A/N: So firstly, thank you for all of the reviews and alerts! You guys are seriously the best! Also, totally meant to update this sooner but life caught up with me and I never got around to posting it so I apologize for that… And so far the story's been sort of Becca centric, I'm thinking maybe in another chapter or two having more focus on Lizzie or Cam (or both), because I do have ideas for them… Also I promise Finchel flashbacks soon, I know some of you were asking for that. Anyways as always let me know what you think! Is it good, or does it suck? Either way I like to know what you think, reviews make my day XD
"Can we come with you and daddy?" Lizzie bounces on her feet looking at Blaine.
"No." Blaine answers bluntly.
"But dad…" Cam tries.
"No." Blaine reiterates "Stay here with Grandpa and Grandma and go to bed."
"But we want to see Becca," Lizzie pouts.
"You'll see her in the morning." Kurt says skeptically.
"We want to see Becca get in trouble." Cam clarifies.
"Come on, to bed both of you." Carole says shooing them both upstairs.
"Goodnight daddy, goodnight dad." Lizzie sighs.
"Goodnight pop, night dad." Cam grumbles.
"Goodnight," Kurt and Blaine call out in unison.
"What do we do?" Kurt asks zipping up his jacket.
"Well we aren't taking the twins,"
"I meant about Becca," Kurt says half-amused "I mean she's never really been in trouble before." He adds on a more serious note.
"I don't know," Blaine admits. Kurt looks to his dad who's coming in from the kitchen.
"We're clueless." Kurt sighs.
"Just do what feels right to you," Burt shrugs "and make sure she knows how much she scared you tonight, that the important thing is that she's okay but she's still in trouble."
"Thanks dad," Kurt nods "we'll be back soon."
"Good luck," Burt says gruffly before heading upstairs.
XXXX
"We're here for Rebecca Hudson." Kurt tells the officer sitting behind the desk.
"Are you her parents?" The officer eyes both of them skeptically, "Because she's underage we can only release her to…"
"Yes," Kurt says quickly "we're both her parents, is that a problem? We have the adoption papers if you really need proof." he responds coldly to the officer's continual gaze, abruptly taking Blaine's hand daring the officer to question them.
"No, it's fine, I'd rather not have to deal with that." The officer looks down unapologetically "Name?"
"Blaine and Kurt Hummel-Anderson," The officer shuffles papers, verifying who knows what. After a few minutes of signing papers and questions he gets up.
"You're free kid," They hear the officer say as Becca comes out walking with him.
She looks down at her feet and walking towards Kurt and Blaine, who both hug her with a weak "Thank god you're okay." but none of them say anything as she follows them to the car.
Blaine looks behind at Becca who's staring blankly out the window "What the hell were you thinking?" He asks finally.
"I didn't actually do anything." Becca tries weakly "I didn't drink; the officer gave me a test and everything. It won't go down on my record."
"That's not what we care about; we care about the fact that you could have gotten yourself killed. This is the most idiotic thing you could have done Becca." He rages.
"Look I'm sorry, okay?"
"That's not good enough." He lets out exasperatedly "What in the world would possess you to get into a car with someone who's drunk behind the wheel? I don't get it. Why couldn't you have called us if you wanted a ride home?"
"I didn't want you to get upset."
"You didn't want us to get upset? Do you know," Blaine breaths "what it feels like to stay up until one in the morning waiting for you? Kurt and I thought you'd been killed, or were hurt. Then to get a call from Quinn saying Connor had no clue where you'd gone to, that you had left the party before him?"
"I think she gets the idea Blaine," Kurt starts to say but Blaine continues.
"Does the fact that your parents were killed by a drunk driver mean anything to you?"
"Of course," Becca says, tears starting to well in her eyes.
"Well you sure aren't acting like it."
Becca doesn't respond to this, the rest of the ride is silent.
The house is dark and silent when they get home, everyone must be asleep Becca reasons as she plops down on the couch. Kurt and Blaine don't say anything but head into the kitchen. She can hear their muffled voices through the doorway, it almost sounds as if they're fighting. She sits there silently until Kurt and Blaine walk back in, they both sit down next to her, Kurt holding a mug of warm milk, he hands it to her silently.
"How do you get it so sweet?" She asks him quietly, it was something she'd always wondered when she was little, but she'd never actually asked.
"Vanilla and Nutmeg." Kurt shrugs "My mom used to make it for me when I was a kid."
Blaine looks at her "I'm sorry about yelling at you like that in the car, I didn't mean to lose my temper with you like that. I was just so worried we'd lose you, like we lost…" He doesn't finish his sentence.
"I sort of deserved it though didn't I?" She asks quietly.
"I started to cross the line towards the end," Blaine says "and for that I'm sorry."
"I'm sorry for… everything," Becca says softly, she looks up at both Kurt and Blaine "Am I grounded?"
"Did you think you wouldn't be?" Kurt asks with a tone of amusement.
"I can dream can't I?" She smiles softly "What exactly does it encompass though? I've never been grounded before. How long?"
"You go to school, basketball practice, play rehearsal, then come home." Blaine says, this much he and Kurt had discussed.
"We'll let you know for how long after we've talked about it more. Consider it indefinite for now." Kurt adds.
"Okay," Becca nods, she looks down at her feet.
Kurt looks at her seriously and shakes his head "You're smart Becca, why wouldn't you have more common sense?"
"I was upset, okay?" She sighs.
"Why?" Blaine asks "And why was that guy driving you home. Why didn't you tell Connor?"
"Because…" Becca started "he…" She stopped, tears streaming down her eyes "he's a dick." She finally let out, looking between Kurt and Blaine "If I tell you something do you promise you won't get upset?"
"More than we are now you mean?" Blaine blinks.
"If you have something to tell us you might as well do it now, get everything out and over with before it comes back later."
"It's not like that… it just." She sighs "The last time we were in Ohio, when I was hanging out with Connor? Well we had sex, and it was my first time, but then we had to leave to go back home." Blaine closes his eyes and Kurt purses his lips but neither of them stop her, so she keeps going "We texted and talked online so I sort of assumed we were a thing, even with the long distance and everything. Then at the party we were going to, well, but then I started talking about how awesome it'd be if we both went to school in the city because he's been talking about going to school there and then he flat-out told me it was strictly a friends with benefits thing, that he didn't want me to expect anything else from him. So I got all upset and walked away, then he was making out with some other girl. Then Drew, the guy who was driving, asked if I needed a ride and I said yes. I didn't care that he was drunk, I just didn't want to be driven home by Connor." Becca finishes, sniffling loudly.
"I think I've heard enough," Blaine says getting up "I'm going to bed. I'll see you in the morning, I love you." He tells Becca as he hugs her before kissing Kurt's cheek.
"I'll be up shortly," Kurt tells him before he heads upstairs.
After Blaine's left Becca looks at Kurt who still hasn't said anything to her "Are you going to say anything to me?"
"I'm still trying to comprehend everything," He murmurs stiffly, Becca feels him looking at her in a completely new way, like he doesn't know what to say. He relaxes a moment and looks her in the eye "Thank you for telling us that. It still doesn't change what you did, but we, or at least I, understand it now." He sighs "I guess Blaine and I did sort of flake out on the whole 'talk'"
"You didn't, I mean I understand…"
"I don't mean that aspect." Kurt shakes his head "Not the mechanics or protection and all of that. I meant… when I was sixteen my dad gave me this whole talk on how it can affect you emotionally."
"Oh," Becca nods "what'd he say?" She asks finally after realizing he won't tell her unless she asks.
"Not to throw myself around, that I matter," Kurt smiles weakly, he sighs "stuff I probably should have told you sooner. I guess it's hard for me and Blaine to accept how much your growing up, how much you've grown up. I mean I think about what we did when we were your age…" He stops "try and get some sleep." He tells her finally "We'll talk more about your grounding in a few days, after Christmas, once we're back at home."
"Wait," Becca stops him as he was about to follow Blaine upstairs, Kurt turned "what… what was your first time like?"Kurt freezes, his face turning red.
"Becca I really don't think,"
"I know it's weird, but I'm just curious." She looks at him pleadingly "please?"
"Fine," He sighs "what do you want to know?"
"Well how old were you?"
"I was your age, seventeen."
"Who was it with?"
"Blaine. We'd been dating a little over 7 months and we'd been talking about it for a while, and then we decided we were ready and it happened."
"Really?" Becca blinks "Is he the only one you've…"
"No," Kurt says blushing crimson "there was a time in college when we broke up and I…" He doesn't finish the sentence, but Becca understands.
"How did you know you were ready?" She asks finally.
"When we both decided it was something we wanted, something we were both prepared to handle." He sighed "There's a lot of emotional baggage that comes with it, sometimes more than you're aware of. You have to be prepared to put yourself on the line like that. To expose yourself to someone so vulnerably like that, it's a lot and it is scary, and you need to be sure it's something you're ready for. We were."
"What was it like?"
"Awkward." Kurt admits "Terrifying. Exciting. Romantic."
"I wish mine had been." Becca pulls her legs up to her chest "Connor didn't even say anything to me really, it just sort of happened."
Kurt sighs empathetically "You'll meet a guy who'll give you all that someday."
"Easy for you to say, you've known Uncle Blaine since high school. Mom and Dad met in high school too."
"We were lucky," Kurt shrugs "I never thought I'd meet someone like Blaine, and I spent months chasing after him while he seemed completely oblivious to the fact that I was in love with him. I'd almost completely given up on the idea of him and then out of the blue we're singing a duet together and he's kissing me." He smiles at her "You'll get your romance. You aren't even in college yet."
"I guess I've just been kind of stupid," Becca drains the rest of her mug "thank you." She offers him a weak smile "I don't think it'll help me sleep though."
"Don't dwell on it," Kurt tells her taking the mug and standing up "it's over with. I mean you're going to be grounded for a while but that shouldn't keep you up at night."
"I just feel so bad about everything," Becca admits "and what if something had happened."
"Well nothing did happen, thank God." Kurt sighs "Blaine and I will always love you; nothing you ever do will change that. You're safe, and that's all that matters." He reaches over to hug her.
"Uncle Kurt?" Becca says still holding onto him, he pulls away slightly looking at her attentively "have...have you ever had your heart broken?" She starts to cry as Kurt holds onto her tighter as she cries into his sweater, she feels like she's four again.
"You really loved Connor didn't you?" He sighed rubbing her back soothingly, Becca nodded into his chest "To answer your question yes, I did have my heart broken. A lot, actually." He admits to her "But only one really sticks with me."
"You're late again," Blaine's voice rang through Kurt's phone, not accusatory, merely stating a fact, but Kurt felt guilty already, their time to talk was already limited.
"I'm sorry, I know I told you 10:00 on the dot, but I just got distracted with homework and then Rachel wanted me to hang with her and then help her rehearse and..."
"I don't need excuses Kurt," Blaine said, again not accusatory but with slightly more edge than the last time Kurt called late "it's fine Kurt, I understand you're busy."
"You aren't mad at me, are you?"
"No, of course not." Blaine said immediately.
"Something's wrong though." Kurt said, and he heard Blaine sigh over the phone.
"I just... I don't think that this is working."
"I can sign onto Skype if you want."
"No, I mean us." Blaine said, and Kurt's heart skipped a beat, was Blaine breaking up with him? "Kurt, we're in two separate worlds. I mean you're in New York, and you could probably find a number of boyfriends, and you're dating some high school kid back in Ohio where I'm stuck until I graduate. I don't want to hold you down Kurt; you're too great for that."
"You aren't holding me back." Kurt insisted with all sincerity.
"Yes I am Kurt. Look, maybe when I'm in New York things will be different, but right now... we've only dated each other, maybe we need to see other people. You know, so we can be sure."
"I am sure though,"
"Kurt, have you been asked out at all in New York?" Kurt thought back to his first week in New York, going out with Rachel, guys eyeing him, the bold ones daring to flirt until he told them he had a boyfriend.
"Yes," Kurt admitted "but what does that matter? I'm not cheating on you."
"That's the problem," Blaine said exasperatedly "I want you to be able to meet other guys, because what if I'm not your soul mate? What if your true soul mate has already hit on you but because you're tied down to me you'll never realize it."
"But... Blaine, have you met anyone? Is that what's bringing all of this on?"
"No," Blaine said with utmost sincerity "it's not like there are many options here." he adds as an afterthought.
"There's Sebastian," Kurt said, the name still a barrier between them.
"How many times do I have to tell you he doesn't mean anything?" Blaine said becoming aggravated "I haven't even talked to him in months. Why would you suggest that?"
"I don't know, it's just with the distance and my refusal to do phone or Skype sex, it's been a while... and he clearly puts out..."
"Kurt," Blaine said sharply "do you really think that lowly of me?"
"No, I'm sorry," Kurt sighed "that was uncalled for."
"I love you Kurt," Blaine said "which is why I want you to experience everything while you're in New York, don't you think we owe it to ourselves to be sure of our relationship before it becomes even more serious? How can we be sure if neither of us has been in another relationship?" Kurt didn't say anything "Don't think of it as breaking up," Blaine said "think of it as a break, in which we see other people and discover ourselves. I really hope we can stay friends throughout this..."
"I... I don't know Blaine." Kurt sighed "I'll um, I'll talk to you later, maybe." And then he hung up as he collapsed onto his bed in his dorm room, crying into his pillow.
"We went three years hardly speaking to each other, which I guess was sort of my fault since I never answered his calls."
"I never knew that," Becca says, she scrunching her nose in confusion "but I've seen pictures of you two in college."
"Never alone though," Kurt says "it was always with Rachel or other mutual friends." Kurt shrugged "It was always so hard for me to be around him. I tried dating other guys, but it never worked out, I cared about some of them, but my heart never broke the way it did when Blaine broke up with me."
"He did it because he cared about you though."
"Exactly, and it hurt to know that things could have worked out, as opposed to my other relationships where I think I always knew deep down they wouldn't."
"But things did work out," Becca says, sighing as she rested her head on Kurt's shoulder.
"They'll work out for you too," Kurt tells her gently "eventually you'll forget all of the heartbreak." He shrugs "Like when I look back at most of my exes, or the crush I had on your dad."
"Ewww." Becca shakes her head.
"It was before we became step-brothers," Kurt laughs "but I was the one who introduced Grandma and Grandpa."
"I don't want to know," Becca shakes her head laughing too.
Kurt looks at her seriously "I know it's difficult for Blaine to talk to you about boys, but I'm here if you want talk. I know how much it hurts to have your heart broken."
Becca stands up and hugs him "Thanks Uncle Kurt, for everything. Goodnight."
"Goodnight. I love you."
"Love you too."
