A/n: I wasn't going to post this today. It's not like is wasn't already written, but I decided to edit it early. I think this will explain this. I might quit this because no ones reviewing :( and I only got one favorite. Which I'm excited and but please review everyone. Even if it really short, I need to now people actually like this. And if you do, then can tell your friends to read and review.I probably sound greedy right now but, help me out here.
OK, so maybe I was being a little erratic.
I guess I was just trying to avoid the story that is my past.
So, yeah. When I was younger, I like school it was ok, so maybe I was a little shy. But I still had friends. I was OK with that. We were close friends, Charlotte also known Lottie, Alex we'd called her Lexie, Caterina you know Cat; she was crazy then too, Jennifer she was Jenny, obviously. So, we had our own little club and everything.
Jade, why are you doing? You don't need this.
No, no I'm going to do this.
Oh my god I sound, PSYCHO!
Okay whatever, so we had our clubs. We would always laugh and have fun. We would play what we called it he pretend game. We'd come up with these we'd pretend to be and at them out. We'd dress up and just, you now kid stuff. We'd also play games like house and junk.
Anyway we were the weird group in our class we'd never play with the other kids, ever. I mean, it's not like we didn't like the same games. We just stayed away. We all had a bad feeling about them. So, we just avoided.
My life at home wasn't too good. My parents would fight a little and I didn't like it. So school was my little escape. I never told anyone about it. Guess I thought as long as I have school everything would be alright.
I was wrong.
Later on, I guess those imbeciles start to get the feel they were disrespecting by not playing with them. So, they put together all of their puny brains and started to mess with us. And me, being me wasn't going to take it sitting down.
The teasing never stopped and we were all hurt by our peers. So, I came up with a plan to get them back for everything. I don't really remember what happened. But I remember it didn't work. The teasing was even worst then before.
We never physically fought, or anything. No matter how badly I wanted to smash all their faces in. Cat, Lexie, Lottie and Jenny always told me to stay cool, and not to mention that I was out numbered.
And with this shit happening at school, my home life got worst too. Everything was slipping out of my hands, and there was nothing I felt I could do about it.
I did try to tell my parents about what was going on at school. But they were too busy hating each other to care about me.
That's what got to me. That's when I stated being so evasive, even ignoring my friends. It wasn't like we were the same anymore. We weren't as close as we were before. I was colder than ever before. Everyone was afraid of me even my friends. And that's what I hated most.
Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if I did everything in reverse. Maybe if I had told Lottie, Cat, Jenny and Lexie about how everything was affecting me including my parent situation would things be different. Like, better different. I guess it too late now.
So what I'm saying is…
I'm a loner…and I hate it.
And there's my stupid journal entry.
A/n; Hope you enjoyed as much as I did writing this. Tell me if here any mistakes I ind of rushed on editing/revising this. I really wanted to get this up. So...
...Please review.
