Bleach is not mine. If it was I wouldn't be sitting around on FanFic writing now would I.

Ok so I had this crazy idea. I know what your saying all my idea's are crazy, but stick with me it gets crazier. Ok this book if you haven't already noticed, has mention of rape, drug use, and all around sadism.

The Other Side

Ichigo turned around a corner and jumped up grabbing a fire escape and climbing up. Not long afterwards Rukia came around the corner and stopped under him. She looked around before taking off in another direction. Ichigo slid down and walked back to the bridge where he had watched Nel die. He sat down leaning against the cold concrete and held his shaking hands up. He rubbed them on his pants trying to dry the sweat on him. It was back. Whatever had awoken when he had beaten Nel's dad was still there. After he had saved Nel it had gone to sleep. He hadn't noticed it but when he looked back it had been there. After Nel had died though it had sprung back to life. However this time it wouldn't hide. It was always there at the side of his mind, bloodthirsty, ruthless, and sadistic it battered against his self-control trying to get back out. He held it there. Sometimes though it slipped out. He never let it take over though. He always locked it back up before he lost control.

How long could he hold it though. It grew stronger as he did. However it didn't weaken like he did. After the fight with the Menos it had attacked. His defenses were low and it was hard to contain. He had thrown up twice already and he was starting to see double. He jumped as Sado sat down next to him. He hadn't heard him coming. The giant took out a joint and handed it to Ichigo before flicking a zippo and lighting it. Ichigo inhaled before passing it to his friend. The thing in the back of his mind drifted a little farther away, and as they passed it back and forth it disappeared.

Not long after they had finished Rukia, Tatski and Orohime showed up. Ichigo really didn't want to deal with emotions and that sort of bullshit and made a run for it. However he just kinda stumbled a few feet and fell flat on his face. Sado however realized his situation and walked up to the girls.

"You guys need to head back to Orohime's house for awhile, we are in the middle of guy time here." Sado said motioning to a baked Ichigo trying to get into a sitting position.

"You found him. Why didn't you call us?" Rukia hissed.

"Cause he is a wreck and he doesn't need to feel emotions and talk it out. He needs to relax and just not think."

"He needs to see a psychiatrist." Rukia snapped before trying to push past the large man. It should suffice to say she simply ran into him.

"Go. Away. He is perfectly fine and he isn't going anywhere." Sado said turning around to head back to his friend. "And if you don't leave I will not hesitate to punt your short ass across the river."

Rukia left in a huff with Orohime and Tatski not far behind, smiling at the sight of Sado righting their loopy friend.

"So why are you here." Ichigo asked closing his eyes and leaning against the wall. He wasn't upset with Sado. The quiet man was truly the only person that Ichigo could stand for long periods of time. He was his true friend and knew when to talk, what to say, and never questioned, never wavered.

"Rukia was worried." Sado said simply. Ichigo groaned. Ever since she had found scars from where he had cut himself she hadn't let him out of her sight and pestered him about the littlest things.

"I haven't cut for a year and a half. I know its stupid now."

"She is still worried. She had us all looking. I knew where you would be and since I knew you wouldn't be feeling up for all that touchy feely thing that girls do I came to hang out." Sado replied leaning his head on the wall as well. He had known about the thing for awhile now. Ichigo had told him during one of their "man times". Since then Sado had always carried a joint to calm the orange haired boy down. They sat their for much of the rest of the after noon.


Ichigo had felt better after spending time in the comfortable silence with Sado. He had awoken the night before in a cold sweat. He had been having a dream. In his dream he was looking at himself. Except it wasn't him. He wore a White hooded white tunic that was held in place by a red belt. He wore under it black pants tucked into black boots, and gauntlets covering his forearms and hands. The other version of himself was smiling like a lunatic in a black sleeveless vest with a flaming skull on the back. He also wore black cargo pants tucked into boots but his hands and forearms were wrapped in tape and he had a black bandana wrapped around his head. That was it. He had woken up after that to find, in his shaking hands, his zambankto and freaked. It had been so close to breaking out.

Now he felt better. When he got to Orohimes he found only Tatski and Orohime.

"Hey Ichigo Rukia ran off. She said something about her brother" Tatski said answering his unasked question.

"Oh yeah thats right I forgot. I need to go find them." He said lying on the spot. He quickly searched around him and found a large amount of Reitsu not far away. He cursed himself as he casually walked out the door before closing it and bolting down the street.

'Soul Society, their here. How could I have missed them." He passed Sado and heard him fall into step behind him.

'Like hell they are going to take her back.

AN

Ok sorry for the long wait but I am busy sorry.

I plan on adding more soon so sorry for the short update.