It sort of feels like someone is following me. You know how you just get that feeling. Around school, walking home, in town. The feeling just doesn't go away. I always hear faint footsteps and they stop whenever I turn around. On the way home from school three cats ran past me and stopped behind me, as if they were looking up at someone behind me. It's kind of eerie, but other than that I'm totally excited! Ciel started school today and I have 3 whole classes with him. I have a feeling we will be spending a lot of time together. I'm hoping we will anyways. But the only person he was obsessed with was Lizzie. I mean come on. I know he's set to be engaged to her, but that doesn't mean he can't give other girls a chance. How can he even stand her frilliness and high pitch voice? I'm her best friend and even I have a hard time coping with it. Maybe I'll try to introduce myself tomorrow, if I have the guts. Maybe if I wear frilly clothes like Lizzie, he'll notice me. Once I get home, I'll run a nice hot bath. I've got some prepping to do
By the time I got up to my room I was ready to pass out.
"Damn it, Sebastian. It's too much work carrying these books all day! Why do I even need to go to school, if you can teach me."
"Young master, it will help you socialize a bit more. If you know more people, it can help with some of your cases."
"Well start a hot bath and make sure to put a cup of-"
"Earl Gray tea, Young master?"
Why does he do that so often? It doesn't help my attraction for him. Curse you Sebastian.
"Yes, and start on dinner while you're at it." I spit out without looking into his eyes.
"Yes, my Lord."
When Sebastian finally closed the door I sighed and dropped to my bed. Why did I have this attraction towards him? It's not normal for me to want anyone so badly. It's not normal for me to want anyone. But, Sebastian. He intrigues me. The way he pulls off his glove with a swift move using his mouth. The way he looks at me. The way he treats me. Like he cares. But I know he doesn't. He just makes it seem so because of the contract. I move my hand to my marked eye. It's just that sometimes it feels as if he is trying to seduce me. I better get to the bath. The sooner I do that and finish dinner, the sooner I can rest.
As I undressed the young master to get ready for his bath, I couldn't help but stare so intensely at his body. I need to stop this. I can't keep coming on to the young master. I can't keep sending him signals. We have a contract, and I must stay true to it. But sometimes, I believe he is sending me signals, too. He isn't stiff anymore when I dress and undress him. It even seems his face is welcoming me. He doesn't look me in the eyes anymore, though. It seems like he doesn't care.
"Young master, please enjoy your bath. Dinner will be ready just in time."
"Thank you, Sebastian."
I couldn't help but have my mouth agape as he climbed into the tub. He never appreciates what I do. Or it doesn't seem like it. No, I must've heard incorrectly.
"Pardon?"
I heard him sigh and take a deep breath. Like it was killing him to say it.
"Did I stutter?"
I managed a smile at my master's old ways as I made my way to the door.
"No, you didn't my lord."
