Chapter 2: Just like a zombie
It's been a full couple of months and school on the reservation is almost torture to me. My best 'girl' friend Kendall she's the exact opposite of me. She is constantly wanting to shop forbid getting dirty because that is apparently a sin. So instead of going home after school with Jacob she pulls me to her car which is a small beat up Saturn.
She closed her eyes and looked over at me saying," Well we're hanging around together so you're going to have to start looking at least a little more put together, less emo or lonerish. " I rolled my light brown eyes and looked around and shook his head," I'm not into labels and I like the way I look." I smiled and she just gave me a defeated sigh and then she unlocked her car and I laughed and got into the passenger seat with ease. I looked out the window and then pulled the seatbelt across my chest going back to looking straight ahead and relaxing into the seat.
We drove the radio was on so it wasn't an awkward silence. I don't deal with silence well it puts me on edge and make me fidget because all of my thoughts come out. I keep myself very quiet looking out as trees pass by I lean forward seeing a flash of purple amongst the green," Did you see that?" I ask amazed but just as fast as I saw it there was no sign of anything. Kendall looked over at me and shook her head," Your head is in the clouds Avery I hope you know that." She laughs a little bit and looked around the streets as we entered town. I really couldn't believe that we were going into Forks just to look at some small stores that occupied the town. Though we both knew we were going to get some books from the used book store and food so we could go to the small café in town. Kendall was very into the reading and sipping coffee next to fire. She went three or four days out of the week. My best friend is a nerd and I felt weird just sitting there just to talk and sip hot chocolate because I didn't like coffee.
She finally parked the car and I sighed unbuckling my sleep," My head is on my neck which is on my shoulders which is connected to many other body related parts leading to my feet and my feet and firmly planted on the ground." I smiled pulling out the logical side of me. She seemed really annoyed and turned her back towards me and she walked off toward the second hand book store. I stuck my tongue out at her," I'll be over here." I call after her and the only thing I have to understand it that she waves a dismissive hand brushing me off. I sigh and pull my ipod out and smile and the song Domino fills my ears.
I bob my head to the music and keep my eyes closed and I open them just in time to spin around and almost completely avoid running into someone. I start to fall back my weight working against me as my body starts to fall back and in an instant someone's gloved hand is gripping my wrist and holding me in this position. The breath in my chest finally releases and the air comes out fast. I look over at the girl and she's short. Her hair is brown and her eyes are golden or was seems to be gold. The blond she is with is glaring at me and I am pulled up right.
I gain my barring again and feel my arm drop to my side," I'm uh- I'm sorry I guess I let the music get the better of me." I say biting my lower lip the blond girl's eyes go wide and puts herself between myself and the woman that had just saved me from falling. "Yeah well you are nothing but an insignificant human being that just needs to go and die in a whole." My eyes narrow my fist clenches," Yeah well not my fault something crawled up your tight ass and died up there."
The girl that saved me lets out a laugh and her gold eyes seemed to have darkened they are almost fully black," Your eyes change." I say amazed at it and move to look closer but the blond uses her shoulder and brushes past me pulling the girl with her. I looked over at waved at the girl who was still staring at me. It gave me a chill that had me shuddering all the way down to my toes. I didn't really understand why I wanted to know her but I did.
I walked through the store and bought some food and then walked over to the café where Kendall was already in our usual spot and she was reading her book. I sighed really wanting to know the girl I just well sort of met. I really walk over to my friend and sit down," These pale faces can be kind of weird and…rude." She looked up from her book a moment before taking a sip of her vanilla latte. " Yeah well lets face it these pale faces are freaks and enjoy making every other living being feel bad because we're hotter than they are. " I let out a friendly laugh and look into the flames for a while before I get up and go to the register fishing 5.75 from my pocket for a hot chocolate only to be told that it's been taken care of. I find it really weird but I wait and they hand it over and on the cup is a number with the name Alice written above it. Needless to say I'm now very very confused about today. I let out a long sigh and go towards the fire again.
Meanwhile…..
I was walking with Rose like we did everyday after school hitting the town to look at things before having to go home and feed. I was listening to her rant about how much she truly hated all humans and it was an incessant rant that I hated listening to. Where I wasn't always happy about being what I am I didn't just out right hate myself like Rose and Edward did. I love my family but sometimes they are just to much to deal with. We start walking toward the second hand book store until I see this girl she's sort of dancing to a song in her ipod and she's good at it. She's cute in everything that she is doing and that is when the wind picks up and her sent drifts over to me. My skin feels like it's on fire and I want her so bad. She spins to avoid hitting Rose and she grazes her and she starts to fall back and out of sheer instinct I reach out and grab her wrist.
I can feel her heart beating through my gloves and I hunger for her. I need her to be near me I have to have her. I drop my hand and in a split second Rose is between me and this beautiful tanned beauty. HOLD IT ALICE! You're with Jasper. You love Jasper. But not like how I've just desired and want and need this tanned being. But I'm straight. Oh god I'm loosing control. I feel rose insult the girl and I growl at her and then I'm being pulled away from her. I look over my right shoulder to see her waving and I feel a smirk pull at the corners of my lips. My eyes oh no I let them change in front of her. " Rose what did I just do?" I asked afraid of the answer.
Rose was quiet for a very long time and she said," Alice…I think you just found your mate. " She stated a matter of factly," No. Jasper is my mate he has to be my mate." I said and found myself walking with her. But no longer than thirty minuets I see the beauty in the café window and I walk in and pay for whatever the girl could want and tell them what to put on the cup. Then I walk out my eyes turning fully black so I move quickly but not too quick still wanting to appear human. I push the thought of the need and want of her blood and just walk with Rose until we get to the car. We get into the car and I drive faster than ever just needing to put the distance between myself and the girl.
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I lay in my bed and star at the ceiling my ear phones in I can't hear anything nor do I want too. But from the vibrations I can feel coming from the hard wood floors Jake is home and Billy is also home. I pull my ipod from my side I don't have a cell phone but I did download and app for the ipod a while ago. I grabbed the coffee cup and type in her number it's been a full four days since I've seen her. I bite my lower lip afraid to say anything and finally I just type to her. ' Hey. It's Avery I think you paid for my hot chocolate a couple days ago.'
I wait a moment and hit send and then go back to letting the song Gives you Hell by all American rejects fills my ears. I am really nervous and I look over at my brother he has a cell phone I used to have a cell phone but Billy just hasn't gotten the chance to take me to get one and get on his plan. I just sigh and look up at the poster. There is a woman from Blue crush 2 staring back at me. My room is covered in movie and band posters.
Maybe I really am being weird I can't want to be friends with someone just because they saved me from falling or she just seemed different. Just then I hear something in my ears that is not my song and I look down and Alice has texted me back already. I read it in my head over and over. 'It's about time you texted me. It's nice to meet you Avery. I'm really sorry about how my sister treated you the other day. She's just very protective of the family.' I smile and read over the message a couple of more times before I just let out a small sigh.
I finally text her back,' Oh and here I thought I was special and had the warmest place in her icey heart.' Before I really think it through I've already sent it and oh shit she's going to take it the wrong way and I'm going to be stuck in an awkward position and oh no. I sighed and looked around the room. I mentally smack myself and take my ear phones out and Jacob comes in and says," Dinner is ready."
I sigh and turn my ipod off and leave it on my bed that is still made I can't function unless my bed is made every morning people think it's weird. I smile and walk out looking to see my father," Hello Billy." I smile and sit down with him and I just can't help but see the flash of hurt flash across his eyes. I feel bad I know he wants me to call him dad but I just feel really weird. I feel like I've been a zombie for the last couple of months doing exactly what is asked of me. I go where they tell me and they talk to me but I suppose a lot of that is my fault seeing as I don't want talk much I mean I talk to my brother's more than anything and even then I don't have any terms of endearment to them. I'm pulled from my thoughts when Billy says," I wish you'd just call me dad or something. Avery you are my daughter." He takes a bite and sighs," Tonight is your mother's night she would like you to be over there right after dinner."
I sighed I hated being carted between the two of them. " Why did you guys have me. I feel like a zombie walking dead the much more unwanted being ever to walk this planet." I sighed and started to eat not looking over at Jacob who was just staring at me like I was the worlds scariest person. " We all love you Avery." He said and I rolled my eyes there was a reason I kept my ear phones in. It was so I never had to deal with people no one really enjoyed my presence. But I let out a very long sigh and just kept eating. I really found myself wondering what would happen if I asked if I could go to school off the reservation. I know they'd be mad but I was getting so done with all of this. It was just hard to live up to these types of standards.
I finished eating and took my plate to the kitchen cleaning it. I walked into my room and started packing my things. I looked over at my ipod and there was a notification that said new text. I opened it and it was Alice she had actually texted me back. "That is the funniest thing ever. Rose has a cold heart I don't think anyone not even her boyfriend holds a warm spot in her heart."
At that I laughed a little bit and texted back," Wow. That is kind of sad. So I take it you go to the local Forks high school" I sent the text and finished packing and pulled on a hat that just had my hair pinned in place. I walked out of my room one ear phone it. I smiled at my brother who was working on his homework. "I'll miss you I'll see you in the morning bright and early." He stood up and enveloped me into a big bear hug and I smiled a little bit he made me feel like at least one person it the family was grateful I was around. I walked over to the living room," Hey Billy I'm going over to Sue's house. So I guess I'll see you in a couple of days?" I asked him not really sure as to what I was supposed to do. He motioned for me to come close and I did and he hugged me. It caught me a little off guard but it was nice to know he was around.
I sighed and looked down at my ipod made that weird noise again in my ear and I looked at it amazed and smiled a little bit seeing the text message that read," I've gone for what seems like forever. What about you ever been to that high school?" I bite my lip and shake my head.
"I've been to public school but over the summer I moved up here and now go to school on the reservation and have never felt more isolated ever in my life." I sent it and the grabbed the keys calling over my shoulder," I'll see you later boys." I smiled and got into the truck and then looked around I'm really happy the girl is texting me. I drive over to my mother's house and park on the road and walk into the house. I walk to my room which is in between Leah's and Seth's. I hear them Leah is beating Seth in a video game and Seth isn't taking it too well. I just lean against my door for a moment until Sue came in and smiled hugging me. " Hey there honey it's great to see you." She said happily.
She was nice enough I know she hates the fact that I'm gay and I'm pretty sure with two parents who are so strong willed I'm going to be screwed." I sighed and tried to fight the yawns back." I smiled and looked over at the woman and waited for her to leave. Once she took her leave I went to looking at my phone where I saw the girl had texted me. I liked her she was a lot of fun to text and slowly we are getting to know one another. Her text read," Well that sucks why don't ask to come and hang at the local school you will like it more than the private school."
I laughed and shook my head she seemed to like being playful which is always a good time over text message. " I'll look into it but I'm not going to promise everything both of them feel very strongly. They wont be easy to convince." I smiled and walked over to my bed and laid down. This was becoming way way to much fun. I was afraid of it being taken away.
Next thing I know my younger brother is bursting into my room and jumping on top of me. " You're finally here. Gosh you really took forever to get here." He gave me a very hard time. I shrugged it off and looked over at him. " From the sounds of it you are the sorest looser to ever walk the planet." I teased him and he just smiled and shrugged his shoulders like it really wasn't that big of a deal. I laughed a little bit and looked over as Leah pretty much blew me off," ooo someone took their super pissed off pills today." He hit my shoulder playfully and I shrugged.
I checked my phone a lot the rest of the night hoping she'd just text me back.
