I have an exam tommorow but since I can't let go of an oppurtunity to procrastinate, hence I wrote this chapter down. I wanted to add a lot of other things in it but I was more impatient to upload.
I know a lot of things, and people are very vague right now, however I will explain all of it in the upcoming chapters. The chapters are going to be short so there won't be any descriptions but I will try to put everything in order. For now let this suffice.
Disclaimer: Twilight belongs to SM.
Chapter 4-
Driving away the pain
Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can u see what I see
They're tryin to come back, all my senses push
Un-tie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...
(One Republic – Stop and Stare)
"I'm going to the grocery store. You need anything?" I asked putting on my coat. It was going to be chilly outside.
I waited for a while but when he didn't answer I shrugged and headed out. The fridge was almost empty and I wanted to make something special for dinner. Me movements were sluggish and I hated that, I didn't not like to walk slowly but that's just how it was now.
I rubbed my stomach affectionately. At least there was one person in the world who I loved unconditionally.
The grocery store was almost empty at this time of the evening, I started moving through the aisles trying to remember all the things I needed. It was hard to push the over flowing trolley just then a tall lanky boy came in front of me with a huge grin plastered on his pimpled face.
"Eric!" I exclaimed as he pulled me in for a hug. I sank into him and leaned my head on his chest. He rubbed by back gently and I couldn't help the tears which escaped my eyes. I sniffed and rubbed my nose with the arm of my coat.
He pulled me back slightly.
"Hey, what's wrong? Are you okay?" He asked concern laced in his voice.
"No." I cried in a small voice in between the tears.
"Common I'm taking you home,"
"No Eric, I have to go back. Mike is home." I pulled back from him already missing his warm body and rubbed my eyes, wiping away the tears.
"Mike is back. Did he say something? Did he hit you? Tell me Bella!"
"God, no Eric! He would never hit me."
"Then?"
I remained silent and he understood like he always did. He held my hand and pulled me with him.
"Wait Eric I have to get these done" I pointed towards my cart filled with groceries.
"You go ahead, get in the car and turn the heat up; I'll take care of these." I smiled at him, he was always like this, gentle and considerate. I told him where I was parked before I left.
I got in my car and turned the heat up as he had said waiting for him. I rubbed my hands together, it was cold. He got back a while later, after loading the thinks in the trunk of my truck he got in the passenger seat. I snuggled close to him and he enveloped me in his arms. Eric was thin and wiry but it didn't matter not right now.
He bought his lips down and kissed my forehead, his lips lingering there. I moved my head so that it came to level with his; I closed my eyes and joined my lips with his. We remained like that for several minutes kissing gently, he wasn't urgent, he wasn't fast, but it was warm nonetheless. I moved my lips slowly with his until he broke the kissed and bought his lips to kiss my forehead again. I shifted and adjusted my back against his chest, while his arms came around me holding me tight. I closed my eyes and tried to shove away all the resentment I felt, to feel warms again, even if it was momentarily.
We stayed like that for a while, talking about everything and nothing. I knew I had to get back and he knew that too so didn't protest when I pulled away. He kissed me once again but this was very brief and then got out, waving as I headed back home.
A/N: Needy greedy Bella. ;) She sure does seem promiscuous. Don't hate her; she's just trying to drive away the pain. She's pregnant and in need of love, so she takes it up whatever form it comes in.
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