Another update. Pretty short but you get two pov
"You know I love you right?" She pause "I love you so much", Elena says quietly.
I nod, because I do know. She does love me. She's never made any secret about the way she feels about me. Time and time again putting herself and her friends in danger to save and protect me. I know she loves me but it isn't enough. It never was.
The wind howls around us and she shivers. I shrug off my coat and place it her shoulders. She might as well take my coat, she already taken my heart and soul too.
I know why she has brought me here, to let me down softly. She doesn't want to hurt me. She doesn't meanto be shredding my heart into two, I take comfort in that.
I wish I could make this easier for her, tell her that I understand her choice and hope we can still be friends. But I can't, I feel frozen. Elena steps closer to me and wraps her arms around my neck. I try my hardest not to inhale the sweet scent. I fail. She smells like flowers; lilies and roses. It mouth watering and I'm brought back to my childhood. I'm brought back to memories of running through meadows while my brother chases me; Better times, simpler times.
"Are you going to be alright?", she question. No, No I'm never going to be alright.
"Yeah I'll be fine. I just want you to be happy. That is all I ever wanted for you.", I murmur into her ear. She doesn't respond. I'm glad. Her body shakes around me and I feel wetness on my neck. She's crying, I think I am too.
I take a step back and look directly into her eyes. My god she is beautiful! My heart clenches and I wonder how I will ever get over her. I cup her cheek and feel as the blood flows underneath my hand. She is so warm, so alive. Everything I'm not, everything I'll never be.
I lean in and press my lips to hers. I mean to keep it chaste but her tongue caresses my bottom lip forcing me to deepen the kiss. Our tongues battle for dominance and I can't stop the growl that vibrates through my chest. This always happens, only she does this to me. I pull back and smile as she catches her breath. She is amazing. Her eyes are closed and her checks are flushed. I take a mental picture and whisper goodbye. This is it. I turn and run before she open her eyes.
Elena opens her eyes to find herself alone. He's gone, he's really gone. Elena takes a deep breath to keep the tears at bay; she didn't think that this would hurt as much as it does. She tells herself that she is making the right choice. That it was selfish to keep them both, she had to make a choice and she did. End of discussion. She picked the brother she couldn't live without, the brother her life revolved around. The one her soul yearned for, the one she needed. This had to be the right decision. It just has to be! She thinks to herself.
Elena walk slowly back to her house, admiring the scenery. She can't remember the last time she felt so free. As she walks into her home she calls out for Jeremy but gets no response. Elena assumes he isn't home. He's always gone.
When Elena makes it into her room she finds a small envelop on her bed. The envelop is bright, the color of blood, She rips it open and finds and hand written note inside. Elena recognizes the handwriting; It belongs to the brother she did choose. Elena was just going to call him, to tell him her decision. She opens the letter and begins to read
Dear Elena,
By the time you read this I will be far away from this town, from this life. But I wouldn't leave without some parting words
I Love you, I love you so very much.
But I can't be selfish anymore. As much as I love you, I love him too. He's my brother and I cannot stand in the way of his happiness any longer. Our whole lives have been this, this constant dance of taking from each other, of hurting each other. I don't want to hurt him any longer. He deserves to be happy and you make him happy, you make everyone happy. There is a brilliancy that surrounds you and it burns and heals my heart simultaneously.
I want you to know I can never thank you enough for loving me, for caring for me. You brought back a part of me that I thought I had lost long ago. I am now and have always been a monster, and I have no idea how you could love something as vile and weak as me but I thank you none the less for doing so. I know you think I'm wrong, that all monsters including myself can be redeemed. I disagree but must admit you were, by far the best part of me, now and always. You are more than I ever dreamed of having and way more than I deserved. I love you now and always will.
I want you to tell my brother that I love him too. That I'm sorry for all that I've done to him and that I forgive him for everything. Tell him that I want him to be happy. That is all I've ever wanted to for him, for you, for all of you. I'm just sorry it's taken this long for me to figure that out.
Goodbye Elena, I will always love you
So what do you guys think? I'm sorry this update took so long. I'm starting to lose motivation. Should I continue?
P.s I didn't use names for a reason ;)
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