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And here's chapter 4. I don't own Victorious.
[Every end is a new beginning.]
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Beck remembered one of the first dates he'd had with Jade very early in their relationship when they were first beginning to date. He remembered how they went to a party together and he'd jokingly winked at another girl in somewhat of a flirtatious manner. It made the girl smile but Jade didn't think it was cute nor funny and she'd flipped out on him, creating a big scene in front of everyone. She berated him and accused him of flirting with another girl right in front of her face and then she'd stormed off in a huff.
Normally that would've been a deal breaker for him. Being attacked like that out of nowhere in public when he really hadn't done anything wrong should have been a pretty big red flag warning for him to run away as fast he could.
But instead of running away from her he ran after her. He found her sitting outside on the porch with her arms wrapped around herself all alone. He approached her carefully and then said, "That was a bit much, don't ya think?" And then he noticed the tears.
She wiped her eyes quickly but it didn't take a genius to figure out she'd been crying.
"Yeah, well I'm a psycho. Haven't you heard?" she said in a sarcastic tone.
"You're not a psycho you're just...different. Strong-willed and opinionated and you've got major attitude. I kinda like it," he said smiling.
Jade rolled her eyes at him but he could tell she was trying hard not to smile.
"So do you wanna tell me what that was all about?" he asked.
She wiped away her mascara soaked tears with her index fingers. "I just don't...trust very easily, as you can probably tell."
"And why is that?"
"I don't know, because people are liars."
"People?"
"Guys, especially. They act all nice to your face and they lie and tell you what you want to hear and pretend they care about you, but then they turn around and stab you in the back anyway."
Beck imagined that maybe she'd been stabbed in the back by guys a few too many times already.
"Not every guy is like that Jade," he told her.
She scoffed. "Are you trying to tell me that you're different?"
"Well, yeah."
"Then why'd you have to go and flirt with that stupid girl then, huh?"
"I wasn't flirting! I was just being friendly."
She narrowed her eyes at him. "Too friendly for your own good."
"Jade I promise you I have no intention of flirting with or seeing any other girls at the moment. No other girls except you okay?"
"Why should I believe you?"
He sighed, exasperated. "Because I'm telling you and it's the truth. Now either you trust me or you don't."
Finally she backed down. "Fine then I trust you."
"Good because you can."
"And I'm sorry, I guess I shouldn't have freaked out on you like that. I'll try not to do it again," she said.
But something told him that moments like that would still probably happen again no matter how hard she tried.
"We'll work on it," he told her.
Back then Beck was so sure of the kind of person that he was; he would have never done anything to hurt Jade. But now looking back he realized that maybe he wasn't this great boyfriend that he had always thought himself to be. He had been devoted to Jade for so long but now he had slipped up, majorly.
But maybe he wasn't entirely to blame in all this. He and Jade had been together for months now but she still had yet to get over the insane jealousy and mistrust she had towards him. He remembered how quickly Jade was to get upset and jump on Tori after that whole reality tv fake phone call debacle (she'd almost killed the girl). What was a relationship without trust anyhow? Sure now he didn't deserve her trust, but before he'd never done anything to make her think he was that lying type of boyfriend. If you call a person a cheater for long enough, after awhile maybe they actually turn into one.
But anyways, regardless of Jade having a part in all this it was still Beck's fault. He was the one who had done it and no amount of rationalizations could change that. He was guilty on all charges and his guilt made him want to avoid her like the plague. Avoiding her was a dumb move that probably made her even more suspicious of him, but he ended up spending less time with Jade and subsequently more time with Cat. Lately he and Cat seemed to actually be literally inseparable.
But it didn't take long for a confrontation to occur. Beck and Cat were sitting together outside at one of the tables during lunch time when Jade approached them.
"Hi Jade," Cat tried greeting her but Jade didn't even look at her. Her eyes were fixed on Beck.
"Could you please make yourself scarce so that I can talk to my boyfriend. Alone," she said.
"Umm," Cat looked at Beck nervously. "Okay I guess I'll just go pee or something," she mumbled and got up and disappeared quickly.
Jade sat down across from him and folded her arms on the table, staring him down.
"Did you have something to say to me?" he asked.
"As a matter of fact I do. You don't answer my calls, you avoid me in the hallway and you've been awkward and quiet around me all day."
"Yeah well today's been kind of a weird day," he said.
"If I didn't know any better I'd say you were trying to hide something."
"Jade c'mon. What exactly are you implying here?"
"Well I was going to come over here and ask you to explain yourself but then a little birdy came round and told me something very interesting."
He raised his eyebrows. A little birdy? "Jade maybe we should-"
"What is going on with you and Cat!" she blurted.
"I-wha..what would make you even say that?" he said, glancing around nervously at all the people who were now staring at them.
"I have my reasons Beck. I'm not an idiot." She stood up and grabbed ahold of his sleeve. "Now tell me right now, what is going on? Are you cheating on me with her?"
"Jade, please let go of me." He knew he couldn't lie to her anymore but he didn't want her finding out right now, not like this, not in front of all those people.
She held on to his shirt sleeve for a few seconds longer, staring him in the face trying to see if she could read him. But the fact that he neither confirmed, nor denied anything should have told her everything.
"Shouldn't we have this conversation later? Someplace where it's more private," he pleaded.
She sighed and let go. "Fine, whatever. But we will finish this." And she walked off leaving him alone. He let out a relieved breath.
Beck had an idea as to who this "little birdy" Jade spoke of could be and his next move was to go find this person. As if right on cue, Tori Vega walked right past him.
He caught her by the arm. "Hey."
"Oh, hey Beck I didn't see you there."
"Did you tell Jade about what I told you the other day?" he asked.
She gave him sort of a deer-in-the-headlights look. Then she leaned in and lowered her voice and said, "You mean about you and Cat?"
"Umm yeah, did you tell her?"
"No! Of course not, I swear."
"Tori...seriously?"
"No, I really didn't. I didn't tell her what you told me.." She bit her lip, "But I might have said something else to that effect."
"Why would you do that?"
"She kept freaking out saying how suspicious she was and how she thought you were cheating on her, and she started accusing me of all people because apparently someone saw me leave your house the other day. So I just pointed out to her how ironic it was that I'm the one who always gets accused of stuff when Cat's the one that you seem to spend all your time with."
He frowned and sighed.
"I'm sorry, Beck. I was trying to clear my name and I just cracked."
There wasn't any point in him being upset with Tori because regardless it was his actions that got him put into this situation in the first place. He was angry still but he realized the person he was really mad at was himself.
"Don't worry about it," he told her.
"So Jade knows now?"
He shrugged. "Probably, but I still haven't told her myself yet. But I'm going to...today."
He would do it later in the day, after school. After the bell rang he waited for her at the front steps of the school. He stood and waited with a nervous feeling in his gut until he saw her walk out of the building. He took a couple deep breaths before he called her over.
They walked together in silence out to the parking lot and got into his car. At first neither of them said anything; Jade just sat with her arms crossed staring out the window while Beck stared down at the palms of his hands. But pretty soon the parking lot was deserted; students and teachers were all either still inside the building or they'd already left and gone home, so he and Jade were all alone.
Jade was the one who finally broke the silence. "Are we just gonna sit here like idiots and pretend we have nothing to talk about?"
He turned to face her somewhat uncomfortably and spilled. "I'm sorry Jade...I didn't mean for any of this to happen, but this thing with me and Cat just did, and it was totally out of the blue but I swear I never meant to hurt you. I really screwed up, and I'm sorry."
Her eyes went wide, she looked at him like she didn't even recognize him.
"S-so you really did cheat on me?"
"I'm sorry..."
"For how long?"
"I don't know, maybe a week or something but that's not-"
Jade hit him. She slapped him right across the face hard and he sat back, stunned. "..that's not important," he trailed off.
Jade was crying now, she covered her mouth with her pale hands. "You bastard. You've been cheating on me all this time and you never told me? God your such a friggin' coward!"
"Jade I'm sorry, I was gonna tell you.."
"Save it." She got out of the car and with her voice laced with bitterness said, "Don't call me ever again. Don't look at me, don't talk to me, don't even think about me, or I swear to God I'll.." She slammed the car door shut and kicked it with her foot. The sound of her crying and cursing to herself trailed off in the background and then just like that she was gone.
After she stormed off, Beck stayed behind in the parking lot trying to remember how he'd ended up this way in the first place. At least the worst is over, he thought trying to comfort himself but it didn't really do him any good because he still felt like crap.
He was sitting in the car alone leaning against his arm on the window when there was a tap on the glass. He looked up and saw Cat wave to him; she presumed to get into the passenger seat beside him but her smile faded when she saw how upset he was.
"Are you okay Beck?" she asked.
He shook his head and she placed her hand on his shoulder.
"It's Jade right?" she asked him in a quiet voice.
He nodded. "I don't really want to talk about it... What are you still doing here?"
"Well I was looking for you. I was gonna see if you wanted to do something after school, but...you look like you want to be left alone right now."
He thought about it and shook his head. "Actually, I don't think I'd mind some company right about now."
She smiled at him. "Can we go to the park?" she asked.
He shrugged. "We can go wherever you want to."
He put his key in the ignition, started up the car and they drove off together.
Writing that beginning scene almost made me love Beck and Jade together, my oh my.
I'm sort of on a roll with this story sooo expect an update very soon :)
