The Struggles Of Their Destiny.
Chapter – 6.
Disclaimer: I do not own Bleach.
Matsumoto stopped and lightly touched the white post next to her as she leaned against the railing. She was two corridors away from the research department. She sighed wondering what she could possibly say to him. She stepped away from the railing and ran her long, tapered fingers through her heaven sent hair. She was still wearing her metallic shoes from the other night as she had come quite attached the three inch heels. She debated last night whether to drink her worries away but somehow had no heart for it. She stared at the bottle for fifteen minutes before going to bed. She couldn't face him last night; she just didn't have the energy.
The door opened and Toshiro Hitsugaya swallowed. His eyes filled with anticipation and regret. He knew was a dead man. He remembered Shunsui's words. Matsumoto is not a nice person to have on her bad side. She looked at him with detached eyes .It was almost as if she was looking through him and was staring at something behind him. He knew there was only a blank wall behind him, nothing to see. When Rangiku withdrew her warmth and love it was as if the sun died. It was colder than the icy blasts of hyorimaru which he knew quite well. He stared at her, his green eyes wide and full of remorse and guilt.
"Matsumoto…….." Toshiro said as he made a cautious step towards her.
"Stop. Captain, you don't trust me and now it seems as though I can't trust you," she said in monotone.
Toshiro opened his mouth to speak but Matsumoto interrupted.
"I think we should take a break," she whispered uneasily as she fidgeted awkwardly.
Toshiro's eyes widened. It was too sudden. He didn't think she would say this, at least not yet. He felt as if the air in his lungs got knocked out of him. He struggled to speak as she walked away. I love you he thought. He felt as if he was losing everything. He knew he couldn't live without her being there even as just a friend. He didn't want to go a day without hearing her voice, smelling her, loving her and seeing her. He panicked as his throat dried.
He gulped and let out a strangled, "I love you Matsumoto."
She stopped and turned. He eyes glassy with tears. She had always waited for someone to tell her that. Of course Gin told her that before but it never held any meaning. It came out easily as water would flow out a waterfall. But Toshiro was not one to say those things without meaning. Her face showed her confusion as she nodded. Toshiro……You aren't making this easy for me. Tears trickled down her face as her heart pounded against her chest. She stepped lightly towards him, closing the space between them. She kissed him lightly on the lips and whispered softly.
"I love you too Teichou,"
Flashback
Her First Kiss, his first neglectful act, her new purpose.
He saved her. She was fourteen and alone starving in the desert. She had no idea how she got there or why her heart soared when she saw that white haired boy who looked to be the same age as her. He fed her some bitter tasting fruit before she blacked out again. When she awoke she knew she was dependant on this boy. And she didn't care for that everlasting smile of his that made her feel that life was nothing to worry about and she should just relax.
He wasn't carefree as most would think as everyday at his small shack at the edge of district 104, one of the poorest and cruelest, he took care of her. After three weeks of his companionship and care, young Matsumoto was sure she never wanted to leave his side. She was attached to him. He seemed the same to her.
Matsumoto sat on the side of Ichimaru's bed while he slept. She leaned forward and kissed him lightly on the forehead. She finally decided to act on impulse. It was better than the frustrating feeling of doing nothing with her feelings. The scent of him was of cinnamon with the sharp contrast of lime. It was an unusual contrast of sharp and fierce with calm and inviting. It was very unique and quite homey. She jumped as she felt his fingers wrap around her arms and pull her so that her lips were directly above his. He rose upwards and slid his tongue over her lips tasting it. His wet tongue swept over them twice and then it stopped right there. No lip contact or mouth contact. He winked and closed his eyes leaving her stunned and confused. She blushed at being found out and was furious at the tease. She sucked her lips getting a bit of his taste and wondered what it would be like to kiss him fully and melt into him.
She tried her best to make herself as useful as possible wanting to impress him with whatever she could for one reason, to have him smile at her and never look at her without it. She hoped that giving him herself could satisfy just for the while her debt until she could do more. He never did before that day; look at her without a smile, but she had seen him look at another person without that smile, it had meant that things were very wrong. It was when he had lost his small job at the small shack of a supermarket he worked at. It was from there things had started to go downhill. For two days he was gone while she waited worriedly expecting the worst. The next day she awoke from the morning sun rays beaming directly in her face and he was there. He was at the door his face held no smile or single drop of emotion as he spoke.
"I'm going to become a soul reaper. This life isn't for me. I'm destined for greater and so are you deary,"
"What?"
"I suggest that you become one too. I really don't want someone with such beauty and talent to be wasted. Ok?"
"Wait….B-Bu-?!"
"I really do hope you become one…I would love to meet you again. I want our paths to cross again sweetheart,"
She panicked as he opened the door to leave and whispered in a hoarse soft voice ,"If you leave me here, here alone…..you should just go straight to hell."
He walked over towards her, grabbed her by the shirt and pulled her into a rough, passionate kiss before vanishing through the door.
Matsumoto touched her lips while tears streamed down her cheeks. She had her first kiss with the man, whom she was determined to have him be, her first and only true love for the rest of her life. For him, to get him, to find him she would become a soul reaper. It was all for him.
Author's Note: Hey...Long time no see! Short I know but it will get somewhere longish soon. . Please review. I'll show you a better chapter next night!
