After Love

Chapter 5:

Key of Hate and Surprise

Ok, I felt really bad about taking so long to write this chapter, I had all these things to do, sry:P Enjoy!!

"Roxas…." Sora hesitated," Will you go out with me?"

Sora carefully watched Roxas's reaction, and wasn't happy with what he saw. Roxas first widened his eyes, showing surprise, but Sora had expected that. But what he hadn't expected was the sudden sad and pitying expression.

"Oh my god, Sora," Roxas said slowly, "I'm so sorry. But.. But I already have a boyfriend."

Sora felt a surge of jealously, "Who?!?!"

"Um… Axel."

***

For the rest of the day, Sora couldn't stop thinking of his sudden hate for Axel. He had never had anything against him in the past, in fact, he used to be one of his good friends. But Sora couldn't stand anybody to be with Roxas but him.

Sora glared at Axel from across the French room. As if feeling is stare, Axel looked up at Sora, and gave an equally angry glare. Which only made Sora hate him more, because Roxas had obviously told Axel, and now Axel hated him.

After French, Axel walked beside Sora in the hallway.

"Sora," he said.

"What," Sora replied angrily.

"I heard that you asked out Roxas today," Axel said, examining Sora's face.

"So what," Sora yelled, causing several people in the hall to look towards them.

"So, I want you to stay away from my boyfriend!" Axel also yelled.

"Well maybe I will, maybe I won't, you can't decide that,"

"Maybe my fist can convince you!"

***

Sora limped his way into his house, He was covered in blood and bruises. As he slammed the front door closed, he heard a slurred groan. He peeked into the living room, and saw Yuffie passed out on the couch, surrounded by beer bottles.

Sora sighed, and placed a pillow, which had been thrown on the floor, under her head. She won't care anyways, he thought as he headed upstairs to his room.

As he closed his door, he let down the barrier of anger and rage that he had built up, only to find a soul-crushing sorrow.

Do I really care about Roxas this much? thought Sora, being forced to take a seat on his bed, or fall down. Do I really need him this badly, this.. this is more than Riku. That thought surprised Sora most of all.

But… but Riku was everything to me, how could Roxas mean more? Sora had no answer for this, all that he knew was that he couldn't live without Roxas, and since Roxas was with Axel, Sora knew that he had no chance.

God, why do I even try? Sora thought bleakly, every time I try, I always fail, and everything I care about falls through my fingers, and runs away.

After listening to himself for a few minutes, Sora made an impulsive decision. If he couldn't live without Roxas, and if he couldn't stand to let everything that he care about get away from him, then he wouldn't.

With this sudden determination, he quickly grabbed his knife from under his mattress, and ran into the bathroom.

***

Sora gingerly lowered himself into the bathtub, trying not to get blood onto the floor. He had filled the tub almost full with warm water. Then he had made the cuts.

But these weren't the usual cuts that he made, this time he cut deeper, and in places that he knew that were vital. This time, he had cut to kill.

After getting all the way into the tub, he relaxed, and let the blood flow. It'll finally be over, Sora thought, gratefully feeling the blood flow out of the many cuts that he had made.

Then, after a few more blissful moments, Sora started to lose consciousness. But, at that moment, he heard unfamiliar footsteps in the hall outside his room, and then there was a knock.

"Sora?" the voice said, muffled through the walls separating them. His door opened, and the voice came closer. "Sora?"

Suddenly, the bathroom door opened, and along with the person, came the suddenly worried and horrified voice.

"SORA!!" cried Roxas

YAY!!! Sorry this chapter took so long, I had a lot of other stuff that I had to finish, hope you enjoyed this!! Review!!!

~Bulletmeds