A/N Hey guys part 2 :) again I apologize for any mistakes or crap writing structure, got a lot on at the moment and I'm a bit all over the place, which reflects clearing in my writing eh ? ;)
I'm not sure if I'm happy with this chapter but here it is.
The end bit with the poems is kind of the bit I hate so I'd love comments on that, one is converted from a song I wrote the other two are just random, so sorry for that too.
Wow I apologize a lot, but I love you guys and am so happy you are reviewing so please continue, might even add another chapter ;)
Thanks again.
Listen to your heart, it guides you to the wisdom your brain cannot.
I saw it in the words on the page,
I heard it in the words unspoken,
I heard it in the tears I'd never see her cry.
Taking a deep breath I went to open the door, I really hoped this wasn't Aria if I'm honest I was praying it wasn't, yet there it was a letter with handwriting I'd recognise anywhere. I scanned the halls although I had hoped not to see Aria, I couldn't help feel disappointed when she wasn't standing there, wasn't holding the letter in her hands, or declaring our love with a passionate kiss.
Walking to my desk, I couldn't help think I wanted to see her and not this cold letter lying on my mat. I hovered over reading it, just like I hovered over hearing her voice-mail yet I'd been so glad I did, my hands answered the question neither my heart or brain could agree on.
There it was laid out in front of me, a poem as I read it the words became clear, along with the tear stained paper which was becoming like a visible representation of her heart, it was easy to tell she'd put her whole heart, her whole everything into this. Yet I was unsure what she wanted me to do, I'd made it clear I couldn't stay. How were we supposing it'll work ? Once I turned down the job offer it became clear to everyone why I'd stayed-
WHAT THE FUCK EZRA!
My heart interrupted my own thoughts, why do I care what people thought.
When did I become this person ?
Why has this become everyone else's god damn decision ?
They don't get to tell me how this ends, it isn't their story.
I love Aria, always have always will, and it's about time I stood up and fought for what I believed in.
There it was, the place I've ended up at.
Yes, the Montgomery household.
SHIT!
It's now or never.
My palms sweating my heart beating so loud I'm surprised the street hasn't woken up.
As I knocked at the door, a little voice reminded me right now I could run, but the louder voice said YOU'VE BEEN RUNNING TOO LONG!
When nobody answered I looked at my watch
6AM
wow, would anyone even be awake it's Saturday I thought about walking away , with the intention of coming back later, but if I walked away now there's absolutely no grantee I'll be coming back, I'm here now and determined to get a answer. Once more I knocked slightly louder this time.
There it was, the moment I'd waited for the door had opened to reveal a sleepy Ella.
"I think you should go get Byron I'd like a chat"
I said it firmly and quite cocky, I don't know where this new me had come from but I loved it finally I was fighting for Aria and I never felt better.
As quickly as Ella disappeared she reappeared with Byron.
"So I thought I should tell you both, turns out I'm not leaving I'm am indeed staying right here in Rosewood. I'm not a coward and there is no chance I'm taking the cowards way out, it's not who I am and I can't believe I even let you convince me, I should."
this new tone shocked Byron he was angry but I was ready for the fight.
"where do you get off ?" Byron's was seething and in some strange way I was loving it.
"Excuse me ? Where do I get off, where the Hell do you get off ? I suggest you just accept I'm not leaving I couldn't never be that person."
"It's a shame that Ego had to get in the way" Byron was quick to come back but I was even quicker
"Yeah, but then again who's ego are we talking about exactly ?"
Ella now stepped in.
"please Ezra just leave"
walking out the door hearing the door slam behind me, I let out a long nervous breath although I was confident and giving it my all, my insides were screaming What the HELL are you doing ?.
I rang Aria but never got a response, she'd probably be asleep only that girl could sleep through me standing up for our love, may I add for the very first time.
"Aria, when you get this ring me I love you"
I was happy, God I was so happy, all of sudden I was a love struck teenager wanting to hug every person I see on the way home. First there was something I needed to do, I'd wrote Aria a poem and I wanted her to see it before I saw her, before her parents blew up in our faces.
I read it once over
Aria,
If I leave you, I leave with nothing but an empty world before I fall to my knees to ask for forgiveness, please realize this isn't easy for me just take my hand again forget the past take it one day at a time, it's hard to understand I'll never give up I've been stupid but I want you to have this.
Hold my hand,
Take my heart,
I'll do it all over again,
It's a breeze in the air,
It's a smell in the morning,
It's a strand of you hair,
Finding the slightest thing,
brakes me all over again,
I can't get over
those moments,
I'll hold here,
forever in my heart
my bright star,
you hold the key
maybe your not ready
maybe you don't care
maybe you can't forgive me,
but hold my hand,
take my heart,
this time,
I won't let you break.
The first poem, just didn't feel enough it was down to these moments to let her know how I feel.
So I'd write her a second and maybe a third.
Happiness doesn't always come,
Happiness doesn't always visit,
Happiness is you,
So stay,
Make me happy
Make me smile again
Make me whole
Don't walk away
Cause I'll only beg you to stay,
Be my happiness,
Be my life saver,
Be my smile,
Be my lover.
I prayed to God today,
I wonder if he heard me,
My body aches,
My souls lost,
Loosing myself,
Tired and making,
The same mistakes,
I wonder If he heard me,
Screaming out your name,
I wish he'd hear me,
Desperate, broken and afraid,
I've lost you,
But he already knows that,
Just waiting for me to say,
I've made a mistake,
So I'll open up my heart,
I'll bear my soul,
Please say he's out there,
Hearing me plead,
Bringing you back to me,
Against all odds,
Against all reason.
There they are, three poems I want Aria to have,I want Aria to keep. My heart and soul within every depth of them, it's scary leaving them it's like a painter when you put too much into your art your fear how vulnerable and exposed you are, but they're under the doormat for her and she knows they're there.
