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I slouch in the backseat behind Rose, staring at the ceiling above her head.

This isn't real. It really can't be real.

Maybe I'm dreaming.

Or maybe I got sucked into another universe or something.

Ha. Fat chance. This is so happening.

The car slows to a stop. Emmett and Rose open their doors and Em hops out to come around to our side. Rose is out by the time he gets here. He gives her a squeeze.

I don't think I can do this.

Emmett opens my door.

"Are you comin' Baby Girl?" He reaches his hand out for mine.

I squeeze my eyes shut.

Do it or don't do it. It doesn't change what happened.

I reach for Emmett's hand and open my eyes.

My vision is blurred as we make our way to the stone. It's surrounded in colour.

Flowers. There are so many flowers.

My toe catches on a lump of grass and I trip. "Oh!" Emmett tries to save me but I've landed on my knees right in front of it.

The ground is so cold. Edward was warm. He was always so warm.

How could you just leave me here?

My mind is screaming and the tears seem never ending.

Ahg! I'm so angry!

And I'm so sad.

This just doesn't make any sense.

My hand moves around the cold hard stone and my fingers find the grooves where they've carved in his name.

Edward Anthony Masen Cullen

1977-2010

Beloved Son, Brother, Husband & Father…

Wait.

Edward had kids?

What?

"What?" I smack the stone. It stings my palm. My other arm wraps around my stomach.

I can feel them standing all around me. Feel their fingertips on my back and shoulders.

My stomach turns and twists.

Edward had kids.

Wait.

"Edward had kids!" I scream.

My back lurches and I gag. Leaving the contents of my stomach in the grass beside me.

I straighten up and wipe my face on my sleeve.

That's when I notice two smaller stones beside his.

Surrounded in the same colours.

Flowers.

Edward had kids… We had kids.

"We had kids?" I whisper.

They're touching me. Talking to me. I can't hear a word they're saying.

"We had kids? We had kids?"

The sky is clear and blue today. It smells like Axe, like Emmett.

"Hi Emmett," I whisper at him. "We had kids."

"Yeah Baby Girl," He whispers back and kisses my cheek. "You did."

It's darker in the car.

Rose hands me a pill and a water bottle.

How did I not notice? I'm different. My body's different. How did I not notice?

"We had babies Rose."

Wake up! Wake up! It's not real. It can't be real! Wake. The fuck. Up!

She just nods at me and takes the bottle back.

"We had kids."

The car is moving. I can hear the gravel crunch under the tires. The sound is deafening.

"Where are we going?"

A/N For my sisters. I lvoe you =)

Oh and Emmett smells yummy thanks to AXE body gel, deodorant and hair styling products.