Alright guys heres chapter two but remeber I own nothing...sadly. Well probably get to the future in like chapter four.
"Something I can Never Have" Chapter Two 'When Did Your Heart Go Missing?'
"Rachel?" Rachel's dads asked as they took site of a soaked Rachel Berry crying against the door. Her parents Jonah and Jim both felt they're hearts drop when they saw Rachel slump against the white door sobbing as she clutched her chest where her heart used to be.
Her dads held Rachel tightly as she cried knowing Quinn must have ended it. Jim held back his anger knowing this was exactly what was going to happen since day one, and he let it happen.
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When it was time to go back to school on Monday Rachel almost just skipped, but she knew if she did everyone would start fussing over her.
So she went through school with her ear phones on listening to music, and when it was time for class she just wrote out her feelings making them into lyrics, and sheet music.
"Hey Rachel!" Puck called out tapping Rachel on the shoulder.
Rachel turned taking a ear bud out "Oh hey Noah, what's up?"
"Look no one is stupid. We all know what happened between you and Q. But Rachel, Quinn is thinking straight."
In the corner of Rachel's eye she could see Sam and Quinn making their way to them.
"Look Noah, I gotta go." Rachel said then walked off. Puck looked to his right to see Quinn walking beside Sam, and scowled at the blonde, and walked off.
When Rachel went to class she had to shift her eye sight down to her paper when she saw Sam dropping Quinn off.
Rachel could feel Quinn's eyes on her till Ms Pillsbury came in.
"Rachel, can you please come to my office?"
Rachel's heart started to thump against her chest this was exactly how the wide eyed woman came in for Kurt when she found out about the boy's dad in the hospital.
The brunette swallowed the lump in her throat; putting her things away, and left the class room.
"Dad? Daddy? Mr Shue? Why are you guys here?" Rachel asked walking into the counslers room.
Mr Shue smiled widely along with her fathers.
"Rachel, I sent off the videos where you sang 'Don't Rain On My Parade' and 'Faithfully' to the head master at Julliard, and they absoulutly loved it." Mr Shue grinned.
"What?" Rachel asked breathlessly.
"You were accepted, Rachel!" Jim smiled.
"But, I'm only a Junior." Rachel said in disbelief.
"Well see Rachel, you have the perfect grades to graduate this year in December." Ms Pillsbury explained.
"Mr...Mr Shue you got me into Julliard?" Rachel asked.
Mr Shue laughed "I just sent the video Rachel. The rest was all you."
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As soon as the bell rang Quinn ran to Ms Pillsbury's office. Her heart thumping, and nerves jumping. She was so scared something might have happened to Rachel's fathers.
She stopped looking through the glass seeing Rachel have her hands on her head then jump in her dads arms smiling, and crying. But Quinn noticed how everybody was smiling, not just her fathers. Mr Shue was laughing and patted Rachel on the back, and Ms Pillsbury smiled standing behind her desk.
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"Alright guys so I know last week we did the duets, and well I think everybody should maybe do song of how they feel."
Quinn was about to walk up to Rachel, and ask what happened earlier, but Rachel walked over to Artie.
"Hey Artie." Rachel said softly to th bitter boy.
"Oh, hi Rachel."
"Artie I was wondering if you would like to work on a song with me?" Artie kept his gaze on Tina. "The song will help the both of us with the person we love."
Artie snapped his head over to Rachel "I'm in." He said hastely.
"Sweet" Rachel smiled sitting down.
"So what are we singing?" Artie asked.
Rachel looked down fiddling with her spiral. "Well...I kind of wrote a song."
"Yeah? I didn't know you write music." Artie said. "Can I see it?"
Rachel nodded and opened it up to the page of the lyrics and beat.
Arties eyes widened "Wow...Rach...this is really good."
"Really?" Rachel asked looking in his eyes.
"Seriously."
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Artie, and Rachel practiced, and showed the jazz band how to play the drums part till it was perfect.
Rachel and Artie were both putting away their guitars when Artie looked over at Rachel feeling a little bit better knowing he wasn't the only person with a broken heart.
"So Quinn left you for a monkey faced jock?" Artie said quirtly watching Rachel's movement stop. "I know the feeling...the heart feeling like it just dropped to the depths of the abyss."
"I don't get it Artie I never over crowded her or was needy, I help her with Beth. I-I thought I was a good girlfriend."
Artie saw the utter heart break in this girl and felt his break even more.
"You were a great girlfriend Rach, she...Quinn isn't thinking right."
"Why do people keep saying that." Rachel sighed sitting down running her hands over her face.
Artie sighed rolling infront of her. "I'm sorry, I know that gets really annoying."
"Artie...What Tina did...was...wrong. You didn't deserve that." Rachel said shaking her head.
Artie looked down "Yeah I did...I wasn't paying any attention to her."
"No...if that was the case then she would have told you. But I know for a fact that one day some lucky woman will fall for you, and when she does. Artie...don't let her go."
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"Alright well does anybody have their songs done?" Mr Shue asked.
Nobody stood, but Artie raised his hand nudging Rachel's shoulder.
"Yes, Artie?" Mr Shue called out.
"Is it alright if Rachel and I sing a song she wrote?"
Mr Shue grinned "Of course it is. Go right ahead."
(When Did Your Heart Go Missing? by Rooney Belongs to Rooney)
Rachel picked up her elctric guitar while Artie placed his base guitar on his lap. One of the boys from the jazz band sat on the stool in front of the drums.
All of glee leaned over their seats intersested to see what would happen.
Artie nodded to Rachel giving her the confidence to run with the song. Rachel nodded and started picking her strings; queing the drums.
RAchel started moving with the rythm kicking her feet up in a kick.
'Love don't come so easily This doesn't have to end in tragedy/ I have you and you have me/ Were one in a million why can't you see?'
'I'm waiting, waiting for nothing/ Your leaving leaving me hanging/ When did your heart go missing? When did your heart go missing?/ I treat you like a princess/ But your life is just one big mess/ When did your heart go missing?/ When did your heart go missing? Yeahh'
Rachel never took her eyes off of Quinn.
'I meant every word i said/ I never was lying when we talked in bed/ I'm retracing every step in my head/ What did I miss back then?/ I was so, so misled ohhh.'
Rachel jumped wailing her guitar.
'I'm waiting, waiting for nothing/ Your leaving leaving me hanging/ When did your heart go missing? When did your heart go missing?/ I treat you like a princess/ But your life is just one big mess/ When did your heart go missing?/ When did your heart go missing?'
'I don't understand/ How you could forget what we had, it's so wrong'
Everyone stood clapping, and dancing. Watching Rachel get really into it looking like a natural rockstar. Sam stood smiling, but Quinn pulled him back down her eyes threatning to spill tears.
'I'm waiting, waiting for nothing/ Your leaving leaving me hanging/ When did your heart go missing? When did your heart go missing?/ I treat you like a princess/ But your life is just one big mess/ When did your heart go missing?/ When did your heart go missing?
'Yeahh' Sam stood clapping hip bumping with Kurt. Everyone was having fun except the broken brunette, and the blonde. Both looking in each others eyes.
Artie kept singing When did your heart go missing staring at Tina as Rachel said...
'Things were so good. We had a little dream, a little dream together. Buy a house, settle down, do our thing. But you disappeared on me. And your heart, your heart went missin'. I don't know how to find it. I don't know where it is. I don't know where your heart went. It was here just the other day. Now it's gone. I'm gonna call the police. Call the investigator, the heart investigator'
"Wooo go sexy Jew rockstar! Owww! Now their's two bad asses in this group!" Puck grinned.
"Wooo, S Rach looked like...really sexy." Brittney said softy.
Santana smirked at a heartbroken Quinn.
"Oh my gosh! Rachel that was amazing!" Mr Shue beamed.
"Thank you, Mr Shue." Rachel half heartly smiled.
"Rachel that was really cool! You have got to play more of your songs. Are they on myspace or YouTube?" Tina asked.
"Uhh no where... yet." Rachel threw a smile at Mr Shue secretly, but it didn't go past Quinn who furrowed her eyebrows.
Rachel pulled out her case setting her guitar in it.
"Whoa, whoa Berry come on one more." Santana said hoping it would be another song that would tear Quinn to shreads.
"Yeah, Rach that was really awesome!" Sam grinned.
Rachel smiled back she knew Sam had no idea about her and Quinn only glee club did from last year, and well if Quinn was happy with Sam then she would be happy too...for her.
"Yeah Berry lay some Jew rock on us." Puck smirked.
"But...nobody nows how to play my songs." Rachel quietly.
"I bet the jazz band can do 'I'll Be'" Artie suggested smiling shyly.
"I..I don't know." Rachel said looking down "It's still a little rough."
"Please" Brittney pouted.
"Okay" Rachel said handing her journal to the jazz band who nodded smiling.
(This song belongs to Edwin Mccain tittled I'll Be.)
The band started slowly letting Rachel settle her nerves. Rachel gripped the mic holding it with one hand as the other gripped the stand.
The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful Rachel stared into Quinn's eyes getting lost.
Stop me and steal my breath
And emeralds from mountains thrust towards the sky
Never revealing their depth
And tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
Rachel meant it, she meant every word. She just hoped Quinn knew this.
And I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
And I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
And rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
And you're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive, and not dead
Rachel remembered that night as clear as day. She and Quinn had made love for the first time. It was beautiful, and slow; as the rain fell softly against the roof, and window.
And tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love.
I'll be captivated, I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above
And I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
And I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life.
Quinn let out a silent shake of a sob knowing Rachel, really and truly loved her, and yet here she was with a guy she barely knew.
And I dropped out, I burned up, I fought my way back from the dead,
I tuned in, I turned on, remembered the thing that you said.
Sam still had no clue, but he touched Quinn's shoulder trying to comfort her, and picked her up and started slow dacing with her.
Everybody felt Rachel's heart fall just a little bit more, and they saw them the tears that were slowly falling.
And I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
And I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
And I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love suicide
And I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life
The greatest fan of your life.
Quinn turned around to see Rachel walking out with her case, and everybody silent as can be.
