{Anyway.. This is a song fanfic a s'pose.. I got really bored and un-creative in the past few days.. And along with losing my best friend.. then getting him back.. then a lot of other shit going on I just didn't get around to posting until now. But here you go. Hope you like it.}
{Aisyy: Sorry, this took longer than expected..}
{Chamberlinofmusic, RogueOnFire, Bologna121: Thanks for the reviews. ^^}
"Never understood how she could, mean so little to so many, why does she mean everything to me…?"
Gambit ran for the door as Rogue jumped back inside and slammed it. His hands hit the cool wood with a hard knock and he sighed, laying his forehead on it carefully. From the moment he hit he top of the stairs he knew what had happened, and he didn't need to guilty look on Bobby's face to re-assure him of that. Breathing in deeply, he knocked on the door and hoped for a response that would tell him what all her responses told him. 'Comfort me…'
Rogues response was not what he hoped.
"Go away Remy. I don't want you here. I don't want anyone here."
"Cherie… Rogue... Don't say that..."
It hurt beyond belief that Rogue wanted to keep him away at a time like this. When he wanted to help her the most... When it was obvious she was going to hurt like this for a long time... When all he wanted to do was rip Bobby's throat out, but didn't want to leave her here alone.
'Is it worth the pain? With no one to blame... For all of my insecurities, how could I ever let you go?'
"Remy, did you not hear me? You never do anything to help a situation like this. All your stupid help did was make things so bad between me and Bobby that he broke up with me. I love him Remy!"
Rogue screamed through her door to Gambit, and he could feel his heart start to break. Why couldn't she love him? Why did it have to be someone who refused to love her back because he couldn't touch her? The anger inside Gambit built until he started to grow numb. He didn't want to hurt Rogue more, but thoughts of telling her what he really thought were about to bubble over, and if he didn't move fast he would say something he didn't mean.
So he said the only thing he could say.
"There are other guys out there for you Rogue. Other guys who would give anything to be with you the way he was. Guys that don't care about whether they can touch your not... because it's not the end of the world if you can't have sex… god damn…"
Gambit cursed as a small bit of personal information Rogue had told him slipped through. She wanted to have sex before she died. Wanted it more than she wanted to be normal. Wanted it to be with the person she loved. And the person she loved was Bobby.
'Accept this, confession!
I'm walking on Pins and Needles!'
Rogue wretched open the door and glared at Gambit.
"How dare you! I told you that and you promised to never bring it up, ever! That is personal!"
Gambit took this chance to force him self into her room, slamming the door behind him.
"Well maybe if you thought about it for a minute, you'd see that I was right!"
He yelled back at her, knowing he had a point to this, knowing this would either make or break their friendship.
"Maybe if you realized having sex with someone wasn't so important, or that you could find someone else that could do that with you, everything would end up better!"
'You're not my, possession!
I'm walking on Pins and Needles!'
"Like who Remy?! Last time I bloody well checked, the only person I loved what Bobby. And the last time I checked - "
Rogue poked him in the chest with every point she made.
"The only person that every remotely liked me at this school was Bobby!"
Gambits eyes flared with anger as that thought flooded his mind and he grabbed Rogues hand and tightened it in his fist to prove his next point before he left.
"Are you that blind? How can you not see something that is right in front of you?!"
Gambit held his fist, wrapped around hers in her face.
'My conscience is vicious!
I'm walking on Pins and Needles!'
Rogue stared at his hand as comprehensions covered her face. She looked up at him with sad eyes, and completely speechless when he leaned down so that he could stare into her eyes.
'I'm begging, forgiveness!
I'm walking on Pins and Needles!'
"You're not that stupid…"
Gambit dropped her hand now, leaving her stand that with that last bit of information before pulling her door open and leaving. His heart was heavy as he rounded the corner, knowing that he'd ruined their friendship… Knowing she could never think of him in that way… Knowing everything between them was over.
'That it's worth the pain, always take the blame
For all your own insecurities
How did I ever let you go?'
