault for the first time of the night but for the last two she was the trigger so she knew she couldn't complain. And she taught him how to take her in the ass so yes it was her fault.

She pushed open the door and stiffly headed to her Captain's desk. Her heart skipped a beat as she saw the smug look on her Toshiro's eyes and the sly grin on his face. He chuckled as he looked at her startled and curious expression.

"What's with that look Matsumoto?" Toshiro asked his deep green eyes boring into her, his face portrayed his amusement.

"That's what I was about to ask you," she replied with slight blush on her face.

"Well, I'm just having a good day, Rangiku."

"Hmm, It's more like you had a good time last night and you're gloating about it," She said as she looked at her chair as if it were the devil.

"Oh… You're probably not able to sit. Well, lie on the couch for a while with these papers and sort them out alphabetically."

Matsumoto took the papers with red cheeks.

Toshiro's face softened towards her. If she only knew how I felt she would not blush at my kindness because she would know that I love her too much to ever see her hurt or mistreated.

"Don't worry Captain the pain is wearing off. I took some pain killers," she chirped.

"Well then, that's good, so sort the papers and give them out to the various shinigami they are addressed to. You don't need to sort them but it makes your work simpler," he replied in monotone his head buried in his book.

She sighed while fixing the front of her outfit and strolled out of the room. I will head to my room first and take some of my much needed sleep before I deliver these.

**********Her dreams *********

I raised my head for a kiss from this man who never stopped smiling.

"Come on Matsumoto dear," Ichimaru crooned, "Let's go for a dip before the soul reapers find out."

I shivered as the chilly, crystal waters lapped at my feet. I hugged the pale man's arm while each step we took led us deeper into the depths of the sea. The sun rays warmth was feeble compared to the solid body that pressed against me. He slowly slipped of the netted wrap I had around me which was more for modesty than anything else. Chest deep into the water he began nipping at my neck and teasing the nerves in my back. I eased away from him and dipped under the water. My face was heating up from the sun and my body from his ministrations. I rose out of the water to find myself at waist high water and Ichimaru lounging on the shore with a camera in hand.

"What are you doing?" I chuckled as I made my way towards him.

"Nothing. I just saw a really pretty image and I just had to catch it on film. Although I would like to be doing something," he said earnestly as the wind blew his silky hair away from his forehead.

I lowered myself onto him and I pressed my lips against his. I swiped my tongue into his mouth trying to get his taste but the beautiful thing was that there was none. He was tasteless. It was like kissing and indulging in innocence. Nothing there but what you put.

"I love you," he whispered.

Those words, those dangerous words, he says them all the time and I return them.

He takes off my flimsy bathing suit and wraps me in a towel to protect me from preying eyes even though there isn't a single person on our end of the beach. His clothes are off and with a towel draped on his back he presses himself on top of me. His hardness tickles my thighs as he kisses my chest and plays with my nipple. The feeling causes my eyes to roll back and hot liquid streams down my legs.

He grins at me childishly like a kid who has the perfect toy.

"What?" I ask biting my lip.

"You," he replies as he slowly enters me. The feeling is intoxicating as I feel my self melt in his arms. He moves slowly while kissing me showing me how much he cares. Gentle, sweet and comforting. I reach my climax and so does he. Our liquids released simultaneously. He hugs me and I sigh, my eyes close in and I welcome the silent darkness. I pray for every day to be like this one for him to be with me always.

My eyes fluttered open as I find myself on silk sheets and the cool ocean breeze blew on me from an open window. I was alone on the bed but not in the room. I raised my head slightly and triggered a mild headache. I looked up to see Ichimaru's back towards me as he eased up his shirt and buttoned it up swiftly.

"Where are you going?" I ask in monotone but I knew the answer.

My heart felt as if it were in my throat, my stomach tightened as he replied.

"I'll see you later sweetheart. I have some things to catch up on. I'll be back sometime," he said with a sad smile.

My eyes stare at his back until he left the room. It was expected it was not the first time he had done this. My vision blurred from the onslaught of tears and my mild headache became a throbbing one. I gasped for air, I could barely breathe.

He left me……He's gone again. I love him. Why does he keep leaving me? Why do I allow myself to go through this? Because I love him to much to ever let go.

**********Her revelations***********

Matsumoto awoke with tears on her cheeks. Her hands trembled as wiped them away.

"Ichimaru, I can't keep thinking of you," she whispered in despair.

She had a hollow feeling in her chest as she grabbed the papers she was supposed to deliver and headed out of her room. I need a drink she decided. She composed herself and kept her emotions in check.

She stopped off giving out the sheets to their respective persons until she bounced into Kira.

He looked into her eyes and said," I'm sorry Rangiku. What's wrong?"

But he already knew, Ichimaru.

The two of them headed to his office as his ex- captain was no longer there.

He brought out some sake and poured it out for her while she made herself comfortable on the couch.

"Kira I can't keep having dreams about him, the pain is just…"she trailed off before gulping sake down straight from the bottle.

He nodded silently understanding how she felt. For years she had been coming to him for a drink and to share her problems. Her feelings of Ichimaru and Toshiro, she told him all. They were close friends and they had a mutual comfort around each other.

"So you've been having dreams again?" he asked after a few minutes of silence.

"Yep…And I don't know why. I mean Toshiro is the one now. I mean I've loved him ever since he became my Captain," she said as pulled her hair away from her face in stress.

"You know Matsumoto it is possible to love two people at the same time…"

"I'm dreaming of Ichimaru and ….. Why did he keep leaving?...I.."

"Kira….don't think of me as childish or spoiled. I know it's pathetic….."she croaked as tears flowed from her eyes,"but I still love him and I love Toshiro."

"I…Don't ……," he sighed.

The gentle blond went over and hugged her. She buried her head into his shoulder and tried to calm herself. He wrapped his hands tightly around her waist.

"Hey no one's judging you," he said softly, "I'm your friend."

"Hey Lieutenant Kira? I'm coming in!" Toshiro said as he barged into the room." There's some trouble with your squad in the………."

Hitsugaya eyes widened as he saw Kira holding his Matsumoto.

The temperature of the room dropped immediately as Toshiro's green eyes flashed vividly.

"Captain!" Rangiku gasped as she leaned off of Kira.

"You better back off her," Toshiro growled.

"You don't under-" Kira started but was cut off.

"I understand that you will never touch her again!" he stated angrily as he grabbed the grey eyed woman.

Kira gulped and lowered his head.

"Toshiro…Kira is my friend you have no reason to react like that!" she shouted as they left the room.

"I told you to deliver the papers not get drunk and do who knows what with Kira!"

"Now you listen and listen here well!" she seethed,"Kira and I are just friends and nothing more."

"So why were you on him?!"

"He was…never mind! Toshiro, I am a free, easy going person. I know that you don't find me trust worthy but you have to trust me. I wouldn't do that to you."

"Matsumoto…then I would appreciate you not having such close approximations with your male friends. I can't trust you when your drunk and with them."

"I'm sorry Toshiro. You just need to believe me when I say that nothing will happen. I can control myself. I don't work well under your demands in this relationship!" she shouted before putting her hand on her cheek and slowly walking off. Her eyes closed in frustration.

Toshiro stood there dumbfounded and annoyed. She had never yelled at him like that before. But he didn't like her actions around other men.

Matsumoto sighed and lay on her bed. She was wild, fiery untamed. A spontaneous soul. She loved Toshiro. God did she, his stoic manner, firm reliable promises. It was fun to toy with him. See him flush at the things she did. But he had to give her some space too. She was like a fire that needed room to grow. He was too hot-headed and the most horrible thing of all that sent her into a pit of anguish was the fact that he did not trust her. She hugged herself as more tears trickled out of her eyes. I am so pathetic, crying whole day like a child.

"Now who's making my lovely Rangiku cry?" a familiar voice said as he wiped the tears from her astonished face.


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