rI looked up into his blue eyes now hard like ice chips. We stared at each other for a moment listening to each others quiet breaths. He looked down before speaking. He took a few deep breaths as if to calm himself down then looked at me.

"I should have- somebody should have volunteered for you!" He exclaimed while pounding his fist into the wall beside my head. I watched him as his hand dropped down to touch my stomach. So this is what this is about.

"There isnt anything we can do now Peeta." I told him. "All we can do is fight to the death and hope the odds are in our favor." He nodded as he looked at my protruding tummy.

"I never thought that sentence would ever be used in a realistic way." He laughed wetly and looked up at me and I noticed the unshead tears in his eyes glittering like diamonds. I laughed quietly too before grabbing his other hand and placing it on the bump. Cinna could probably have gone a little lighter with the fat.

I watched as his thumbs drew small circles on my belly and his breaths became ragged. Cupping his face I brought it up to meet mine before I hugged him tightly, savoring the feeling of his hard body pressing against mine. His arms immediately went around me and pulled me even closer as he held me very tight.

"We'll get through this Peeta." I whispered to him as we stood there. He drew back and quickly pressed his lips to mine hard. I kissed him back just as eagerly forgetting for a moment how risky it was.

We broke apart breathing slightly harder and I was sure my cheeks were flushed. Peeta ran his thumb across my cheek and I leaned my face into his touch closing my eyes and sighing softly, somehow going from the role of the comforter to the comforted. He kissed my hand then my neck then my lips before leading me back out in the hallway and guiding me to the chariots. The ordered platonic front back on in both of our parts.

I stepped into my chariot as Eric shot me a look as Cinna came over to give us instructions.

"Alright to display you as a team I've decided that Eric is going to carry you on his right shoulder." I gaped at him.

"Cinna, I'm a whale especially with this gel stuff. What if I throw out his shoulder or something." Cinna shook his head.

"You're a bird Zila, you won't do a thing to him." I looked at Eric for some type of backup but he simply agreed with Cinna. Without warning Eric hoisted me up onto his shoulder and I watched in horror as Cinna pressed a metal thing to my back then placed a lighter at the edge of my dress only to see translucent silver flames begin dancing along the bottom of my dress. Cinna then handed Eric a scepter wreathed in flames.

We started then with Katniss and Peeta in front of us, the others having already gone. I felt something sputter to life on my back as we made it out of the doors and I set my face before looking at Panems residents. The sheer number of people looking at me made me feel like my heart was dragged to the back of my chest then tied to a huge rock and I felt the air whoosh out of my lungs. I made a face at my left side before waving imperiously then raising my ams with my mouth open in an angered hiss.

I spent the rest of my quick time out there with an unreadable face including when the president gave his 'Welcome to the Quarter Quell" speech. Then we were done and I was deposited shaking on the floor. Peeta kneeled by me and felt my forehead.

"You alright?" He asked. I shook my head.

"No, I think...I'm gonna be sick." I gasped out as I shot up and ran to the conveniently located bathrooms. I had a feeling I wasn't the only one to ever puke after the chariot ride.

As I sat on the cool floor heaving into the marble like basin that served as a toilet with my arms folded in front of me for my foreheads to rest on I heard someone come in. I was too weak to look up so I was surprised that whoever it was gathered my hair from where it had fallen around me and clipped it up into a loose bun around the tall ponytail before slipping a glass into my hand. Glancing down it was water so I took a small sip before looking behind me.

Standing behind me was the man that I knew to be Finnick Odair with a sad smile on his face.

"Thanks," I murmured. He nodded.

"It was the least I could do." he answered while rubbing small circles on my back with his hand. After a few more sips of water I felt well enough to get up so Finnick helped me up and escorted me to the elevator where he explained to me how to get to district twelves quarters.

I leaned against the glass of the elevator and noticed a people shaped smudge on the wall opposite of me. As I stepped out of the elevator and into the district district twelve quarters I was quickly grabbed and pulled into a hug. The strange woodsy and sweet scent gave it away as Peeta as I inhaled deeply.

He led me to the tv where everyone except Effie who seemed to be absent was gathered. The past hunger games were on and Katniss looked mildly sickened. I sat down on the soft leather couch beside Peeta and pulled a fuzzy blanket over me.

I don't remember falling asleep but I remember being carried by two familiar arms and laid down gently onto my bed that seemed to be inexplicably warm

AN: this is how much I care about all of you. I will have you know that I typed this all out on my phone on the non mobile version of fanfiction (thats tiny writing if you wanted to know... and if you did one thing wrong the whole damn thing was lost. soo review and my sore bum for sitting 8 hours on a bus will feel that much better. again, no matter what you say in a review the fact you took the time to do it makes my day! bye loves