Hey every one so I have a question. I was wondering if any one could tell me how to put pictures on my profile, other that the default. If any one can tell me that I am going to put a picture of me and one of my boyfriend, Jacob. So now if you want you can skip this but I just thought I would share a personal story. On Sunday the tenth of October Jacob left to visit his grandparents in South Carolina, he wasn't supposed to be back till Tuesday the ninth of November. I talked to him but on Friday the twenty ninth of October at 11:11 am he told me to make a wish, I told him I wished he was here. Corny and cheesy but cute. We said goodbye and i thought the conversation was over, then he did something completely adorable. My room is at the front of my house and at 11:11 pm I heard a tap on my window. I looked outside of the window and Jacob was there. He said "11:11 your wish came true" I thought that was the most beautiful thing ever. We got to spend Halloween and many other things. You might not care but i just wanted to share (hey that rhymed lol) my story of how adorable that was. Sorry it took so long, my brother got deployed to Afghanistan and I wanted to spend time with him before he had to leave. I know this is short, but the next chapter it gets better.


"The only thing saving me from ripping your head from your neck right now mongrel is Renesmee!" Dad growled, I couldn't see him, but I knew he could here my thoughts. This went one of two ways. My brain told me 'He is never there for you, he makes excuses for leaving, and he physically hurt you. Dump his ass!'. But the tiny voice that was my heart said 'He loves you with all his heart and more. He is trying to protect you. His animal side came out he didn't mean it. He is the only person that will ever truly be there for you. If you asked him to beg on his knees for you're forgiveness he would.'(A/N Im only getting a B in Grammar...lol...please forgive me)

"I'm sure that Nessie wouldn't mind it?" I heard Auntie Rose say and I could just imagine the glare that was on her face as she spoke. Probably one of those glares that she has whenever me and Jake kiss, it's like she goes into "mamma bear mode".

Dad, please don't. Just give me time think. I said in my thoughts. I was tired and had a MASSIVE head ache. My eyes fluttered open and my vision was blurry. I could make faces out of the shapes above my head, and barley expressions. Carlisle was more in "doctor mode" and looked rather emotionless but I sensed a hint of worry. I saw Mom worriedly grabbing onto my furious Dad. Esme was trying to calm down the two of them. Jasper ans Alice were sitting on the floor in the corner of the room looking tense. Rosalie was just how I expected her, glaring in "mamma bear mode", that term described it best. Emmett aggressively standing between Auntie Rose and Jacob. Jacob was now standing in the corner of the room with his hands in his pockets looking rather, unemotional.

"Did you guys have a party and not invite me?" I said and saw everyone's head snap up to look towards me.

"Baby, are you alright?" Mom ran to me and inhuman speed and began vigorously, but gently toughing my face.

"I'm fine Mom, I just have a head ache." I said as Carlisle helped me sit up and i grabbed my side in pain.

"No party here. Unless you count Jacob's pity party of his. I have listened to him cry for two days straight, Ness. Your lucky I didn't rip his head off" he said and I laughed one hard laugh then winced.

I locked eyes with Jacob, he looked sad. At first I smiled, he looked nice and sorry. Then I remembered why I was here. He then looked like the monster he is. I looked down.

"I was out for two days?" I said looking at Carlisle, changing the subject within my own thoughts.

"Just about, you have a slight concussion and I had to give you stitches. You did crack two of you ribs but you should be fine." he said holding a glass of blood up "You should have this it will make you stronger," I slightly nodded and drank the glass.

Dad and Mom were standing at the side of the room talking quietly and fast, so not fair. There was just pure silence after there conversation was finished.

"We have to face the inevitable, can I talk to Jacob alone?" I said as Carlisle helped me stand.

"Don't you know why your in here, because of you two being alone?" Dad yelled

Dad, I have to talk to him I thought, he growled

"Emmet can stand outside of the door and If anything goes wrong Ill yell, I dunno, cinnamon toast." I tried to compromise.

"Why cant I?" he crossed his arms like an immature child

"Because you read minds," he unwillingly nodded at left the room, but not before giving Jacob a glare. The whole family left and for a moment there was awkward silence, then I hear sniffling sounds.

"I'm so sorry Ness" he cried

"Save it" I said and I saw him flinch. It hurt what I was about to say , but I knew if I looked vulnerable that he would take advantage of that.

"I told you if you left we were done. You left, were done." I knew I was being a bitch but I had to, he knew it was coming.

"Ness I'm sitting here crying for you." He looked sadly into my eyes

"Oh please, cry me a river!" I screamed

"What do you want?"

"I want you to not have a concussion. I want to not have broken ribs. I want you to have been a man of your word. I want you to not act like you're the victim."

"I'm sorry"

"That doesn't mean a thing if you do it again." I said and started to walk away.

"Ness don't walk away from me, from us," he pleaded

"You did it, my turn." I knocked on the door Emmett opened it. I walked out of the room with out a second look back.

I ran down stairs and didn't make eye contact with anyone, just grabbed my key's and ran to my car.

I drove just out of hearing range before tears of rage became me vigorously sobbing; I pulled over to the side. I let my head hit the steering wheel and I just cried. I cried until I thought no more tears could possible come out of my eyes, then I cried some more.

I pulled myself together and started to drive again, instinctively I started driving to La Push. I knew where I was going. I drove down the familiar road to a little cottage.

"Hey Nessi, Emily isn't home" Sam said running down the steps.

"I know, I kinda wanted to see you." I didn't really know, but I did want to see him

"Well come inside we can talk." We walked inside of the house and I flipped my hair out of my face.

"What is that on your forehead?" he sounded alarmed I pushed my bangs back in front of my scar.

Its, uh its nothing," I stuttered "don't worry its nothing" He didn't buy it, he moved my hair out of my face.

"Ness?" I sighed and put my hand to his face to show him what happened. I felt tears come out of my eyes.

"What's going on?" Blake said as he came into the room then I really started crying. He came over and grabbed me into a hug. I buried my face into his shoulder and just cried.

"Its okay, its okay" He said kissing my hair. Then his voice disappeared and all I could hear was my sobs.