AN: I know I haven't updated in forever, I have been without internet for over a month since I moved. I haven't had time to right more to stay ahead but I do feel bad that I hadn't updated in so long so here you guys go. I hope you enjoy this chapter, and sorry for any mistakes in spelling or structure, I am rushing this out to you so speed reading means I miss somethings sometimes.
Chapter 12
When I got home I was met by Rosalie in the garage. She did not look happy at all. I was nervous, I knew she wasn't happy with the situation. "Bella, you have really put us all at risk now! How could you do that to our family? You are being so selfish over a human boy." Rosalie shouted at me.
"Rosalie, I am sorry that you feel the way you do. I have tried to stay away from him, to push him away, and it didn't work. I love him Rose, like you love Emmett. What if the roles were reversed, would you be able to stay away from Emmett. Heck you two have such a hard time in school being in different classes and when you two are apart for longer you both go nuts, you try to deal and act like it doesn't bother you, all of you do, but I know the truth, I have read it in all your minds." I said a little loud, getting angry myself.
"I would have at least denied what we are. You messed up and let him see how different we are. If the Volturi find out about this we are all dead because we didn't take care of him." She hissed at me.
"Do you forget that I am a Volturi? That I am the most powerful one to top it off? I will fight for him if they come after any of us I will fight and it really does not take a lot for me to kill a vampire. And to be quite honest with you it is taking a lot for me not to kill you right now Rosalie. I will not allow you to threaten me or question me like that again Rosalie." I said as I stood tall and let the authority ring through my voice. Rosalie stumbled back a stepped and looked like she had been slapped in the face. "I am sorry about that Rose, I am, but I love Edward, he is my everything, I have been waiting so long to find my mate and nothing is coming between us. You can stay mad at me, I don't care, but you don't have to keep bringing it up to me. If you do I might not be able to control myself anymore." I said with a sigh.
"Bella, I know you love him, I do, I can see the change he brought out in you and I am happy that you found him. I just don't like the risk there is for all of us with him knowing what we are. And you know Jasper isn't happy about him knowing either." She said to me in a softer voice.
"Trust me Rose, I know all about that. He keeps trying to think of ways to take care of the threat and from reading Alice's thoughts with all the visions I know I will stop him. I don't even need to see the visions anymore because I am almost always around Edward that I would stop him. Besides, Alice would be furious with him if he killed Edward so he won't do it anyhow." I said.
"You know I have thought about helping him with taking care of Edward."
"Oh trust me, I know all about that too. I know the family had a meeting while I was with Edward. I know Carlisle shut you two down, to let this ride out. Alice had told you all that Edward wouldn't tell and I know he wouldn't. I am just glad that I wasn't here because there probably would have been a lot of damage." I said. Just thinking about it was making me mad.
"Carlisle and Esme figured that and then Alice said that they were right. So Alice, Esme, and Carlisle all spoke for you." Rosalie said.
"I am glad that they were able to take care of it for me. I would love to stay and chat more but…"
"But you are going back to Edward's house. Of course. Are you driving him again tomorrow morning?" She asked me.
"Yes I am Rosalie, I probably will everyday that I can go to school." I said in a sigh.
Rosalie turned quickly and walked into the house. I took off for Edward's house, Edward was still awake and I debated whether to wait outside until he fell asleep or surprise him by going in. I sat outside in the shadows for ten minutes before I couldn't wait anymore and went into his room. I surprised him alright, he jumped.
"Bella, what are you doing in my room?" He asked me when he calmed down a little bit.
"I can leave if you want me too." I said to him.
Edward's face fell. "No! Stay, please." He said. "How often do you come in my window?"
"Every night for the last couple months." I said with a slight shrug of me shoulder. "I like watching you sleep. You talk in your sleep, you say my name a lot." I said with a smile as I walked closer to his bed which is where he was lying. He sat up so he could see me better.
"Oh God, what else did I say?" He asked as he blushed.
"That you loved me." I said with a smile. My heart swelled just remembering him saying it.
"Oh, I uh, I can't believe you heard that." He said still blushing.
I sat down on the bed next to him and made him look at me. "Don't be ashamed or anything Edward. I love you too, at first I tried to talk myself out of it, that I was just obsessed with trying to learn about you since I couldn't read your mind but I realized a long time ago that I love you Edward." I said.
"I love you too Bella, I am so happy I was able to tell you that while I was awake." He said with that adorable crooked smile.
"Edward, I want to try something but you have to stay very still." I said, he nodded and sat like a statue. I leaned in closer to him and he started to lean a little to me. "Don't move." I said again as I stopped my movement.
Edward sat still again and I leaned in slowly and kissed him. After a couple seconds he started kissing me back and put his hands in my hair, before I knew it mine were in his as well. I removed my hands from him and then gently got his hands out of my hair and pulled away breathing hard, I quickly moved as far away as his room would allow so I could breath somewhat fresh air that was coming in the window.
"I am sorry." Edward said.
"Just give me a minute." I said still panting. Edward was too. When I had myself back in control I walked slowly back over to Edward. "I am stronger than I thought I was." I said as I sat back down.
"I'm sorry I'm not." He said looking down.
"Edward you reacted how you should. If I were human I would be able to do the same but I have to control myself so much when I am with you. I could hurt you, or worse kill you, if I am not in check." I said.
"You would never hurt me." He said with so much confidence in me.
"I would never hurt you on purpose but if I slip up and not control my movements I could and then I would feel horrid." I said.
"You did it again." Edward mumbled.
"Did what again?" I asked him as I cocked my head.
"You sometimes speak like you are from a different time and not even from this country." He said. He looked shocked at first that I had heard him but after he realized he had explained to me.
"Well I told you I have been eighteen for a while. I was born before America was discovered. I was born in England and then right after my transformation I lived in Italy for a long time. Carlisle and I came here shortly after the discovery." I said.
"Wow, so how old are you?" He asked.
"With my human age and vampire years combined I am four hundred and eighty five." I said hesitantly. I couldn't look him in the eyes, I felt a little dirty, like he wouldn't want me because I was that old.
"Bella look at me." Edward said, I didn't, he placed his fingers under my chin and I let him lift my head so I was looking at him. "Bella, I don't care how old you are. To me you are just the eighteen year old girl, or well right now seventeen. I love you no matter what, even if you did drink from humans." He said.
"Edward, I love you too, and I love the fact that you love me. I have waited a long time to find you and I am not going to give you up so easily. But just so you know, if you decide that you don't want me anymore, I will let you move on, I may follow you and watch out for you but I will let you be. I will do whatever I have to do to make sure that you are happy." I said. I then looked at his clock and saw that it was one in the morning. "You should go to sleep, it's late. I'll see you tomorrow morning." I said.
"I am not going to want anyone else but you Bella." He said. "What about you, aren't you tired?" He asked me.
"You may decide to move on Edward, human's go from relationship to relationship all the time. As for being tired, no I am not. I told you I watch you sleep every night. Vampires don't sleep." I said
"Ever?"
"Never. I wish I could though, I would love to dream about you." I said.
"Then will you stay?" He asked.
"If that is what you wish." I said. Edward laid down and pulled me next to him.
"I don't know if this is the best idea Edward." I said. "Remember you appeal to me in more ways than one."
"I trust you Bella." He mumbled as he fell asleep.
I laid there with him for most of the night. At five thirty I got out of his arms carefully and ran home to change. When I got back to his house he was still asleep so I got back on the bed, I only laid next to him but he moved closer to me and got his head on my stomach since I was partially propped up against the head board.
When Edward woke up I said, "Good morning Edward."
"You stayed all night?" He asked and then he looked at me fully. "You went home?"
"I thought I would change, that way while you are getting ready for school all I have to do is run home and get my car, then come back for you."
"You are going to drive me again?" He asked me as he sat up.
"If that is what you wish. If you don't want me to then I will just see you at school." I said.
"I don't mind riding with you, it gives me more time with you." He said with a slight blush.
"Alright, then I will be back by the time you are ready." I said as I got up and walked to the window.
"Wait, you are going to get hurt." He said as he saw me get ready to jump out the window.
"No I won't Edward, I am practically indestructible." I said. I stepped out of his window and landed. I heard Edward rush to the window and when I looked up I saw him leaning out looking down at me. "See Edward I told you. Go get ready, I'll see you I a little bit." I said, Edward went back in and then I took off for the house.
When I got home Alice was sitting on the roof my Volvo. "Good morning Alice." I said as she slid down.
"Good morning Bella. I just wanted to warn you that it is going to be sunny tomorrow so you can't go to Seattle with Edward." She said.
"Thank you, I will tell him on our way to school." I said as I slid in.
Alice waved to me as I pulled out of the garage. When I pulled up in front of Edward's house he quickly came out, he must have been watching for me.
"Ready for school?" I asked him as he closed the door
"Not really but as long as I get to see you I don't mind as much." He said.
"You brighten up my day too Edward." I said with a smile at him as I pulled out onto the road. "Do you absolutely have to go to Seattle tomorrow?" I asked him.
"Not overly, it could wait. I only really came up with that to get out of going to the dance. Why do you ask?" He asked me.
"Because Alice says it is going to be sunny tomorrow so I have to stay out of the public eye." I answered him.
"Why do you have to stay out of public? Does it have something to do with why you guys weren't in school when it was sunny? You guys didn't really go camping did you?" He bombarded me with questions.
"I can show you tomorrow why we don't go out in public when the sun is out. We have to hide away when it is sunny, that is why we moved back here, it is one of our favorite places to live since here is one of the areas with the most amount of days with cloud cover, lets us live an almost every day normal life. No we didn't really go camping. Some of us went on a hunting trip, we like getting away from here to get a bit of a variety in our diet." I told him.
"So then what are we going to do tomorrow?" He asked me.
"I was thinking that we could go hiking, I want to show you someplace that I like to go to think and be alone. I can show you why we have to hide, it's nice and sunny there." I told him as I pulled into my spot next to Rosalie's car. "I was also thinking that maybe afterwards or Sunday I could take you to my place and you could meet my family." I said, I wasn't looking at him because I didn't want to see his reaction to that.
"I would like to see this place that you like. I am up to meeting your family but do you think they will like me." He asked me.
"So let me get this straight, you are nervous, not because you are going to a house full of vampires but because you think they won't like you." I said with a slight chuckle.
"No one is going to physically hurt me, I already know that. But whether or not they are going to like me is a totally different thing." He said with his crooked smile.
"There are only two members of my family that you have to worry about." I said as we got out of my car.
"Well I know that Rosalie is one but who is the other one?" He asked me as he came up next to me.
"Jasper but for two reasons. Jasper is willing to kill you to get rid of the risk that I put on our family by getting so close to you and letting you know our secret. But also, Jasper is our newest member to our diet. Before he fed on humans a lot." I told him in a whisper.
"Oh, is that why he always looks like he is in pain?" Edward asked.
"Yes it is. Alice and I are almost always watching out for him. I feel bad how we all watch him but we need to make sure that he doesn't slip up. He understands even though it does annoy him some." I said.
"I could only imagine. Are you going to always walk me to my class or do I get to walk you to some of your classes?" Edward asked me as we approached his first class.
"Well I can get to my class before the bell rings where you would have problems with that. Also if I happen to be late I can get out of trouble with my ability to dazzle, as you like to put it." I said with a sly smile. I heard Edward's heart rate speed up and it made me smile wider. "I love the way I affect you."
"I am glad I can amuse you." He said as he turned and walked in his class.
The first half of the day was boring like always. I would meet Edward at his class and then walk him to his next. We would talk about trivial things, getting to know each other better. When we walked through the lunch line today Edward held the tray and we both put on food. I gave him the money so that he could pay for our meal.
When we sat down at our table I spoke first after Edward started to eat. "So I was thinking, I am going to take you to my house on Sunday, that way tomorrow we have all the time to hike and talk and you can still be home at a reasonable hour so your mother doesn't worry or anything."
"So, Alice can apparently see the future and you read minds, is everyone in your family gifted?" Edward asked in a whisper.
"No, not every vampire is gifted. You already know about Alice's gift. Jasper is an empath, he can feel people's emotions and even change them. Emmett is stronger that most vampires, almost as strong as a newborn. Carlisle and Esme don't have actually gifts but they are both extremely compassionate. Rosalie is the most beautiful vampire ever. I have a couple gifts, you know I can read minds but I am also a physical and mental shield, I can control fire, and I am telekinetic. Hardly anyone knows about the last two so you can't even tell a vampire out it." I said.
"Wow, so you are one that should not be ticked off. How come only some vampires have gifts?" He asked me.
"Carlisle thinks that the gifts we bring with us were traits we had as humans that were amplified by the venom along with the other traits of strength and senses. Alice's family had put her in an insane asylum when she was human because she was having visions. Now since she was changed it is even better, she can see further into the future. Jasper said he was always good at controlling a room, that he seemed to be able to influence people and know what they were feeling. I was able to have an idea of what people were thinking and had a interest in fire but never thought anything of it. As for my other gifts I don't know if there was any part of them obvious when I was human, it is hard to remember things from my human life." I said in a whisper while leaning further across the table.
"If I were to become a vampire do you think I would have a gift?" He asked.
"Well if I have a say in it you will not become this." I said motioning to myself. "But yes if, for some unknown reason you did become this, you will at least be a mental shield. I can't read your thoughts so that is a suggestion to that."
Edward looked like he was going to question me but the bell rang. We went to class and Mr. Banner was already in the room with the TV again. I was happy that we would not be able to talk but I was not looking forward to the weird electrical feeling that would be in the air between the two of us. When class was finally over I quickly got up and Edward quickly followed me.
"Bella why…" He started.
"Not now Edward. We can talk about that tomorrow or Sunday. I don't want to talk about it here." I said in a quite rush.
"But I want to know. I love you Bella and I want to be with you forever." He whispered back to me.
We were stopped outside of the boy's locker room. I put my hand on his cheek and he leaned into it. "I love you to Edward, more than you know and I would love nothing more than to have you with me forever. Please can we talk about this tomorrow?" I asked him in a frustrated sigh.
"Fine, but I won't forget that you said we can talk about it." He said as he touched my cheek and then walked into the locker room.
I rushed to class in a daze. i could still feel the warmth on my cheek from Edward's touch. I know Emmett talked to me during class but I didn't pay any attention to him. When class finally ended I rushed to the gym and met Edward. He didn't seem as surprised that I was there. We walked to my car in silence. Edward seemed deep in thought. "What are you thinking?" I asked as we neared his house, I couldn't take it anymore.
"About tomorrow, I still haven't told my mom so I think it would be best if we take my truck. I mean if my mom comes home and my truck is here but I am not then she might get worried or at the very least question me about who I was with." He said looking at me.
"Well I really wish you would tell your mother, it gives me a reason to bring you back." I said in a sigh.
"You keep saying that." Edward said.
"Because you don't seem to realize just how dangerous I am Edward. I keep waiting for you to go running from me." I said.
"Well that isn't going to happen so stop waiting for it." He said with his crooked smile.
"Your mom is coming home early, I can hear her thoughts." I said.
"Will I see you later tonight?" Edward asked as he got out of the car.
"No, Alice and I are going hunting tonight so I am full tomorrow. I'll be here tomorrow morning when you are ready." I said.
"Oh, ok, see you tomorrow morning. Wait a minute, but your car will be here, we can't have that." He said.
"Don't worry about that, my car will be home and I will be on your door step in the morning. Sweet dreams Edward." I said before he shut the door.
"Have fun Bella." He said as he shut the door and quickly walked into his house.
I drove off and was home before I really knew it. I walked into the house and before I even got up to my room I was met by Alice.
"So where are we going?" Alice asked me.
"We have to stay somewhat close so that I can be to Edward's in the morning." I replied.
"Ok so then I know where we are going. I'll drive if you don't mind." Alice said bouncing in her place.
"Fine." I said as I handed her my key. We ran down to the Volvo and we were off. Alice and I hunted and when we got home I quickly showered and changed into the clothes that Alice laid out for me. I wished Esme a good morning and then I ran to Edward's house.
