Medusa
Summery: .Rejection made her leave home early and drove her into an asylum. She pretends she does not remember but Alice can never forget why she is always searching for acceptance.
Disclaimer: I do not own anything but my car.
Warning : femslash, self abuse, mental issues, and general angst
Damn 'em all - I create my own perfection
Damn 'em all in the face of their rejection
Damn 'em all - well this dog will have its day
My garden's full of pretty men who couldn't stay away
I closed my eyes Jasper was having his way with my body. So I let my mind wander away. Recalling the vision of my lover to come. I memorized every detail of her face to help me through this. She would have long black hair and grey eyes. She would smell of the Ocean and she would save me. I just had to hold out until she was born then until she grew up. Luckily I did not age.
"Alice, how are you doing?" My big brother asked after Jasper finished and I wandered down stairs. Jasper never let me out of the range of his emotional control for long. I allowed Edward into my mind to see that I had let my mind wander off again. He hugged me and kissed the top of my head. "You'll find her, Alice."
Rosalie was building a house of cards with Emmet. I started to arrange some roses in a vase. I let my mind remember my mantra. That's when I heard Edward he was playing a song. Rosalie and I wandered into the music room. We began to sing the song he was playing. He was playing my mantra for me. When the song Ended he Began to play one Rose did not know but I recognized it I started to sing.
" Mother would tell me I was a pretty girl
Then she would cry all night
Nobody thinks that really they're being cruel
When they suggest that I should try to look like them
As if God loved the pretty ones best
Damn 'em all - I create my own perfection
Damn 'em all in the face of their rejection
Damn 'em all - well this dog will have its day
My garden's full of pretty men who couldn't stay away
Notice the ones who all like to criticize
Are the ones trying to hide
Why would I sell my soul to be one of them
Better to love the me within behind the skin
I choose to be a goddess inside
Damn 'em all - I create my own perfection
Damn 'em all in the face of their rejection
Damn 'em all - well this dog will have its day
My garden's full of pretty men who couldn't stay away
Damn 'em all - I create my own perfection
Damn 'em all in the face of their rejection
Damn 'em all - well this dog will have its day
My garden's full of pretty men who couldn't stay away
Damn 'em all!"
It was a song by the same artist that did Sedna. The song was called Medusa. Rose looked at me in shock. She and I usually did most of our songs in harmony and I never put that much passion into our duets. But I had poured my unbeating heart into the chorus.
"Alice I had no idea you felt that way," Esme had wandered in and heard me as well.
I looked at them all the whole Family had joined us our impromptu concerts always drew them. Jaspers Eyes flashed I knew that look. I dreaded it without meaning to I had turned him on. I could do this I could hold on. That was when Edward stood.
"Jasper, would you like to go hunting?" Edward asked him Jasper accepted the offer and I sent A thank you to Edward with my mind. Maybe Jasper would leave me alone when he returned. I decided to channel my fear into something I could do well. I used my sister as a dress up dolly like I would with my mate when she came. Just a little while longer . I sent up a prayer to My lady Medusa.
" My Lady Medusa great crone powerful protector of women's mystery. Devine balance, keep me safe this night I pray." with that I retreated into my room with Rose in tow.
