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The Colleague.

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Chapter six.

Making my way back up to the apartment, feeling a bit like I've been hit by a baseball bat. Dazed! That kiss, I could kick myself; if only we'd done it sooner. My lips were tingling like I'd ate a chilli raw or something. Bella Swan, her name suited her. Emmett was where I had left him sat at the kitchen table mooning over his coffee. I sat with him and poured myself another.

"What's up Ed? You missing her already?"

"Nothing's up, I'm just really tired. Didn't get much sleep last night."

"Oh yeah, and why's that?" He was wiggling his eyebrows, and I realised how that sounded.

"Em you've got a one track mind."

"Yeah and?"

"Not what you think Emmett, I've only known her a day. I just found it difficult to sleep; yeah and that was because Bella was sharing with me with next to nothing on."

"Really, so was ya hard?"

"Em, this is between me and you right? Man, it wouldn't go down; I was literally erect all night, well while I was awake anyway." Emmett burst into laughter, it's not that funny!

"I can see why buddy, she's extremely sexy and her ass; man I've never seen better. Oh and keep that quiet, Rose is gonna give me hell anyway."

"Tell me about it, she's very liberated you know, last night she stripped down to her underwear right in front of me."

"Nothing wrong with that Edward, so you really like her don't you?"

"Yeah I do, we kissed downstairs. Emmett; what if I fuck up? You've seen how she is; what if I can't live up to her expectations."

"Fucking hell, why must you always put yourself down. Listen you're a great catch. Rose come out here a minute please."

"What the fuck are you doing Em?" Rose appeared looking a bit guilty maybe?

"Yeah, what is it Emmett, has Bella gone?"

"Yeah she has. Listen, Edward's having problems; he really likes Bella and he's putting himself down again. Tell him what you told me Rose."

"Oh right about...?" Em nodded.

"Right how do I start? Listen Edward; there's a few things you should know. Before I say, let me tell you something, most single women in our office have the hots for you. You know Victoria the receptionist?"

I nodded, she was a nice woman, always helpful.

"She's totally in love with you."

"No way, really?"

"Oh yes and then there's Bree, she's always asking about you since you and Tanya split up. The list goes on Edward; what I'm trying to say is you really shouldn't do this to yourself.

"That's easy for you to say."

"Listen, yeah your relationship with "the bitch" fucked up but I know it wasn't your fault. I have a strong suspicion she just wanted out so she said those harsh things to you to end it quickly. From what Bella's told me and she's had run ins with Tanya before and she didn't go into much detail and I'm not saying if this is the truth but..."

"Spit it out Rose."

"I think she may of been cheating on you Edward and honestly it breaks my heart to say this to you. But I trust Bella more than I ever trusted Tanya."

"You trust Bella? After your performance earlier?"

"Yeah I do, I was just in a mood before because she was showing her ass off and it's nicer than mine; that's the way we roll. She'll get me back. If you two are going to start seeing each other, you'd better get used to it. So is that all you're gonna say?"

"I'm not stupid, it's crossed my mind before obviously, she got with this Jake quite quickly. Oh I don't fucking know. I don't care what she's told other people, well except Mike and his cronies. The damage is done, she made me feel inadequate and that has kind of festered away at me. I can't help it. I did love her?"

"Edward they were just words you know, everybody says things in the heat of the moment, doesn't mean she actually thought that. And she is a devious bitch always out to make herself look good, and don't deny it Edward, you know that deep down. Just think about what I'm saying. Listen I care about you and well your brother thinks you're the best thing since sliced bread. And we don't want to see you putting yourself down."

"Rose is right Ed, don't dwell on what Tanya said. You like Bella, you should focus on that. Man she likes you too, a lot, right Rosalie?

"She does look, I know Bella and I wind each other up, but contrary to what it seems sometimes we do have intelligent conversation, she was being honest when she said she had an instant connection with you and Bella isn't the deceitful type. She always says what's on her mind good or bad."

"I guess what you both say makes sense; I will try alright. Er.. Rose what you said before about Bree and Victoria, should I be worried?" They both laughed, they had a different sense of humour to me I was being serious, hell maybe that's my problem. Serious Edward needs to chillax a bit.

"Hmm Bree not so much but Victoria well I'd keep my eye on that one if I was you. Do you know? I actually saw her writing Victoria and Edward forever on her writing pad."

"Really? Well fuck I had no idea, you don't think she'll turn into some kind of bunny boiler do you?" Shit I was begining to worry, please say no, please say no!

"It's hard to say, just keep an eye on her and I'll do the same alright Edward but I wouldn't worry to much about it, life's too short." Why are they both trying to keep a straight face? I guess that was all I could do, I'd keep a lookout.

"So, what's your plans for today you two?"

"Well I'm meeting Alice in a hour, we're going shopping and out for lunch, then we're having a girly night in. So Emmett baby, I have to run if I want to get changed and meet her. I'll be round tomorrow at lunch, you're cooking remember."

"Rose, course I remember, Ed's going to help me, aren't you?" News to me but I didn't have any plans so guess I was. Rosalie and Em kissed goodbye and it was just us.

"I'm gonna go and shower Emmett, you fancy having a few beers later just in the apartment?"

"Sure, I'm up for that. We'll talk too. Anyway I'm going the gym now, meeting Jasper. Don't you fancy coming? Work on those pecs. I can wait while you shower."

"Nah, not my scene, tell Jasper I said hello, see you later Em." He waved me goodbye.

I couldn't wait to shower, the sooner I got my hand around my cock the better. I needed to relieve the sexual tension that had been building since yesterday. I nearly tripped up, rushing to get my boxers off. Jerking off for me was when I could indulge in my true fantasies, I had never felt brave enough in my relationship with Tanya to act out any of them. While I thought my sex life was adequate with her and she certainly never complained to me I knew that it could of been greatly improved. Hell, maybe I could of discussed my fantasies with her, she may have not thought then that I was so useless in bed; too late now I guess.

The spray was hot and steamy and provided the right atmosphere for what I wanted, soaping up and grabbing my erect cock I couldn't wait to get started; it wouldn't take long I was sure. One of my favourites I think, a fantasy woman with the tip of my penis in her mouth, licking and sucking the end. "Take more of me." The woman slowly moved her mouth along the length of my cock using her tongue licking when she could and using her lower teeth, she scraped ever so lightly against the underside of my penis. Going faster now, her head bobbing up and down, moaning in the pleasure she was taking from my cock. I was brutally wanking now, a hard fast motion. "I want you to swallow everything I give you." The woman who had remained a mystery until now morphed into Bella Swan in my mind. Bella's big brown eyes looked directly at me while her mouth was wrapped around my cock and it was too much. No not yet! Oh my god, I screwed my eyes up even tighter and felt the familar coil in the pit of my stomach and yes...Fuck...Bella... Thick streams of cum shot all over the shower tiles slowly being washed away by the hot water. Fuck that was... words fail. I don't think I've ever had a jerking off session so short and intense, I mean my fantasy hadn't even finished properly. I was supposed to work her into a frenzy by licking and sucking her pussy.

I quickly rinsed my junk, stepping out of the shower I dried myself and put on a pair of shorts and a teeshirt. Fucking hell I need a rest now, so I laid on my bed thinking. That had never happened before, usually when I masturbated the ladies remained unrecognizable because it was a fantasy right, even when I was with with Tanya she had never featured in any of them. Was that normal? My fantasies, well they were of varied sexual scenarios but they all had one thing in common. I controlled it, the women all willing to please me and they did what I asked them too, getting pleasure from me in return. Too bad I hadn't put it in to practice for real yet. Why didn't I try with Tanya, would she of done? See, this is another reason why I feel inadequate. I held back, thinking it was what she wanted. I was lacking in the communication. It wasn't boring as such; it was vanilla, done by the book so to speak. We should of talked more about it. Something occurred to me then, why didn't I say something when she said I'm boring and useless? I just took it, the abuse. Would of it made any difference? From what Rosalie had said I doubt it.

No, stop being a dick Edward. I'm going to try and do what my brother had said, put the Tanya shit behind me and I don't mean her personally. I mean the way I've been feeling after the breakup. All this self doubt, I had to change for my own good. Funny how Bella walking into the office yesterday had started the wheels in motion. Hmm...

"Hey Edward wake up, it's five in the afternoon have you been asleep this long? Man Bella must of tired you out last night. Anyway get up, I brought dinner back."

Fuck, I must of been exhausted, I went to wash my face and joined Em in front of the tv, he had two beers on the coffee table plus two huge deli sandwiches, pastrami with everything and a massive bowl of chilli chips. I'm so hungry. So I dived in, thanking Em.

"So, you gonna spill, what exactly did you and Bella do last night?"

"It wasn't like what was implied, Bella sleep talked and well she kinda felt me up, I woke her and she didn't seem to mind what she was doing. That's all really."

"Man you're a lucky fucker, I'll say it again. But there is something bothering you bro, come on you can tell me I'm an expert in most things."

I told Emmett about my feelings of inadequacy because of how Tanya dumped me, think he was getting sick of hearing Tanya's name. I also told him about the vanilla sex and how I really wanted more but didn't think she would want it so never mentioned anything.

"Listen Ed, Tanya was a bit unapproachable, maybe it wouldn't of made a difference. She was cold. Listen I'm gonna be blunt, I don't know why you're still thinking about that little bitch, when you could have a gorgeous woman like Bella."

"I can't help it, she really fucked me up. I thought we'd be together for ever. Sure she was distant towards the end but I never saw it coming Em."

"Yeah I understand, listen I know what she did was fucking shite, in my opinion she isn't worth all this anguish you're putting yourself through. You're over her right?"

"Yeah I think so, just. But maybe I'm ruined for anyone else."

"Fuck off Ed, change the record. You need a reality check, Bella is perfect, just what you need, she interested in you bud, flaws and all. I think you underestimate yourself. She can see the real you, not some plastic fucker who Tanya tried to change you into. You said you wanted more sex wise, tell me what you meant?" Should I explain? Hell he was my brother if I couldn't tell him there was no hope for me.

"This is difficult for me to explain, shit. I've always liked the idea of controlling sex, asking a woman to do things but only if she's willing. Do you get what I mean?" Think that sounded right.

"You mean you want a woman to suck you off, jerk you off and fuck you when you ask her too? Edward don't look like that, well I'm sorry; but that's what you mean isn't it?"

"Yeah I suppose, but I wouldn't of put it so bluntly. Am I a weirdo?"

"For fuck sake Ed, whatever floats your boat. And you've never done this before?" I nodded no.

"I'm not being funny, but you should, hell I like Rose to beg for my cock before she gets it. We all have our kinks to spice things up. And if that's yours, you need to go for it."

I guess he was right, I needed to be more optimistic. I got up and grabbed a few more beers, it was good to talk. My mobile was beeping indicating a text message, looking at the screen Bella's name appeared along with a picture sign. I pressed open and nearly dropped my phone. OMG... Bella was wearing a bright red matching bra and panties set and it said in the caption, "thought you needed a visual".

"Who's that Ed? You're bright red, is that off Bella? Let me see."

"Yes it is and no way, for my eyes only." Emmett looked disappointed, so tough shit. I texted her back saying she looked sexy and it was just what I needed. I'm going to take a leaf out of Emmett's book, and try and stop acting like I've got a stick up my ass. Wonder what Bella is up to this evening...

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