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AN: Sorry guys! I know it's been FOREVER since I last updated. I got seriously sidetrack with reading H/D stories… I just can't stop lol. My obsessive-ness has toned down a bit and I've been working on this story again. I've already got another chapter and a half done, so updates should be more regular again :D
Jacob
Overwhelmed
Well, that may be putting things lightly. Less than a week ago I was a normal teenage boy… and now? Now I don't even know what is real and what is imaginary. My entire knowledge base is constantly being challenged. It is a bit unsettling to find out that there really are monsters out there.
I've been trying to take it all in stride. I don't want the pack to think I can't handle this life and the responsibilities. A couple days ago, the day after I returned, Sam sat me down, just the two of us, and told me everything about my new skills, the daily routine, and the vampires living in Forks. He brought up the subject of lineage again and I flat out refused to step up as Alpha.
Sam looked at me sadly when I told him that, but he didn't put up a fight. It is a lot of responsibility to take on and I am far from able to handle it at this point. He did ask me to be his second in command. Sam wanted me to have some sort of say in things since my father is the chief, but honestly I only agreed so I could be closer to him.
These last few days may have been overwhelming, but I don't think I have ever been happier. The bond between Sam and I is the most incredible thing I have ever experienced. We are both so attuned to the other's feelings that it is like we can actually feel them. I think that may be why being away from him hurt so much, because I wasn't only feeling my pain, but his too.
There was even an incident yesterday when I was alone in my house, the weight of everything crashing down on my shoulders. I was a big heap of sobbing mess when I heard my bedroom door open and felt my love wrap his self around me. I was too relieved to care why he was there, instead I tried to soak up the strength and hope he was giving me.
After a while, when we started talking, I asked him why he came over. He was supposed to be at his house making sure all traces of Emily were gone. Sam told me that he could sense how sad and helpless I was and he felt compelled to find me and help me feel better. His answer tugged on my heart and I couldn't stop myself from turning in his arms and kissing him senseless. When we were out of breath he just held me close and we fell asleep in each others arms.
The pack has been exceptionally understanding of all the chaos and confusion that has been mine and Sam's relationship so far. They have even gone to taking over Sam's patrol shifts and mine too, now that I am part of the pack. They wanted to give me time to adjust to my new life, and let Sam help me through it. It's rough, but I am adjusting. Just those few days away from him were enough to know that I couldn't be anywhere else but with Sam.
Today we have been lounging around Sam's house, mostly watching movies and getting to know each other. I catch myself wondering how we fell into this relationship so comfortably, how we can touch each other tenderly and kiss without feeling weird about it. Neither of us preferred men before nor considered that we were gay, so it would make sense for us to fight it. But as I look at Sam now, lying across the couch with his head in my lap and my fingers running through his soft black hair, nothing else matters but him and the way my heart soars when he looks up at me and smiles.
My fingers are still and Sam's eyes go wide when we hear a howl. A frantic summoning howl. We are both out the door and shifting in a manner of seconds. As soon as we are in our wolf form, we hear Paul yelling for Sam to get to him quick. He picked up a new scent, vampires.
I follow Sam as he rushes through the forest, trees flying by us at a speed I thought I could only reach in a car. We get to Paul in just minutes and I can tell the moment that Sam picks up the trail. His body goes rigid and his nose lifts into the air. It is a fairly fresh trail; Paul must have missed them by only a few minutes.
"Paul, run back and tell the council what you found. Jacob and I will follow the trail to see where they are headed. Let the rest of the pack know too. We will be running tighter patrols for a while. Oh and ask Billy to call the Cullen's, we need to make sure it's not one of them or their friends."
Paul nods and heads back towards town. I turn back to Sam and can tell he is a little worried. He doesn't like rogue vampires hanging around, there was a reason for a treaty with the Cullen's. It is only a matter of time before people start disappearing or showing up dead. Automatically we both run, following the train. It is headed towards the Cullen's and as soon as Sam notices his thoughts turn red.
We reach the line and can go no further, not without speaking to Carlisle, the leader of the coven. I can see my house in Sam's thoughts and we immediately run to it. This will be the first time I am involved in any pack stuff with my dad, the chief, there.
I've been kind of upset with him lately. He never prepared me for any of this life. He knew that I never wanted to be chief of our tribe but when the Cullen's came back and some of us started shifting, he should have told me. He could have warned me. He thought since I hadn't shown signs from the beginning then I was free and clear. Yea fucking right. That turned out real well.
"Jacob, let it go baby. He was trying to protect you." Sam comes to a stop and I follow suit. He steps close and nuzzles into my neck, "He knew that given the chance, you would leave La Push and make a life with Bella. He didn't want to burden you with this knowledge if he didn't have to."
I sigh into his neck, he is right of course. I know my dad was trying to look out for me. I just feel like he's been lying to me. "I know Sam. I just hate being out of the loop. I feel like a fool when I think about the tribe meetings that dad included me in, that there was a whole different conversation then what I heard."
He pulls back and I can see and feel his love for me through this pack bond. I smile internally and my mood lifts. He can always make me feel so good, knowing I have his love and that he is mine. "Jake, no one thought you were a fool. We were all trying to protect you. We never wished this life on anyone. I still wish you didn't have to go through this, but I'm thankful everyday that you are mine. I love you Jake."
My chest clenches at his words. "I love you to, Sam." We spend on a few more moments leaning into one another, only feeling and thinking about each other. "Thanks. I don't think I could make it through all this without you."
"You won't have to, Jake. I promise."
We head back towards the house and I feel much better about my father being there. We shift just inside the tree line and toss on our pants that we have strapped to our ankles wo we can go inside. Paul is here still, having filled in my dad on the situation. Sam greets them both and I stand next to him.
As he tells them about the trail leading into the Cullens' territory I watch my dad. He has on his chief face even with it just being the four of us. Even with him being in a wheelchair, you could never mistake the sense of authority that comes from him.
Sam starts to talk about a plan and my attention goes back to the conversation.
"I think if we called them and told them the situation, they may allow us to follow the trail and see where it leads. I don't imagine they would want other vampires around who could blow they're cover or kill the people they know."
The chief nods his head agreeably. "That's a good plan Sam. And even if they don't let us track the vamps, they will be wary of them."
Paul is looking between the two like they have lost their minds. "You can't be serious. You want to ask the bloodsuckers for help? We don't need them! We are fucking wolves, killing vampires is what we were made for."
Sam looks at Paul and I notice his fists clenching in irritation. "Paul, we don't have any idea what we are dealing with. And the only way to find out, without waiting for people to start dying, is to follow that trail. Now unless you want to make the call to the Cullen's yourself I suggest you think things through before you open your mouth."
My eyes are like saucers and my breathing is heavy by the time Sam finishes. I've never heard him talk with so much authority and Paul just stands there with his head hung low. His voice was deeper and seemed to resonate through my whole being. All I can think of doing is throwing Sam against a wall right now and kissing him until my lungs burn. The only thing stopping me is my dad standing a few feet away.
My breath returns to normal after a few moments, but my eyes never leave Sam. He heads toward the house phone and dials a number. "Dr. Cullen? I was wondering if the pack and I could meet with you at the treaty line. We came across a problem that you may want to know about. It is very urgent and I would like to meet as soon as possible."
Carlisle must be agreeing because Sam tells him exactly where on the treaty line and agrees to be there in 30 minutes. He puts the phone down and walks back over to us. He sends Paul to tell the others and confirms with Billy his plans. We walk back out to the tree line and before he starts to take off his pants I push him into a tree.
He seems shocked for a split second, but my lips against his seem to ignite something inside him. His arms wrap around my waist and pull me tight against him, our bare chests hot against each other.
One of his hands threads into my hair and yanks my head back. His lips trail wet, open-mouthed kisses down my neck and my hands let loose on his chest, roaming every inch exposed. "Fuck Sam. You are so sexy when you act like an Alpha."
I can feel his lips form a smile against my neck before he says, "Does that turn you on baby?"
I gasp out a "Yes" and then whimper when he pushes me away from him. He chuckles when he sees my pouty face and shakes his head.
"You can be so damn cute. But we have a meeting to get to. We can ravage each other after we know more about the rogue vamps."
I gasp when he takes off his pants and stands naked and beautiful in front of me with a smirk on his face, and his half hard cock resting proudly against his thigh. Then he shifts and I can't help but whine. "No fair, you tease!"
I turn and strip fast, trying to keep him from seeing more than he deserves to. I hear a low howl just before I shift and then I can see his thoughts.
"Sam! The others are shifted. Don't think about that!" There are a few groans coming through our bond and I'm sure if I could blush right now I would. Sam just nudges me with his nose and takes off, chuckling at everyone else's displeasure.
AN: Thanks to DreamingPoet1988 for the beta job. Please go check out her page, she has a bunch of great stories. Thanks for reading and reviewing.
