Chapter 3: False intentions
It's been weeks since I started texting Alice She was something of a mystery yet she was everything I could ever want as a girlfriend. Yeah I'm thinking of things like that there should be a rule that says I shouldn't ever be allowed to flirt with a girl that isn't from the reservation. She says that she wants to see me and I really believe her and I mean I want to see her too I mean we skype when we can and text nonstop but I want to see her. But for some reason she's been reluctant to see me.
But maybe things will get better. I'm walking through school right now my hood is up and I'm ignoring the world I was drilled today about my father's family history and I have no idea what is going on. Embry is a year younger than me and I have to admit he's probably my best friend. I know he has a small crush on my but I know there is no way that it's going to happen. I look down at my ipod and see the text and smirk a little bit. " You should meet me for coffee today." I look down and read the text message like four times before reality set in.
I smile and reply," Sure. I'll meet you for coffee. Maybe you can talk me into transferring schools for next semester." I send it I've been talking to Sue and Billy and they both really don't think it's the greatest idea because they want me to be with people with the same heritage and have a chance to really get the meaning of everything. I don't know why Billy, Sue and Harry are so against me going to that school but I need to. I just feel so isolated being out here all the time all the same people all the same hatred I just need them to see I've adapted to so much for them even now. The least they could do is let me go to where I wanted to. I sighed and just shook my head. Jacob came up behind me and pocked my sides," Hey!" I yelled with a laugh shaking my head.
He laughed at me and shook his head," Are you still wanting to go to school with the pale faces?" he asked me and I just looked at him like he was really weird I mean what did he have against the pale faces but he never grew up off the reservation. I looked around and shook my head," I want to transfer after vacation I know it's weird but I just can't I just don't want to be here I mean I've moved up here Jake I've juggled from house to house and dealt with the fact that I'm never going to have a normal ever again." I sighed and looked down and leaned my head against his shoulder," Jake why are you and everyone else so against it?" He was quiet as we walked to the next classes.
I was worried he was just going to get really pissed off but finally they started to talk to me." It's not that they hate the idea of you going but you know the stories how we're apparently descendants from wolves. Avery wolves aren't beings that go about things alone and the thing is, is you are like some kind of wrong doing. I mean dad and Sue had a thing and that resulted in you and so they got rid of the problem and then seventeen years later here you are. The whole tribe is horrified at you for being here reminding Sue of her betrayal and our dad's back stabbing people think it's hard for the community and closeness of everyone to believe that we are reminded that our lives here in a pack are so far from perfect. "
Jack kept explaining but I completely checked out after he said that I was just a reminder of how much of a burden I was. I sight and shook my head," Jake find your own ride home. I'll get there eventually." I said and slammed by locker door shut. I hated him in that moment and he knew it he called after me," I'm sorry." I just shook my head and grabbed my bag throwing it over my shoulder and shooting Alice a text. " I can't hang out with you today some stuff happened I've been pretty pissed off so lets try tomorrow or when ever you can just let me know." I turned my ipod off and walked to my car getting in it with speed and ease.
I buckled my seatbelt and started toward Forks I just didn't want to be on this stupid reservation anymore. I didn't see my ipod light up with the constant picture that I had assigned to Alice. I didn't know people could call my ipod. But I just looked around and pulled off the road when I came to the space where I saw purple when we were going so fast. I stopped and parked the car it was hidden I knew no one could see it. I didn't want to cry I didn't want to be here I just wanted to cry and kick and just scream. But instead of acting like the four year old I wanted to be right now I just started to walk through the woods. Smelling the wonderful smells of the various trees and grasses the sights of lush green and everything it was a very nice sight and I found myself getting lost.
I found my way from the woods and came to a very high cliff it was beautiful and was something that really got me to think about everything. I hated everything that was going on. I sat down under a tree over looking the ocean. It was the prettiest sight I'd seen in a while. I yawned and stretched my arms above my head and then I looked around. I curled up and slept under the tree still not seeing the numerous text messages coming in. I ended up loosing my grip on reality as I just slept.
Mean While!
I sat in class and looked down at my phone smiling when she said she'd love to hang out. Jasper looked at me and smiled shaking his head feeling how happy I was. I stopped and looked over at him and tried to find something else to focus on. I closed my eyes and finished pretending to eat. I hated that Jasper was trying so hard and even now I was having a hard time believing that him and I were going to be together the rest of our lives when I was simply becoming a giddy school girl just by texting her. I stood up and walked over throwing my things away. I wanted to see her and I wanted my husband well Jasper I wanted Jasper to leave me alone. I walked out and headed toward my history class. I was walking out of my history when I got more a text message.
My eyes kept going over the text message. She looked around and bit her lower lip and went to text the girl who didn't answer. I called her when I could and then sent a bunch of text messages. I don't know why I was so into her and needing to know where she was and what was wrong. But she didn't answer and it bothered me but I just inhaled and exhaled. I knew there was a lot going on in her life. I was suddenly annoyed with the fact that I couldn't see the one person I wanted. I walked with Emmet and Rose and Jasper. Edward was already waiting for us. I stood next to the car when a vision hit me. I stopped and Jasper stood behind me and kept talking.
When I came back Edwards eyes went wide looking at me and I shook my head at him. "Can you drop me off?" I asked him hoping he wouldn't push it he just nodded. Everyone just looked at them but she couldn't tell them she saw the future and Jasper was with a girl that wasn't me and I was with Avery. This scared me but made me want to be in the girl's presence. I knew I would find her I just took out my phone and texted her again. But as we drove there still wasn't anything from her. I looked around and finally they stopped," I'll be home later." I said and Jasper gave me a kiss and I just let him. I closed my door and watched them drive off. I didn't need to breath but I inhaled and let it out with a loud huff. What was I doing? I walked along and stopped seeing the car.
I walked over to the car and instantly I could smell her, her smell made my cold skin feel like it was on fire. I wanted her so bad, I shook my head and kept my nose searching for her needing her to be around. I ended up running and then I heard it. I could hear her breathing, it was slow and steady her smell scent was getting stronger. I slowed my running and pushed through some of the trees and then I saw her. She was laying on the ground under a tree looking out over the ocean. She was asleep and I just stood there and watched her and couldn't help but feel the need of wanting to bite her in that moment.
I walked over to her and sat next to her it wasn't sunny out so there was nothing to worry about. I moved my gloved hand and touched her shoulder. "Avery…" I said in a soft voice but it was enough to wake her up and she had puffy eyes that lead me to believe that she was crying or forcing herself not to cry. I felt protectiveness over her and wanting to make her smile and make her feel better.
Mean while
I slept and I was fine with sleeping and very happy because for once I wasn't stuck with people who hated having my being there. I heard someone saying my name and touching my shoulder. I woke up and jumped about three feet in the air. "Hey." How'd you find me?" I was scared in a second but I just looked around and bit his lip and yawned a little bit putting a bit of distance between myself and her. "Alice. I just I'm sorry I had to cancel today I really didn't want to have to do that I just there was some things that happened and I can't just I can't be on the reservation today and I didn't want you to see me like this."
I felt ashamed in that moment that the girl was able to find me and stuff. I bit my lower lip looking at her I wanted to hug her and smile and just be happy that she came and found me. I looked over as she spoke. "I needed to see you. You were really upset and weren't answering me. You're my friend my very best friend and I needed to make sure that you were okay and I just I needed to see for myself that you were okay." I listened to her and shrugged my shoulders," You are a fantastic friend Alice."
I smiled the sound and the taste of Alice's name lingering on my lips. She seemed to be drawn to me and I was drawn to her. "I'm stuck here with my family Sue wants me to be her daughter and Billy wants me to be his little girl and I'm not I mean they are biologically my parents but neither of them wanted to take care of me they just sent me away. Then I'm supposed to give everything up just for them to be happy. Jake pretty much confirmed that everyone on the reservation hates my guts and they don't understand me because I don't act like one of the tribe." I sighed and shook my head fighting back all the pain. "Alice I need to stay at your house tonight please?" I was pretty much begging her to let me stay.
Alice seemed to be listening and a little pissed off about everything in my story she didn't really know the whole story and I wasn't about to tell her what really happened why I came here and everything. I just sat there a moment as she thought everything through and she nodded her head, "Avery you can stay at my house tonight but only tonight then you'll go home and tell them that they are going to compromise with you." She said to me and I looked at her a bit confused about what she was talking about. Then she continued," Tell them you are going to go to Forks high school and you'll try and start calling them mom and dad and being their daughter. But they have to be willing to let you do things you want as well."
I hated the thought and she said I could stay the night so that was all I was focusing on right now. I closed my eyes and then looked out at the ocean," I…Alice I don't know what I'm supposed to do." I said and looked around scared of what could happen. Maybe they would just kick me out and I would never have to deal with people. It'll just blow up in my life and I'm not sure I'm willing to give up all of the things I've finally gotten back. Alice could tell I was thinking hard or I was feeling distressed and nervous. She rested a gloved hand on me and looked at me," Avery calm down, you're not alone anymore you have me and my family will happily support you if your family doesn't and it'll all come out in a fantastic time. Just breath and calm down." She smiled at me and for some reason I just calmed down nodding my head.
Alice and I laid in that spot for what seemed like hours we talked and laughed and just had a good time. Time seemed to stop with Alice and I loved every second of this. I looked around and stood up," Wow I'm really hungry." I looked over at the girl and she nodded," well come on we'll go home and my mom or I can whip something up." I looked over at her and nodded. I wanted to touch her and I could feel her eyes going over my body and I just walked with her. I just really didn't want to ever go without her after a day like today. I looked around and smiled at the green trees. We walked together and I was having a hard time seeing in the dark. My heart jumps as Alice lets out a laugh as she asks," Wow you sure you're not blind?" She smiled over at me.
I shake my head and shake my head," No I'm not blind I'm just not used to being out in the dark and having to navigate myself through the dark woods." I smiled over at her and after a couple of wrong turns we were finally at my truck. She smiled and got in and buckled her seat belt. I buckled mine and started the truck I started to drive as she gave me directions to her house. I pulled up to her amazing house it was huge and insane and so open and beautiful even in the dark. I looked over at her. "Can I use your phone? I should probably call Billy or Sue let them know that I'm safe" She smiled and handed me her phone. "Don't take long Avery or I'll be worried that you ran away." She teased me and I shook my head she was different and I wanted to know her. I didn't want to hurt her I wanted to keep her happy.
She walked into her house and I saw the entire family well the top of their heads talking. I just turned back and dialed Billy's number. It rang four times and then he answered the phone. "Hello?" He asked and I bit my lip scared to admit that I was very wrong in running away. I let out a sigh," Hey Billy. It's me." He sounded worried, "Avery Black where the hell have you been your mother and I have been worried sick." I let him go on and on and finally it was my turn to talk," Billy I'm safe I'm spending the night at a friends house. I just needed to get away. We need to talk tomorrow you, me, and Sue." I paused and started after a moment," Jake said that I'm a mistake and he's right in a way. I'm glad I'm alive but I've spent my life being raised differently. So we need to talk and I don't want you to shoot me down and we all just need to talk." I said," I'll be in school tomorrow I just need tonight to gather my thoughts. I love you dad. I just I need some time to cool off and to figure out what I want." He said he loved me and he'd call Sue and we'd get together tomorrow. I wish I wasn't so nervous about the whole thing but Alice was right it was what I needed to do. Now I just needed to get Sue and Billy to see that I wasn't like every kid on the reservation.
I let out a sigh and sat in my car for a moment weighing if I should just leave Alice's house and walk away. But she seemed to know that I would think that and warned me not to. I unbuckled the set belt and slid out of the car. I stood on the ground and closed the car door. I bit my lip and held Alice's phone and walked over to the door knocking on it so they knew that I was there I watched as Alice smiled and skipped down the stairs.
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AN: Alright well if you're reading the third chapter and have read from chapter one…I'm going to ask for some feed back. I want to know if you think I should keep it going. I think if I get at least one person's thoughts than I'll decide to continue now that the holiday's are over I plan on updating more. So I'd like to hear what you guys think if you think it's going alright I'll take some conditions and everything. So yeah I'd be very very grateful. Thank you. =)
