A/N: So here is the new update. For the song, I changed some of the words so it can fit with the story. I hope you like this chapter! If you want to, leave a review. And if you don't, then I understand. Have a great day my wonderful readers!
Disclaimer: I do not own Glee or Fuckin' Perfect by P!nk.
I walked into the apartment feeling as happy as a clam. Life was really good. I was in love with Finn and Finn was in love with me and we were married. My dreams finally came true. Ever since Finn and I started dating, I changed. I changed from being the mean and horrible person I was to a nice person. People can actually be around me and not be scared that they would get beat up or tossed around. And the best part (about changing) is that I can actually be near people and not want to beat them up or toss them around.
I put the groceries onto the island and walked to the room to take off my shoes. Finn was there, sitting on the bed with a shocked look on his face. Tears were falling down his cheeks slowly. "Oh my god! Baby, what happened?" I asked him immediately wrapping my arms around him and kissing his cheeks.
"He died. He died and it was all my fault. I'm a horrible person!" He yelled and threw his phone at the mirror.
"Finn look at me. Who died? And why is it your fault?" I asked him, still holding him.
"Jonathan died. Jonathan killed himself last night. Apparently, he got home from work and went into his room and... and he.. he shot himself in the head. It's all my fault because I was so mean to him. I am a horrible fucking person!" Finn yelled again.
"Finn stop saying that. You are the best person I know. I am sure you didn't intentionally want him dead so how can this be your fault?" I asked him.
"Because the song." he whined.
"The song? The song was telling him that you moved on and that he should too. It's not your fault that he killed himself. And once again, you are the best person I know. In fact, you changed me. You changed me from the bitch I was to the great person I am now! Don't you see, you are a wonderful person to everyone you meet. You could never ever be mean." I told him.
"Yes I am! What other reason would he kill himself for?" He asked me.
"You made a wrong turn once or twice
Dug your way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to our silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss 'No way, it's all good'
It didn't slow you down.
Mistaken, always second guessing
Underestimated, look I'm still around
Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than fucking perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're fucking perfect to me
You're so mean when you talk
About yourself. You were wrong.
Change the voices in your head
Make them like you instead.
So complicated,
Look happy, You'll make it!
Filled with so much hatred
Such a tired game
It's enough, I've done all I could think of
Chased down all my demons
I've seen you do the same
(ohh ohhhhhhh)
Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than fucking perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're fucking perfect to me
The whole world's scared, so you swallow the fear
The only thing you should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in line and we try try try but we try too hard
And it's a waste of my time.
Your done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere
They don't like your jeans, they don't get my hair
Exchange ourselves and we do it all the time
Why do we do that, why do I do that (why do you do that)?
Pretty, pretty, pretty
Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than fucking perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing than you're fucking perfect to me
(you're perfect, you're perfect)
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're fucking perfect to me!"
He was crying throughout the whole song. "Do you get what I'm trying to tell you here? I mean I changed the words to make it to our situation but, you know you're fucking perfect for/to me right?" I asked him.
"Yes, well I hope so!" Finn said smiling, whilst the tears still rolling down his cheeks. I couldn't really tell if they were because of Jon or because of the song.
"Do you know what we are going to do?" I asked him. He shook his head no. "We are going to go to the funeral. Tell the family our condolences and give them our respect. Then we will go home and do very nasty things to each other." I told him.
"Are you sure you want to do that?" he asked.
"Of course I want to do that! Why would I not?" I asked him.
"Well, I can't even look at myself so how can you?" he asked jokingly.
"Oh shut up!" I told him and lightly punched his arm.
"I love you." he said to me as he wrapped his arms around me and lay me on the bed. He started kissing me.
"And I love you more."
