Chapter 4: Don't walk away and leave my in the dark
Mood music: Don't walk away - Joshua Staar (I don't own the song)
So this was Violet. The girl who had "stolen Tate's fragile heart" as Constance put it. I was nervous in front of her, but I couldn't let her see it. She seemed nice enough but looks are deceiving.
"Violet this is Carolyn." Vivienne said as she broke me from my train of thought. "She just moved in next door with Constance."
"Oh harsh." She said as she took a seat next to me. "How's she been treating ya?"
"Well I'm alive aren't I?" Lie. Violet let out a small laugh and said:
"Finally somebody my age has moved in around here. I've been getting lonely. How old are you anyways?"
"I'm seventeen, you?"
"Fifteen but it's better than nothing." Vivienne had left the room so we could chat, I didn't mind.
"That's true, I never liked feeling alone. It never helps my sanity." I said with a smirk.
"So why are you living with Constance? Are you related to her or something?" She said as she grabbed an apple from the bowl in front of us.
"No I'm not, I'm living with her because I'm alone. She's kind of the last person I have anywhere." I said as I looked around, everything was different, but in a way it was the same.
"Alone? What about your family? friends?" She said as she bit into the apple.
"My parents died, I barely had any friends, except for this one guy." I said as I looked at my sneakers.
"Oh a guy? Any chance you'll tell me more?" She said as nudged her elbow on my arm. I smiled and said:
"I don't see why not." I really had nothing to lose by telling her. As long as I didn't mention Tate's name, I was fine.
"So-" She cut me off before I began.
"Hold on, lets go up to my room. I bet you anything my mom's gonna listen in." She said as she grabbed my arm and began walking up the stairs with me. We walked into her room, the first thing I noticed was that this was Tate's old room. The room where I slept the night Jason had died. The room where I woke up to find a perfectly normal Tate who ended up killing 15 kids and somehow died. It hurt me to be back.
"You okay?" Violet asked as she went over to her pile of CDs.
"Yeah, I'm good just a bit cold but don't worry about it." I said as I walked around. It was dark, just the way Tate liked it.
"You like the Ramones?" She said as she lifted a CD cover.
"You kidding me? They're great." I smiled, at least Violet had a good taste in music. She put the music on and sat down on the bed, she hit the bed a sign to tell me to sit. Another thing to remind me of Tate. Just great.
"So this guy, was he your boyfriend or something? Or we're you guys just friends?" She said as she sat crossed legged.
"No, he wasn't my boyfriend, but damn I wished he was. He was warm, sweet, funny, he was kind of what I needed at the time. I was emotionally abused by my dad and he was always there for me. I don't know if that was the only reason I was attracted to him but I settled with being friends. I didn't want to ruin anything."
"Why would it've been ruined? Were you afraid of him not liking you back?"
"Yeah, in a way. I mean I was a lot to handle at them time. I was an emotional wreak, everyday there was something that made me want to cry my eyes out. Everyday he'd come over and I'd tell him what had happened. Whenever he was around it was like we were in our own little world but even then he was untouchable."
Violet nodded and then asked:
"So what happened to him?"
"He went a little crazy, he didn't have the best family either. I still loved him though, but when my parents died, I couldn't take it so I left." We talked in the room for so long but it was really interesting. Not only was Violet pretty, she had a different point of view on a lot of things. As time went by, it grew darker, the sun was going down but it was another kind of dark. Like something in the room was taking in all of our light. I didn't know what it was but I could feel it.
"It's getting dark, do you think Constance would mind you staying longer?" Violet asked as she noticed it getting darker.
"I'm not too sure, she hasn't shown her strict side yet so maybe I'll stay a bit longer, if that's okay with you." I really hoped it was because an idea had been planted in my head and now I had to follow through with it.
"It's fine with me." She said as got up off the bed.
"So, I've heard a lot about this house and I was wondering if maybe you could give me a little tour." If this house had anything to do with Jason's death I was going to find out today.
"Yeah why not, let's go." She smiled and we both walked out of the room, When we got into the hallway it felt brighter, not like inside. We went to the obvious places in the house, living room, kitchen every place that I had already seen. That's when we got to the main attraction -at least for me- the basement.
"Can you just hold on a sec, I forgot something in my room. I'll be back." Violet said as we sprinted to her room. I didn't mind, I needed to find Jason and with Violet with me it wouldn't be easy. I walked into the basement, remembering it as the first time Tate took me and Jason down here. He tried to scare us which he did successfully. I looked around for a clue, something that I might have found that pointed me in the right direction to find Jason.
"Violet?" A voice said from the other end of the room. It was familiar, too familiar. It was Tate. I turned the corner as fast as I could, Constance had told me not to show myself to Tate if I found him. I wasn't ready to see him any how.
"Violet you down here?" I could feel him getting closer, that made me uneasy. After everything that had happened, what I was too blind to see, and what Constance had told me about what Tate had done, I was afraid of him. I was afraid of my best friend. I heard him walk closer, he was probably on the other side of the wall. My dead heart stopped. He was bound to see me now.
"Tate?" I heard a voice at the top of the staircase. It was Violet. This was going to get worse. He walked over to the staircase.
"I thought you were upstairs, what are you doing down here?" I turned my head just a bit to see what was going on, it was a risk but I was willing to take it.
"I just went to see if you were there, I'll meet up with you later. We have a new neighbor and she's around my age, I'm showing her around. I think we'll be pretty good friends. Anyways I'm giving her a tour, she's probably down here so just go up to my room."Violet explained in brief detail. My question was did Tate just like her or were they together? In both cases I knew I would be torn to pieces.
"Alright." He said as he kissed her forehead and vanished. With that my dead little heart was ripped to pieces. He had kissed my forehead the last night I had with Jason. Those lips belonged to me. He belonged to me. He'd left me alone in the dark once, how could he be so heartless and do it again! I didn't care if he didn't know I was here, he just couldn't walk away from me like that. He just couldn't. I began to tear up, my hand covered my mouth as I looked away and closed my eyes. It hurt me to know that I was stuck in the middle, I loved Tate but then there was Violet who probably loved him too. I followed his trace down here, his dark pull only so he could leave me in the dark and walk away.
"Carolyn?" Violet said breaking me out of my dark thoughts. I wiped my eyes and came out from behind the wall.
"Oh hey Violet, sorry I went down here, I guess curiosity got the best of me." I said as walked up to her.
"No problem, did you look around?" She asked, it was too dark for her to notice that I had been crying, thankfully.
"Yeah I did b-" I stopped talking as soon as I noticed a book sitting on top of a few boxes. It was about birds, it was the book Jason was showing Tate the last night I had him with me.
"You okay?" She said, I couldn't look away but I managed to say:
"I'm good, do you mind if I take a look at that book over there?" I said as I walked towards it. It felt as though I was gliding over.
"Go for it, it's not ours, I guess it was just left down here with some other things. If you want you can keep it." Violet had no idea how much it meant to me to have this book. I had to be strong at least until I got back to Constance.
"You sure?" I said as I picked the book up and looked at her.
"Yeah it's no problem, wouldn't be doing us any harm." I smiled and took the book into my arms.
"Thanks so much." I replied.
"You a fan of birds?" She smiled back as we walked up the stairs.
"Yeah, a really big fan, I've always loved them." I lied about that too but what other choice did I have?
"That book's pretty big so you should know a lot about them by the time you finish." She said as we got to the top.
"Thanks again for the book, I guess I should get going before Constance really does flip out." I was a little nervous about what would happen once I got back but it didn't matter, this book had given me back my faith in finding Jason.
"Well then I guess I'll be seeing you around?" Violet said as her smiled drooped a bit.
"We'll be seeing a lot of each other Violet, don't worry about it." I smiled, Violet's face lightened up and she opened the door for me. We said out goodbyes and I walked out of the house with the book wrapped in my arms. I knocked on the door and there was Constance in her night gown, she seemed content to see me.
"Come in dear, tell me everything." She ushered me in and soon enough she had me sitting down with a cup of tea in front of me.
"How did it go? Did you find everything okay?" She was really eager to know. I would be too.
"For the most part it was good. I made friends with Violet, Vivienne seems to like me I think." I didn't want to think about my whole visit remembering what I had seen with Tate. It felt like an old scar being opened up.
"You say for the most part, what went wrong?" She looked at me like she actually cared.
"I saw Tate." I said as I sipped my tea, hopefully it would calm me down. The chances of that happening were very low.
"He didn't see you did he?" Her eyes grew wider.
"No he didn't , I saw him he didn't see me." I didn't want to continue but I knew Constance would make me say it one way or another. "He was in the basement, I could feel him, that's when Violet came downstairs. She spoke to him and told him to go upstairs, that they would talk later." I paused for a minute or two and continued.
"He kissed her forehead, just like he kissed mine." I let a tear fall, I knew Constance would see my weakness but it didn't matter to me.
"Carolyn don't worry about that." She took my hand into hers and continued: "In a few days he'll be kissing your forehead, just like before, give it some time. What have you got there?" She said as she noticed the book I had brought with me.
"Oh, well I found it in the basement, it's Jason's old book. Violet told me I could keep it." I said as I looked back up. My nose was red from what I could tell.
"He always did have quite a fascination with animals." She said smiling as she looked at the book.
"Constance?" I looked at her and continued: "Do you think, that the house has Jason? I know his body isn't there but could there be the chance that he is?"
"Carolyn, when you finally get the chance, ask Tate he'll know and he'll certainly tell you." Something about what she said gave me more hope, Constance wouldn't say something like that to anyone in a fragile state, unless she hated them with passion.
"I think I might go to bed, my eyes hurt from crying." I said as I stood up.
"Goodnight Carolyn, sleep well." Her hand waved at me and I walked up the stairs. I was eager to look inside the book. I felt like I had taken part of Jason with me. If I ever do find Jason I'll give him this again. I sat on my temporary bed reading each page. When I read the did you know facts on the edge of the page all I could hear was Jason's voice. It was like he was right next me me, but I knew he wasn't. One can dream though. I remembered when Jason first got it, I had given it to him on his birthday. I remembered how his face light up, his smile made me the most happy. To see his genuine happiness. I had probably stained every page in the book with my tears,but it didn't matter. I was hopeful that I could and will find him. Everything points to it. I wasn't going to be left in the dark again, if anything that was the last thing that would happen. No one, not even Tate, can hurt me enough to stop me from finding Jason. Even if Tate was my best friend, I was going to have to forget him for the sake of me, Jason and my sanity.
Hey guys, thanks for reading. My last exam is tomorrow then I'm home free! Keep my in your prayers I need them badly. I hope you like how the story is going, send me some ideas guys, you never know what can inspire a writer. (: I love you all, more chapters to come!
