The Love That Will Never Be

By:

YuuriCullen

AN: THE ANGST…OH THE ANGST…FUELING ME TO NO END…IT'S ALMOST DONE! AN EPILOGUE AFTER THIS CHAPTER, THEN IT'S ALL COMPLETE! PLEASE HANG ON TILL THE END! AND THIS CHAPPIE WILL BE IN KANAME'S POINT OF VIEW…YOU'LL SEE WHY…

DESCLAIMER: VAMPIRE KNIGHT BELONGS TO MATSURI HINO, AND ALL THE RIGHTS TO IT. ALSO, THE SONG "SLEEPLESS NIGHTS" THAT'S USED FOR THIS FIC IS BY THE BAND FABER DRIVE, AND I DO NOT OWN THEM OR THE SONG. I CHANGED THE SONG A BIT, JUST TO FIT THE FIC…IF YOU GOOGLE THE SONG, I CHANGED IT…AND I DO NOT INTEND TO DO IT JUST FOR THE FUN OF IT, OR NOR DO I INTEND TO HARM THE SONG…

ON WITH THE TALE!

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"Sleepless Nights"

Screwing up the best thing ever…

Is something you'd regret forever…

The pureblood felt a terrible tingling and coldness at the side of his neck, as the glass that contained red wine crashed down the marble floor and made a crimson pool, making the pureblood question if omens always come true.

"Kiryu…" it was the only name he could think of as to why that particular side of his neck is aching so terribly.

The immense pain is almost eating the pureblood alive, and when he thought it couldn't get worse, he missed a heartbeat, and a dull, throbbing chest replaced it.

His mahogany eyes widened, as he calculated endless possibilities on what Kiryu had done to make him feel like this, on his side of their sort-of "bond".

None of them ended being good or pretty…

Yuki, the pureblood's sister and lover, is fully bonded with him, and sensed that something is terribly wrong.

She instantly flitted to his chamber, where she found him on his knees, leaning on the round oak table for support, clutching his chest as if his heart is being torn out.

She was by his side almost immediately; worried something might've happened to him.

"Onii-san! What's happening to you?" she asked, worried as she has never seen her dearest like this before. In pain…vulnerable…it's all too much to bear for her.

"I'm fine, Yuki…will you tell the driver to get ready? I need to go someplace…I need to see someone…"

"Is it a vampire doctor? Because I can just call him—"

The raven-haired pureblood smiled gently at his dearest, as if to say that there is nothing to worry about.

The driver came in and escorted the pureblood out. Yuki bade him goodbye, and to take care, hoping he would come back safe, and better.

Little does she know that he has a chance of not returning in a very long time…

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The pureblood got in the car, anxious to what the silver-haired hunter, Kiryu, had done this time to make him feel such pain and agony in his heart.

The pureblood reminisced, and didn't regret everything that happened that night when he lost his self-control to bloodlust…

He was giving the hunter his blood for Yuki's safety, but he didn't know how tempting the boy's blood was until he made that wound in the boy's bare, pale chest.

It smelled sweetly of jasmine and vanilla, purely strange for someone who's bound to lose their sanity.

He mustered up all the courage that he had just to prevent himself from biting the hunter and forming a bond. But irony has it, that his willpower lost the battle, and he licked the hunter's irresistible blood off of his fingertips, where he had used them to injure the hunter. Kiryu wasn't looking, and was completely oblivious to the fact that the slightest of his blood made one of the strongest bonds for the pureblood he was drinking from.

That should explain why the hunter saw a tiny fragment of the pureblood's own memory…

But for the pureblood, he saw and remembered everything in detail. He even shared some of Kiryu's bundled-up feelings of anger and frustration, and made him wonder how long the hunter could endure it…

After that incident, the pureblood kept his calm and collected act on the ouside, for that's what he's bound to do. But inside, he's a complete chaotic mess.

He tried convincing himself that Yuki's still there in his heart, the one who brings him happiness, sunshine, and comfort in his dark, miserable, apocalyptic life…but would she ever understand him? Or would he have to mask his feelings to keep her from the dark side of himself?

Everytime he tries, his train of thought would just go back to the hunter and how they were very similar in so many ways that it greatly surprised him why he and Kiryu never got along at all…

Both of their parents were killed by a murderous pureblood, both had "lost" their siblings in the middle of it all, both were burdened with a great responsibility to themselves that they vowed to keep, and both longed for someone to just hear them out when they wanted to scream and just drown in tears…

Why they never got along…was because they were busy looking at the differences rather than the similarities and what's on the inside…

The pureblood had to endure every single torturing day just to keep his self-control in check. He knew these things came from the "accidental" bond, but deep down inside, he knew he wanted this for himself…that he needed it…

He knew the hunter would never, ever feel the same, as he knew that the hunter loathed his kind, and hated a part of himself with a tremendous passion just for the reason that the hunter thought vampires are heartless monsters…

Oh how badly the pureblood ached just to show him that not all of them are as ruthless as the hunter thought they were…

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"Master Kuran, we're at the Kiryu estate." The driver said, opening the door for the pureblood to get out and get some fresh air.

This might be a good chance to prove the hunter wrong and show him compassion hat vampires do have…

The pureblood took a deep breath , and…

Smelled the familiar scent of jasmine and vanilla…mixed with salt and rust…

The pureblood's mahogany eyes widened, and his heart rate increased as panic settled into him…

"Oh God…Kiryu…oh God…please…hang on for me…"

AN: I AM SUCH AN EVIL LITTLE AUTHOR!!!!! GAAAAH! I LEFT AT A CLIFFHANGER!!!!! T^T

SO, THIS CHAPPIE WAS ABOUT KANAME ANGSTING FOR ZERO, LONG STORY SHORT…XD

SOME OF YOU MAY ASK ON HOW THE HECK THE BOND WAS STRONG BETWEEN THEM TWO…WEEELLL…YOU'LL KNOW AT THE NEXT CHAPTER!

AND I'LL EXPLAIN SOME OF YUKI'S AND KANAME'S BOND AS WELL…AND WHY THE HECK DID KANAME LEAVE WITH HER…XD

THANKS SO MUCH FOR THE LOVE AND REVIEWS!!!! ^w^

I AM A HAPPY LITTLE PANDA BEAR!

PLEASE HANG ON UNTIL THE END…A CHAPTER TO GO…AND THEN AN EPILOUGE…

YEP…I MADE IT 5 CHAPPIES LONG…

WILL ZERO SURVIVE?????

WILL KANAME FINALLY CONFESS???
WILL YUKI SEE THEM AGAIN????

SO MANY QUIESTIONS!!! XD