Chapter 7
"Hi." Her voice cracked, she swallowed hard.
"It was a beautiful ceremony." Emily said walking up the three small steps. She sat down opposite Naomi. All the blonde could do was respond with a small nod.
"Can I?" Emily gestured towards Naomi's cigarette.
"Sure." Naomi said softly, passing it over.
"Thanks." She said taking a pull from it. Naomi reached for the bottle of vodka, not knowing what else to do with herself but also to calm her nerves. She took a large swig. It didn't help.
After a few minutes of awkward silence and a couple more swigs later, she finally had the courage to speak,
"What's going on Ems?" She hadn't had nearly enough drink to pluck up the courage to look at her when she asked, "Why did you leave?" She looked down at the bottle in her hands, playing with the edge of the label. Emily let out a small sigh and stubbed the cigarette butt out on the wooden floor.
"I....I was angry." Naomi finally looked up, only to look straight back down again when she saw Emily's pained expression. She closed her eyes. She couldn't stand this.
"I was pissed at you...but...I was angry at myself more than anything. " Naomi felt the bottle move out of her hands. She looked at Emily who took a sip from it, "I mean...even just the thought of you kissing him while we were together...It hurt so much." Her voice cracked, "I realized how...how you must of felt when you found out about, you know......I was so fucking angry with myself. Complete fucking hypocrite. I just...I needed some space I guess, I would of just took it out on you and you did fuck all. I felt like the biggest pick in the world."
"Emily I promise you." She reached over and placed her hand on Emily's knee, "I've gotten over what happened with JJ. I shouldn't of brought it up. Okay?"
"How? I mean, you must, even just a little...how could you just be over it?" Emily sighed and shook her head, annoyed at herself.
"Because I love you. I love you so fucking much Ems." She felt Emily place her hand over hers, her thumb lightly brushing over her skin.
"I know."
"You say that but....you need to realize that you're..." She moved forward and brought her hand up to Emily's jaw, lifting her head slightly, making her look at her, "Fuck, I don't know...the one...love of my life...whatever stupid, fucking cheesy, cliché name it's called, you're it. You mean fucking everything to me." Emily's bottom lip wobbled, tears following soon after. She Leaned forward burring her face into Naomi's shoulder. Naomi held her tightly and whispered into Emily's ear, "Nothing can ever fuck this up. I won't let it. I promise."
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Emily shut their bedroom door and made sure it was locked. She turned round to see Naomi sitting on the edge of the bed, leaning back on her elbows, a small smile on her face. Her expression shifted to a more serious one as Emily began to walk over, she sat upright, their eye's fixed on one another. Emily put her hands on either side of Naomi's face, tucking the blonde strands behind each ear delicately and leaned down brushing her lips against Naomi's lightly at first. The kiss quickly deepened, both craving each other after what had felt like so long.
Naomi placed her hands on Emily's hips, wrapping her legs around her she pulled her in closer. She leaned back gradually, bringing Emily back onto the bed with her, her hands on Emiy's thighs, traveling higher up underneath the little black dress as Emily kissed her neck softly, slowly moving down to her collarbone. Emily raised her arms up enabling Naomi to pull the dress up off over her head. She undid her bra by herself, now just in a small pair of black panties, Naomi bit her lip looking her up and down, drinking the image in,
"You're so fucking sexy." She breathed. Their lips crashed together, tongues sliding off one another frantically. Emily grinded her leg between Naomi's thighs causing the blonde to gasp, placing her hands on Emily's ass, encouraging her to go harder, the feeling of her body against her own something she'd been missing every single night they were apart.
They got rid of Naomi's clothes quickly, Emily only lingering as she slowly slid her knickers off. She got back onto the bed on her hands and knees, hovering over Naomi teasingly, licking her bottom slip slightly. Naomi placed her hands on the curve of Emily's back, her skin so soft there, just like everywhere else. She gently pulled Emily down onto her, kissing her deeply. Emily kissed the smooth skin of her breast, feeling her chest rising and falling more dramatically as she slowly moved her hand down Naomi's stomach, her tongue circled round her hard nipple. Naomi tilted her head back, her hands up resting in her hair. She breathed in deeply as she felt Emily's hand travel down between her legs, finally letting out a breath, that escaped as a heavy moan, as Emily's fingers entered her. Emily returned her mouth back to Naomi's, the kiss hot, warm and slow, feeling the body beneath her arching rhythmically into each thrust.
Naomi felt Emily's weight on the bed shift, as she moved down kissing her stomach lightly. "Fuck." She moaned loudly as Emily's tongue made contact just above where her fingers were, "Oh fuck." She could feel she was close already, her eye's were tightly closed, her hands resting on her forehead. She arched up as she felt Emily begin to move faster, tongue circling around her clit.
"Emily....." She gasped, "Emily." She gripped the sheets beneath her as she was sent over the edge, every single part of her tingling with pleasure. She moaned with satisfaction as her body relaxed. Emily moved back up and kissed her, Naomi half kissed her back, still trying to catch her breath. She finally opened her eyes, a beautiful brown pair met her gaze, Emily had propped herself up on her elbow, she was staring down contently but in thought.
"I've missed you so much." Naomi whispered.
"What you said earlier. You know...about the cheesy shit." Emily teased, "You're...." Her face more serious now, "You're it for me too Naoms. I love you."
Naomi leaned up and kissed her, a large smile on her lips. She gripped Emily's waist and rolled her onto her back, their lips still locked together, her hands slowly moving down Emily's body.
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"Meet for lunch? It's nearly four o' clock." Effy said in a huff but with a small smirk on her lips. Emily pulled the chair out and sat down opposite her, Naomi did the same,
"Sorry, we um...had to...um..."
"Making up for lost time were we?" The brunette asked with a knowing look in her eyes.
Naomi blushed, "You could say that yeah..."
"Where's Panda?" Emily asked quickly changing the subject,
"Toilet. Being sick. Drank way too much last night. So...things all good?"
"Yeah," Emily grinned and looked over at Naomi, who was grinning back, "It's all good."
The waiter came over and asked if they were ready to order, Naomi picked up the menu on the table and scanned it.
"Urgh, I shouldn't of had the full english Effs, came straight back up it did." Panda groaned as she sat down at the table next to Effy. Naomi grimiced and placed the menu back down,
"I'll just have a coffee please."
"Make that two." Emily added.
"Had a good night then Panda?" Emily chuckled.
"Yeah it was wicked! Well, what I can remember. Had to make most of our last night 'n all."
"You're leaving?" Naomi asked,
"Yeah. Probably go stay in London for a bit, I dunno." Effy shrugged, "What about you two?"
"We're not going back yet, gonna do a bit of traveling while we're over here, go see some places." She could see Emily's beaming smile from the corner of her eye. That same smile she had when they were back in Bristol the night before they'd left, planning out the whole summer enthusiastically, her thought's preoccupied at the time by the realization that Emily's smile was probably one of the most cutest things in existence. She quickly glanced over to Emily. Yep she thought to herself, cutest thing ever.
Effy nodded, "Cool." Naomi looked back over to her,
"You erm...you not gonna talk to-"
"I'm going for a fag." Effy interrupted, avoiding what she knew Naomi was going to ask.
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She learned back on the brick wall and blew out a cloud of smoke.
"Can I borrow your lighter?" Emily walked over, cigarette hanging out of the corner of her mouth. Effy cupped her hand round the white sick and lit it.
"Cheers." Emily leant back on the wall next to Effy.
"Thanks for the last couple of days. I know I probably wasn't much fun to be around, ya know, crying my eye's out all the time and shit." It may have been to strike up the conversation, but Emily meant it. That afternoon she'd turned up to see Effy and Panda, she was a complete mess. Her head was all over the place because of the argument with Naomi and it was like Effy just knew. Just knew that she didn't want to talk about why she needed to stay, knew that it would probably make things ten times worse if she made her explain. All she did was sit with her in silence, a pair of open arms there when a hug was needed, someone to listen to when she finally started to speak about what had happened. Panda did her best to make silly jokes and try to cheer her up. But Effy was there for her. She felt bad for expecting less, not fully convinced before that the brunette had that side to her. The side that Naomi was always telling her about. She saw that now.
"No problem." Effy smiled, her eye's sad.
"I'm..." She tried to sound as casual as posable, treading lightly, knowing that Effy would probably bolt as soon as she thought the subject of Freddie was going to be brought up. "I'm glad I went yesterday. Sorted things out...Sometimes you just gotta just face things....ya know?"
"Mmm." Effy mumbled nonchalantly.
"Come on Effs, you don't have to pretend with me." Emily pleaded.
"I don't know what you mean." The brunette said coldly already starting to walk away,
"Okay." Emily sighed, "But...please Effy just, don't keep running away from everyone." Effy turned around, Emily continued, "I did that and it just made me miserable. You have to face things sometimes, even if it's-" Emily's phone beeped in her pocket, she took it out and looked at the caller ID. It was her Mum, she rejected the call and continued, "Even if it's scary. It'll be worth it." She tried to ignore the hypocrisy of her words.
"You should take your own advice Emily." She took one last drag of her cigarette and threw it on the floor, Emily bit her cheek and looked down at her feet, "Look. I'm....me." Effy said, "I'm just too fucked up to be....happy."
"You say that, you can't talk about Freddie, you can't talk to him, you can't be with him, be happy. 'Because your too fucked up'. When the truth is, you're probably more fucked up than ever because you're avoiding him." Effy stared at her blankly for a moment before reaching into Emily's pocket.
"Speak to your Mum. You need to." She handed Emily her phone. "And I know. I need to speak to him too.....I'll try, that's the best I can do." Emily smiled softly,
"It's a start."
"Good luck." Effy said eyeing the mobile in Emily's hand,
"You too." She replied as Effy walked back into the cafe. Emily looked down at her phone, she clicked through the menu to the address book and found her Mum's number. She took a deep breath and pressed the call button.
