Chapter 7

"Rachel?"

Her eyes flickered a bit as she heard her name. She jumped up when she saw him, "Hi."

He made his way closer to her. He noticed her swollen puffy eyes, and felt awful knowing that that had been his fault. But something was different... "Hi."


Finn looked around before taking a seat on the edge of the couch, "What are you doing here?"

"Qui-Quinn, dropped me off. Finn, I..."

"Rachel, stop..."

"No, Finn, listen to me. I need you to know that I will never be able to apologize enough for the way I've acted these last few months. I thought that everything, my life, my future, I thought that it had all come collapsing down. I sat there in the dark for months... alone, broken. Never being able to grasp the idea of what was going on right in front of me..."

She began to tear up, "I thought about that night, over and over again. And as selfish as I was, not a day went by that I didn't hate myself for taking our baby away from you. You deserve so much Finn. You deserve a wonderful life, filled with love and happiness and family. It took you leaving me last night, alone, and sad, for me to realize that."

He dropped his face as he reached for her, "Rachel I'm so.."

She shook her head to stop him, "I realized that you have been a single parent to our beautiful little girl for all this time. And if I were in your shoes I don't know if I could forgive myself. I've been an awful wife, mother, friend, but most importantly person. To you, to myself to Lexi. And I know that its gonna take time, for me to, you know, get better. But I'm gonna start trying. And I just need you to know that I am gonna try. I have to if I want to keep you in my life, I have to.."

Her voice began to hitch as she managed to stumble the last words out of her mouth, "Because I love you Finn and I never want to feel alone and heartbroken like I did last night, and I know its not that easy, but please, don't leave me. I don't think my heart can handle that.. I promise, I promise Finn, I'll try to get better..."

Finn grabbed her in his arms pulling her close as the tears streamed down her face. His eyes watered up as he held her, "Rachel Barbra Berry-Hudson, you are my wife. I made you a promise, 'In sickness and in health' remember. I will never leave you. I only said those things because I was mad, Rach. I couldn't stand to see my beautiful girl, in pain and suffering everyday. And then to see Lexi and the heartbreak in her eyes, it was too much for me. I felt like I had failed with both of you. I blamed myself, and that wore me out after so long, so I blamed you. And I just need you to know, that I am never leaving your side. We'll get through this. You just have to let me in, no more keeping to yourself, we're a family. And families do things together okay?"

He gently kissed the top of her head as she continued to cry.

...

They sat there for hours until they both had gradually fallen asleep.

Quinn knocked on the door before pushing it open, "Rachel? Is that Finn's car out..."

"Daddy, Mommy!" Before she could finish her sentence Quinn looked down at Lexi who was running towards the living room.

She stopped abruptly when she saw Finn and Rachel sprawled out on the couch fast asleep. "Lexi, shhh..."

She stopped turning as she reached the couch and lightly touched her mothers hair. "Mommy's sleeping."

Finn's eyes opened a bit when he heard her voice, "Lexi?"

"Hi daddy?"

"Hey baby girl, what are you..?"

"Aunt Quinn brought me, she said mommy was here. She's sleeping shhhh." She raised a finger over her mouth as Finn smiled.

"Lexi?"

The little girl looked down and smiled as her mother began to wake up, "Mommy. You're awake!"

"Hi angel."

"Look daddy's here."

"I know. He was taking a nap with me."

Lexi's smile began to fade as she looked at Rachel closely, "Mommy were you crying again, your eyes are all red, please dont be sick again..."

"No, I'm fine. I was just crying because I missed you and daddy so much. But you're both here now."Lexi through herself into Rachel's arms, "I love you mommy."

Quinn cleared her throat as she placed a bag on one of the boxes, "I'm sorry to wake you guys up. I was coming to get Rachel..."

"Its okay, I'm glad you did, we might have stayed here all night. I'm tired, it was a long day." Rachel looked over at Finn as he nodded.

Quinn motioned towards the door "Well, I have dinner in the car, I'm supposed to get it home for Beth and Puck... I got you guys some..."

Finn stood up and made his way over to Quinn, "Do you mind if we eat here, the three of us. Its technically our first night in this house. And I want to spend some much needed time with my two girls."

Lexi smiled as she ran up to Finn jumping in his arms, "Yay! Lets stay here with daddy."

She smiled brightly, "Sure, I'll go get your food."

...

The three of them sat on the floor of their soon to be living room enjoying the dinner Quinn had picked up for them. Rachel looked over and smiled as Lexi sat on Finn's lap eating her pasta. She knew it would take time, but if this is what her days would be like, she knew she would be okay.

"Finn, I love you."

He looked up at her sitting across from him, "I love you too Rachel."

Lexi smiled as she interrupted looking at them both, "I love mommy and daddy."

"And we love you." Finn lied her down on the floor as he began to tickle her.

Rachel smiled, "This is the beginning of what its gonna be like from now on. I promise."