It Must Be Love
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Chapter 4 –Give a little love and it all comes back to you
Bella's point of view
Wow, was all I can say, after having Edward spend forty-five minutes sitting with me. He was genuinely a nice guy, there was some feelings showing that there shouldn't have been, but I just pushed it aside because he was Ethan's doctor and nothing else.
Edward had just told me that I would be able to be released tomorrow if all things go well with Ethan throughout the night. I was actually rather lucky because I have always hated that most hospitals take babies away to the nursery but here, that doesn't happen the leave the baby with the parent because it helps them bond better. It also helps the parents get used to waking in the night. Yes I am sad enough to have looked this up and have read various things. I found out that in the England that they never take the babies away unless they are critically ill.
Anyway I really couldn't believe that I am now a mother and that I am able to breastfeed a child: not any child, but my child. It's not exactly how I planned, but then again that's not how life works. I was so happy that I was able to go home tomorrow because if I stayed longer people might find out what happened and that is why I moved to get away from it and started afresh by myself and with my baby. Yes, I found it hard leaving my family and all my friends but I just couldn't cope with everyone asking if I was ok every five minutes, it did my head in.
Flashback
"Mum, I am leaving whether you like it or not, I know that I am your only child and that you don't want me to leave but you need to think what's best for me because I really can't be around here anymore, I need to be able to have space. Be able to go grocery shopping without anyone checking up on me or if I need had because I am completely fed up with it." I said losing my temper slightly. This just made my mother leave the room, yes I do love my parents, of course I do but they just can't let me be. I know that it is there job to look after me however I am now a completely responsible adult. After everything that happened, I think I know what is right for myself.
End of flash back
I came out of these memories because Ethan started to stir in my arms. I looked down at him and started to gently stroke his temple and this soothed him quickly and he just snuggled into me more and went into a deeper sleep. I looked at the time and realised that the time is only 3pm. I was feeling really hungry and was kinda low in energy, so I rang the bell which was actually a button. I couldn't believe who entered, but I had wished it would be Edward and it was. He comes in looking all hot and flustered yet completely panicked. Edward rushed over to me and gave me and Ethan a look over, then he asked what was wrong. I replied by saying "Oh, nothing's wrong as such it's just that I am really hungry." This caused him to smile and say "Yeah, I suppose you are. I will get something for you from the canteen." What he said confused me because I thought they just have a trolley in the wards with food on it. He then asked me what was wrong again and I said "Don't they just have a trolley with food in for the ward?" This causes him to laugh quite loudly whilst saying "You don't really want to eat sloppy mush, when I could get you something delicious from our canteen do you? Because you're worth decent, especially with that cutie." This caused me to smile because he was one of those doctors that genuinely cared or it might just be because he really likes me. But then who would like me in a million years. I know that I am just a plain jane and that there is nothing special about me, but now that I have a son that is so special to me, I will be special to him.
Edward then leaves the room to go and gets me some food. I tell myself that I need to stop all the rambling inside my head and look after my son. I then realise that as I wasn't at home and wasn't expecting to go into labour that I have no change of clothes or anything for me or Ethan. Whilst I was thinking about what I could do Rosalie comes in saying is there anything else that I need other than some food. I then ask her to come in and explain that I don't have anything with me as I wasn't expecting to go into labour. At this point Edward comes back with my food, I start tucking in right away as I am starving. Edward then says he could pick some stuff up for me because is also covering the night shift. I then said to him "No honestly you don't have to I will think of something." Edward then argued with me on this point because there will be nothing for Ethan and he needs a car to get home and that I haven't got a car here. So then Rosalie then says that I should be discharged about 11am tomorrow and that is when Edward finishes his night shift, so then he could take me home. I was really unsure about agreeing to this, but he is a doctor so he really can't do anything wrong. Im still thinking it over when Edward says yes that's what's happening. Both of them get up ready to leave the room when Edward tells me that he is going to get me some paper and a pen, so that I can write a list of things that I need and which rooms they are in. He then returns moments later with pen and paper. He tells me to write anything that I need and he says that he doesn't care what it is or how much there is just to write down everything that I need. I sit there thinking what I need and then I start writing.
Bella's List of stuff that she needs:
Shower gel, Shampoo, Deodorant – Bathroom (upstairs, third door along the hall)
PJ's, Leggings, T-shirt, Underwear, Hairbrush - Bedroom, then in walk in closet (upstairs, first door along the hall)
Baby grows, nappies, car-seat, mittens, blankets, cuddly – In Ethan's room (door in my room connecting or second door along the hall)
Last but not least: A BIG BAR OF GALAXY- found in the kitchen in the cupboard above the fridge
Thank you
Bella x
After I have written the list I leave it on my bedside table and snuggle down on the bed with Ethan and slowly start to dose off. I am woken awhile later by Edward asking if I want to put Ethan in his crib and what my address is so he can go and collect the bits I need. Edward brings Ethan's crib over so it is next to the side of my bed. I then reach and put him in the crib and try not to disturb him. He wriggles about for a couple of minutes and then snuggles back down and falls back asleep. Edward then looks up at me and asks for my address and mobile number because I have my mobile with me he can ring me in case he gets lost or thinks of anything that I might need and he doesn't know where it is. I write down my address and mobile number on the piece of paper with the list and hand it to him with my house key. Edward then says that he is leaving now and that he will be back in a couple of hours and I say "that's completely fine, there is no rush, I will probably just snooze and be with Ethan". I look over at Ethan while he is sleeping and Edward's gaze follows where I am looking and the Edward reached out and tucks a piece of my hair that has come loose behind me ear and then he suddenly gets up and takes the list and leaves the room.
Edward's point of view
I really pushed it there by tucking her hair behind her ear; it was just so tempting I had to do it. I also can't believe she trusted me enough to go and get stuff from her house, I am thinking all this whilst fiddling with her house key in my pocket. I then quickly leave the hospital before I regret what I am doing.
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