Flashback
"Are you sure about this Sammy?" Dean said looking down at his brother.
Sam sat up "Dean we've been hiding our relationship from dad for to long now. You said we will tell him."
"Yeah but not now." Dean said "I don't think I'm ready to come out to him and I'm defiantly not ready to tell him that I'm sleeping with my little brother."
Sam got off the bed. "Dean we've been over this a million times. You even said so yourself that you want to come clean."
Dean moved over to the edge of the bed "Yeah but now I'm not so sure. If I tell dad I'm gay and in love with you I'll lose him."
"And if you don't you'll lose me, either way I'm telling dad." Sam walked to the door.
Dean jumped up and grabbed his arm. "Are you crazy?"
Sam pulled his arm away. "No, now are you going to do this with me like you promised or not."
Dean just shook his head "I can't Sammy."
Sam looked down "Then neither can I." He left his brothers room and went to his own.
A few hours later they were sitting at the dinner table.
Sam and Dean played with their food while John watched them both closely. "What's going on with you two?" He asked.
Dean cleared his throat. "Nothing."
"Actually dad I need to tell you something." Sam said.
Dean's head shot up. "Sammy not now."
John looked at them both. "Okay I want to know what's going on right now."
"Sam please don't" Dean pleaded.
Sam looked at John. "Dad I'm gay and in love with someone."
John stared at his younger son. "You're what?"
"I'm gay dad." Sam said again.
John looked at Dean "And you knew about this?"
Dean looked at Sam. "Yes sir I did."
Sam refused to look at Dean. "Dad?"
John shook his head. "No, you're not gay."
Sam sighed "I am."
"No!" John stood up. "You're just confused and you don't know how you feel. You're not gay son you can't be."
"It's true dad." Sam said getting up.
"Get out of my house." John snapped. "I don't care where you go I just can't look at you right now."
Sam stepped back "Dad?"
"Get out!" He yelled knocking over a plate.
Sam ran upstairs
Dean got up "Dad he has nowhere to go."
"I don't care." John said.
"I do, gay or not he's my brother and if he goes I'm going with him." Dean ran upstairs after his brother. When he got to Sam's room he was packing his stuff. "Sam stop."
"You heard dad Dean." He said.
Dean walked up to Sam and grabbed his arm. "I'm not letting you leave Sam."
"Dean let me go!" Sam yelled.
"No!" Dean pulled Sam into a hug. "I'm not going to let you go Sammy."
Sam dropped his bag and wrapped his arms around Dean's waist. "He hates me."
"No" Dean said "He's just shocked but he'll come around. You just can't leave me Sammy. I'm so sorry for this but please don't leave me. I don't know what I'd do with out you."
Sam was about to say something but he looked up and saw his father standing in the doorway. He pulled away from Dean and picked up his bags. "I'm leaving now."
John sighed "You can stay." He said silently.
"What?" Sam said.
"You two should get some sleep, you have school tomorrow." Without another word John left the room and went downstairs. He grabbed his keys and left the house."
Dean looked over at Sam. "Please don't go Sammy."
Sam looked at Dean and even though he was mad at him he hated to see him life this. He walked over to him and kissed him on the lips. "I'm not going to leave you Dean."
Dean sighed "I promise I'll tell him soon I'm just-"
"Shhhhh" Sam placed a finger on Dean's lips. "It's okay Dean." He rested his forehead against Dean's. "It's all going to be okay, right?"
Dean nodded "Yeah I promise."
End of flashback
A few days later
Dean was jogged out of his thoughts when the teacher called his name. "Sorry."
Mr. Clarkson walked up to Dean. "Is everything ok Dean?"
Dean wiped his face. "Yeah um I just…can I use the restroom?"
Mr. Clarkson sighed "Yeah go ahead."
Dean smiled "Thank you." He got the pass and left the classroom. Instead of going to the bathroom he wondered around the halls thinking about his brother and ex-lover. He stopped by a row of lockers and leant against them. He was so lost as to what to do. He loved his brother with all his heard but he also loved his father. Either he betray his father's trust or lose his brother to another boy. He slid down the lockers pulled his knees up to his chest and dropped his head down. He always hated the fact that the only person that could make him feel like this was his brother Sam.
Sam was walking down the halls when he saw his brother. Not bothering to check the halls he ran over to him. "Dean?" He knelt down in front of him and placed a hand on his head. "Hey?"
Dean looked up at his brother. "Hey Sammy."
Sam saw that his brother was crying. He got to his feet and pulled Dean with him. They went to an empty classroom and Sam sat across from Dean. "What's going on Dean?"
Dean shook his head and smiled. "Nothing."
Sam frowned "Come on Dean I know when you're lying to me."
Dean dropped his head again. "You're still seeing Alex and I can't stop thinking about you."
Sam sighed "Dean?"
Dean got up "God I'm such a punk. I can't even stand up for the brother I love. Sammy you don't know how much I want to tell the world that I love you."
Sam got up "You're my big brother Dean and a lot of people look up to you. I know how hand it must be to live a life you don't want. Dad is our only family and it would kill him if he found out about us. I know that's what you're worried about. How dad will react to you coming out. Dad counts on you for everything and I know how much you love for dad to say I'm proud of you son."
Dean leaned back against a desk. "I know how much you want to be with someone who's not scared. I'm not ashamed of you Sammy I'm just scared as hell of what might happen if I do. All I want to do is love you Sammy but I'm so scared."
Sam walked up to Dean. "Dean look at me." Dean looks at Sammy. "I'm not going anywhere I'll wait for you because you're the only one I want to be with."
"But what about Alex." Dean said.
"I'll stop seeing him if you stop seeing other girls." Sam said looking Dean in the eyes.
Dean smiled "I promise Sammy."
Sam gave into his heart and kissed his brother. The same burning fire that erupted in his chest whenever they kissed. His arms went around Dean's waist pulled him closer to him. Dean's hand slid under Sam's shirt feeling over his bare chest. Dean moved to Sam's neck, kissing and nibbling.
Sam smiled and pulled back. "As much as I want to we're not about to have sex in an empty classroom for someone to walk in and see us."
Dean nodded "I really do love you Sammy."
"I know" Sam said "And I love you too but I don't want to start this up again until we're both ready."
Dean sighed "As much as I hate it I understand and I'll try to keep my hands off of you."
Sam chuckled "Come on we have to get back to class."
After school
Sam was waiting by Dean's impala when Alex's truck pulled up in front of him. "Hey Alex." He said smiling.
Alex got out of the car. "Hey Sam I'm glad I caught you. I was wondering if you wanted to hang out."
Sam frowned "Oh um actually I need to talk to you about something."
"Shoot" Alex said.
"I don't think we should see eachother anymore. I really consider you as a friend but nothing more." Sam said.
Alex looked down. "Are you serious?"
Sam nodded "Yeah I'm sorry." He was about to walk off but Alex grabbed him by the arm.
"Let's get something straight here. I'm not going anywhere and neither are you. I like you and I want to go out with you. So I'll pick you up at six or you'll regret it in the future. Do you understand me?" Alex said.
"Let me go." Sam shrieked.
Alex yanked Sam onto his knees."I said do you understand me?"
Sam nodded "Yeah I understand you."
Alex let go of Sam and backed off. "Make sure you wear something nice." He got in his car and drove off.
Dean was walking toward his car when he saw a truck pull off and his brother on the ground. He ran up to him. "Sammy what happened?"
Sam got up "I'll tell you when we get home."
They both got in the car and drove off.
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