Disclaimer: Eric Kripke owns I'm just playing with the sandbox.

A.N: Huh, I seriously, thought I'd get this entire story uploaded in one day. Guess it didn't pan out like that, but here's the next chapter! Thanks so much for all the favs/reviews/alerts! I'm so glad people are enjoying this!

Again medical isn't my strong suit. All the doctor said is based on my understanding of what I read briefly...and like I said, not a medical person. (Doing good to do this, lol-) I just copy pasted the words, don't feel bad if you can't pronounce it. I don't bother...

A bit of skipping around this chapter as well.

Summary: After S2, ELAC, before BL. Dean had pushed his brother away after their father's death, but Sam had been suffering silently. Will Dean realize before its too late that Sam didn't just walk away from the accident?


Chapter 6: Want a do-over

Two days had passed and Sam still hadn't woken up. Dean was growing worrier and worrier by the hour. The doctor had called for surgery since monitoring the pressure in Sam's head and found it wasn't going down. The medication they were administering wasn't reducing the swelling in his head. The blood swelling appeared to not be easing up.

"Seems he has indeed got Intracranial Hematoma, just as I feared", the doctor sighed, "We had to wait a bit to make sure."

"Not good?" Bobby asked knowing the answer.

"No, it's actually the most serious of all the close head injuries. More specifically he has intraparenchymal which is one of the three types of Intracranial Hematoma."

"Which is?" Dean asked glancing at Sam. All this medical jargorn was flying directly over his head.

"It occurs when blood collects within the brain tissue. It produced the swelling and probably over the weeks is what gave Sam intense headaches. We'll have to perform the surgery to drain out the excess blood."

Dean paled.

"What are his chances?" Bobby asked slowly. Dean looked at him wide-eyed before looking back at the doctor.

"I won't lie, there are complications. Since this is the most serious, it requires surgery and rehabilitation afterwards. Sam is young, he has a good chance. Don't give up on him now. I gotta go get him set up for it, if there is no other questions."

The doctor took the prolonged silence as a no and made a brisk exit. Bobby and Dean just stared into space behind the doctor, their eyes unseeing.

"Ugh...Bobby..." Dean moaned, his hand going to his stomach after several seconds had past.

Bobby knew that look and managed to get a metal can under Dean before he threw up what little food he had in his stomach. Dean convulsed under Bobby's hand as he rubbed soothing circles on Dean's back. Dean shut his eyes tightly.

This could not be happening!

Finally, it seemed that Dean was done and Bobby got a moist towel from the bathroom for Dean to clean himself up with.

"Bobby...am I dreaming?" Dean asked looking up at him with wide-eyes.

Bobby's heart broke at seeing Dean look and speak like a 8 year old a the moment. "I wish we both were, son", Bobby murmured glancing at Sam's too still form, "I wish we both were."


Dean sat staring at Sam. In a few minutes the staff would collect Sam for his surgery as he had been informed moments ago.

"You'll be okay, Sam", Dean spoke his voice rough; "You gotta be okay. You gotta fight. Do you hear me? You can't go out like this."

He paused before his voice cracked, "And you can't leave me like this."


Dean stared at the empty spot where Sam's bed had resided. He didn't know how long he sat staring at it. They had long ago come to collect Sam.

Bobby walked in with some food. He sat the food on the table. "Come on, let's eat."

"Not hungry", Dean murmured.

"Your brother would need you to keep up your strength, you know that." Bobby stated quietly.

It seemed to have the desired effect since Dean moved a moment later to at seat at the table. Bobby put a sandwich in front of him and a bottle of water. Dean stared at it a moment before picking up the sandwich and taking a bit. It was all ashes in his mouth. Yet he chewed slowly and swallowed. He lowered his head, leaning it on his arm, pushing his chair back to make himself comfortable. In his other hand he held the sandwich as he slowly took another bite, all the while tears building in his eyes as he thought about the last couple of weeks. As he thought about all the events that lead to this moment.

Bobby was hardly eating his own sandwich as he watched Dean slowly fall apart.

And finally, Dean had dropped his sandwich and wrapped his arms around his head as he started sobbing. "How could I have been so blind, Bobby? How could I have let it get here? Dad entrusted Sam's well-being to my care and I couldn't even do that right. I screwed up and now..."

"Dean, your brother will come from this", again Bobby prayed he wouldn't be made a liar, "He is strong."

"Is he, Bobby?" Dean lifted his glaze, red rimmed eyes peaking up at Bobby, "I was yelling at him just before he passed out Bobby. I made it pretty clear I didn't seem to care. I called him a bother. Didn't want to deal with his issues. I wish I could take it back. I didn't mean it."

He turned his face back to his arms. "He probably thinks I hate him. But I don't, he is all I have left. He can't leave me like this. Not like this. Not when I messed up so badly! He has got to give me a chance to fix it. I gotta fix it!" Dean couldn't stop the violent sobs from escaping his body.

Bobby found his eyes unexpectedly moist, as he laid his sandwich down and stood up crossing the short distance between them and laying a hand on Dean's shoulder.

"I want to do it over! I want a do-over! I want Sam to be okay! I've lost our dad, I can't lose my brother too. It would destroy me!" Dean cried, his shoulders shaking under Bobby's hand. "I can't..."

Bobby knew all too well the truth of Dean's words. It wasn't just about Sam anymore. If they lost Sam, Dean would not be far behind.

And Bobby would lose both of them in on go.

TBC…


A.N: And finally Dean cracks. T_T He was making me sad! *sniff* I was all sad writing his sadness. *huggles Dean* Might be a little OOC for Dean but I think he deserves a major breakdown right about now. ^_~