Chapter 4:

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I sighed and looked at the phone there was a picture in the background that was of Alice and Jasper. I felt my heart sink into my stomach or jump into my throat it was really hard to know that even though I've been talking to her for what feels like forever she never mentioned him. I was about to leave the phone on the step and just walk away from this entire situation I wasn't someone who liked to get my heart broken or break other people's hearts. I sighed and walked up the stairs and knocked on the door. I shifted my wait from my left to my right and then the door was opened. Alice had changed and she was in her pajama's I felt my mouth open and my eyes scan her body. Until I saw the smile of her perfect lips when I finally realized what I was doing openly and shook my head pulling myself together. " My parents aren't happy about me staying the night and want me home very early tomorrow morning."

Alice's smirk disappeared and she looked a bit upset about it but she didn't seem to let it show very long she just motioned for me to come it. I realized that she really wasn't into physical contact I assumed everyone else in the family was the same way but I also found it kind of weird how in the world was I supposed to not want to touch her. I shook my head pushing every thought from my head that I could ever be with the woman that stood before me in yoga pants that hugged her lower body in all the right laces they were loose but they still showed a lot of her toned legs and nice rear. Her long sleeved shirt was tight against her and I just couldn't stop looking at her. That was until I heard the family upstairs and pots and pans clanking and then the smell hit my and my mouth started to water wanting food so bad.

"Avery this is my home its so just make yourself at home you can leave your coat and your shoes down here." She started toward the stairs and I took the sweat shirt off and my shoes leaving me in a nice t-shirt that hugged my body as I followed her she smiled. "Hey guys this is my new friend Avery. Avery this is my wonderful and some what crazy family." She said and looked around and bit her lip as everyone filed into the room. "Okay so this is my father well adoptive father, Carlisle Cullen he as you may know is a doctor in Forks." She said and smiled at him," My mother Esme Cullen she's just about the best mother ever." The brown haired woman looked over at her and she smiled and leaned back into the man that I now knew was Carlisle they were cute. "This is Emmett he's really sweet though he's kind of weird. Rosalie is my sister and she is with Emmett. That is Edward he is more keep to himself he is currently single." I stared at her she couldn't possibly think I was straight could she. Though Edward did seem to smirk and I fought the eye roll I wanted to give him. "Finally." Alice drew me from my thoughts," This is Jasper my boyfriend." In that moment my world stopped.

I nodded my head fighting the urge to tell her that her family was insane and that this was a bit too weird for me to digest all in one moment. But in a fake way I just nodded flashing a smiled," Wonderful to meet all of you." No one moved to welcome me and I've never felt less wanted well that was a lie. I smiled at them as they smiled at me. But the timed buzzer went off and I was thankful for the relief. I wrapped my arms around my torso and looked over at the tall blond who was glaring daggers at me and Jasper who looked at me with a pained expression. "Uh…Alice where's the bathroom?" I asked I just wanted to get out of the room. So I came up with and excuse. She pointed down the hall. "First door on the right." She smiled and bounced a little bit. I just went in the direction she was pointing.

I walked into the bathroom and closed the door and locked it,' well this really sucks. I'm crushing on a girl that has a boyfriend who is her adopted brother and in a house were I'm basically the outsider and she tried to set me up with her other brother. This is so fucked up I really wish I could just run away and never look back at this town. I don't want to be rude but maybe I can just eat and go straight to bed.' I ran the water filling my hands and splashing my face. I turned the water off and grabbed the towel and could hear the voices in the room. 'How dare you Alice she's not going to be able to handle this? The second she leaves she's going to tell everyone what goes on. She's one of the people from La Push.' I shook my head and couldn't believe the things that were being said until a voice rung out I'm sure it wasn't Alice but the other female. 'Rose she's a wonderful girl and seems to just need a friend and if Alice wants to befriend her than so be it.' " Esme this is our place where we get to be what we are! With her hear we'll never get that." 'Shush dear she'll hear you.' I sighed gosh this is weird. I leaned back against the sink for a while and just tried to come up with a reason as to why I'd need to leave.

I was taken from my thoughts when there was a knock on the door and Alice's voice following it. " Avery dinner is ready." She said and I rolled my eyes fan fucking tastic I thought to myself and then finally I walked over unlocking the door. I pulled it open and there she was just smiling with her hip popped out to the side. She was so cute and yet I couldn't feel anything with her. I nodded at her. " What are we having? I really don't care I'm starving." I smirked and shrugged my shoulders and then walked out making sure to keep my distance so she was away from me. I was going to treat this like she was Leah. My family no touching, no sneaking glances at her was a no. Talking was okay but only when she initiated it.

" Soup and grilled cheese." She said and bounced into the kitchen. Rose rolled her eyes and turned on her heel leaving the house Emmett getting up from the couch and running after her like the good boyfriend. Edward was no where to be seen and then Jasper came over and kissed Alice and I sighed and ignored everything walking over to the kitchen Esme was reading a book and I sat and started to eat and I looked around " Am I the only person eating?" I asked. Esme looked up and smiled.

" Yes dear, we all ate earlier this evening and you were on the phone outside Alice ate two sandwiches so really it was only you. Sorry it's not much we were going to go shopping tomorrow so this was all we had left." She said and folded the corner of her page and looked at me. " So Alice tells me that you are having a hard time with your family Avery. Would you care to talk to me about it maybe?" She looked over at me like I was her new favorite person and I couldn't help but want to tell her everything but I sighed.

" I'm sorry Esme, If I talked about it again I'd just start crying and I'm not really into being a weak person. It just doesn't suit me very well. But maybe tomorrow before I leave." I assured her I saw the pain in her eyes and I bit my lip just lowering my eyes to my soup and grilled cheese and started to stuff my face so I wouldn't have to talk. I could only hope and wish that my 'friend' would come to my rescue so for once I could just go to bed and sleep off all the pain that was still building inside me. I just wanted to feel like I belonged somewhere and so far the only place I felt like I belonged was in the woods. I thought about the feeling of peace and perfectness I felt while I walked well ran through the woods. I loved to play music and dance and other than doing those things the woods made me feel so at home. I felt the smile tug at my lips until I heard Alice's voice.

"Avery?" She looked down at me and bit her lower lip and looked at me like she was worried yet content with the fact that I was looking at her. " You drifted off there. Where did you go? I mean you looked happy. I mean are you okay? Oh um I mean. I don't know." She looked down at her hand and I could see her getting a little bit more bashful than she was funny and cute and 'what the hell Avery she has a boyfriend get over it. Just get over it focus just focus on getting something that has nothing to do with the bubbly, beautiful, perfect. Alice I can't focus on Alice.' That was all I was thinking in that moment.

I yawned and shrugged my shoulders," I don't know really I think I'm just really tired and need to get to bed or something." I faked it and that was all I wanted was to get rid of the awkwardness. I just wanted to hide under the covers get up early and leave. I didn't want to be in the same house as Alice knowing she was with Jasper. Esme was already taking my dishes. Telling me that it was about time for bed and I just nodded my head and stood up Alice was smiling and my face just didn't move I wasn't happy I was because she was closer to me but it was hard. I wanted Alice but I wanted her to want me and she didn't and it was a lot harder for me to accept it than I was hoping it would. I usually was okay with just being around a straight girl but god I wanted to stop thinking. I followed Alice she was humming and I was just off in my own thoughts. She seemed really happy I wish I knew what her happiness felt like. I looked over and narrowed my eyes at a glaring Jasper he was really annoying.

Alice pushed open a door and I was amazed at how open and yet dark her whole personality still shone through. She smiled and looked around biting her lip. I wanted to go to sleep maybe then I'd finally escape all of these thoughts. I looked over at her. " So I'm going to take the floor?" I asked her looking at the bed that was on the floor made up and I went to move. She stopped be by moving in front of me and I stopped instantly afraid of what was going to happen. I looked around and saw Jasper at the door. Geeze," Uh do you want me to go Alice?" She shook her head and handed me some clothing. " here are some pajama's go get changed." She said and walked over to Jasper. I looked at it and sighed but walked to the bathroom.

I was in the bathroom changing folding all my worn clothing and sniffed myself I smelled like peaches I smirked she was way more girly than I thought was my normal type. But she made everything different and I wanted this different and that scared me. I shook my head and turned on the water. I splashed it on my face and shook my head," Lock everything up Avery it doesn't matter maybe after today I never talk or speak to her again." I told myself looking at my reflection. No that wasn't going to help I was way to emotional for today I needed to sleep that's what I truly needed. I nodded dried my face and walked out seeing Alice slam the door in Jasper's face. "Do you want me to go Alice? I really don't mind your family is great but I feel like it wasn't the best thing to bring me here on such short notice." I said looking down at my feet.

She looked over at me and shook her head and smiled at me. "I'm sorry about him he's just really I don't know the right words to say but he's just making sure I'm okay. He says you look really upset and puzzled and at war with yourself or something. "She shrugged her shoulders at me and I just wanted to tell her he was wrong but that was exactly how I felt I just shrugged. I went to get into bed I was sleepy that was all. She again moved in front of me. "I'm taking the floor you get my bed." She said with a smile and got into the bed she'd made on the floor. I shook my head she was way to good to be true. But I nodded my head and got in and it smelled like her and it was interesting how good she actually smelt. She smelt of peaches but she also smelt like the woods fresh air and all. I took in a long breath and let it out. "Good night Avery." Her voice said in its whimsical tone.

I sighed and looked around and bit my lower lip. "Alice…Thanks for everything I know it may not seem like a bit deal but thanks for caring." I yawned again tuning out anything she was saying and then as I could start to hear her again. I caught the end of her sentences and it seemed like she was telling me that she cared a lot about me I was her best friend other than Rose but she didn't count the blond. I sighed and she looked over at me and asked me what was wrong but instead of saying anything, I decided that I'd pretend to be asleep." I really didn't want to think about telling her that I felt out of place and that the family didn't want me here. But I just played like I was asleep until finally I just felt myself fall in and out of consciousness. I was fighting it wanting to know that I could get up when she was asleep but her scent was comforting and next thing I knew I was asleep. I thought I could feel someone next to me but I was so out of it I was sure I was imagining everything. I just wanted to sleep and that was what my body was happily welcoming though my mind wasn't very accepting of it.

The more I fought my feelings for Alice the more my mind went into dream world and the more it thought the more my mind went to me kissing Alice and doing such dirty things to her. How my name sounded as she moaned it against my ear. I was almost ashamed to be dreaming this but it was interesting. I just kept sleeping and slept trying to feel her body against me.