It Doesnt Matter At First though
Disclaimer: Hunter x Hunter belongs to the great Yoshihiro Togashi-sensei
Note: English is not my native language.
Beta: not yet been beta read yet.
Summary: Prequel to W.I.S.C.? fic, Not recommended when you haven't read that one. But since this is the beginning of how did things happen to be like that. You can still relate here even without checking the first one. ^^
He just resigned being a bodyguard on Nostrads, but immediately got abducted by the Genei Ryodan Leader Kuroro Lucifer. This story revolves on how each of their feelings seems to change before Kurapika sank onto his insanity edge. A short KuroKura adventure.
~~Note: This contain a slice of ORANGE. On this fic only Kurapika and Kurapika with the spider member's would be the main unlike on W.I.S.C.? fic. You'll find out as you read, so I'm telling you - Start now!
BY THE WAY, dont expect much at this prequel, for first of all you all knooow how Kuroro and Kurapika would get close to each other so this might be a fast forward diary of those days...Nothing much to say since everyone in FF already making every different style for Kurapika and Kuroro to be friends and me i have no such idea how to do that...So dont expect much here ok? :)
Also, this story popped in my mind on May 23 2012, If ever someone around here has a fic which resembles mine, well, personally, I say I was first.
E-N-J-O-Y and Please Review! Don't Forget! :D
CHAPTER 5
Got to Admit
"Say Kurapika" Pyro said, his little blonde friend name Kurapika turned to face him on his left side.
"Yes?"
"When you hated someone, what would you do?"
"Of course! I'll kick his butt!" little Kurapika throws up his fist into a ball. His brown haired friend fall into a sigh and said, "Then what if the person you hated becomes good...What would you do?"
Kurapika started to scratch the back of his head, "ugh, Pyro what do you mean?" His friend Pyro smiled and throws one pebble onto the river that they are facing.
"Listen to me Kurapika. Lets say there's a person who did something pretty bad at you. Of course you hate that person..." Kurapika nodded in agreement.
"And then, of course you hate him so much you can't forgive him..." Another nod came from the blonde.
Pyro's little hands cupped a small pebble onto his right palm, "Meanwhile the person you hate can't say sorry...What would you do?"
"err, hate him or her for the rest of my life."
"Kurapika that is wrong. Hating someone until you die is very wrong..."
"Oh why?! The person can't even say sorry for his/her fault! Why should i forget and forgive?!" Grumpily Kurapika stomped with his both hands and feet. Pyro put a small smile.
"That is the point. Even the person says sorry or not, you can't easily forgive him or her arent you?"
"H-huh?"
"When a person can't say sorry, he or she would say sorry in a different way...Do you know how?"
"No...what?"
"That's easy, he or she would show you some kindness."
"What if that kindness was fake?"
"You would know it of course."
"But how?"
"That's simple, just listen to your heart and you'll surely know it."
Kurapika looked up onto the blue sky, the clouds where moving so endless and peacful. "It's not hard to forgive wasn't it?...Or maybe it was indeed hard...than to say thank you..."
Pyro chuckled and patted his shoulders, "It does and it doesn't...Trust takes time and so as Forgiveness, but hate...Won't last forever..."
The last word's seem to echo onto his own ears until opening his eyes from that dream.
He opened his eyes but been bind by the wide light, he saw a familliar figure sitting on the side of his bed. He hardly could glance its back, but the hair reminds him of a certain person.
Kurapika reached out on the shirt of the figure, and said with a dry throat, "Py..ro..?"
"Eh?" the voice of the figure broke out the bright light with a clear view. It was Shalnark sitting on his bed side, Kurapika's eyes were widen in realization that it wasn't a dream anymore. Its not Pyro who he always talk inside his dreams whenever he happens to think of him.
A long minutes paused him to act. Until Shalnark turn himself to face him completely, "Kurapika, are you already awake?"
"Ah-" Immediately removing his hands' from Shalnark's cloth and fixed himself to sit. Shalnark help him to sit.
"Wha...what happen?" Kurapika ask still feeling a headache.
Shalnark hummed wether to answr him or not, "Which would you want? The truth or the false?"
Kurapika used his death glare but no sign of scarlet nor real anger. "Of course the truth, do you really have to make a false choice? Answer me honestly i presume..." with that,The Sandy bright haired gulped then said,
"You got hit badly by the Hokken king's black crystal spear." Shock and can't believe, Kurapika faces says so..."I got what? But why did i got hit?"
Shalnark smirked, "You shielded Danchou. You save him from danger..."
"I did WHAT!?"
More shock, and so as Shalnark, "Ughh...You don't remember?"
There's was short silent from that point, what should the two say to eachother? There's nothing to talk. But then Kurapika found Shalnark looking at him with.
"W-what is it?"
"You see Kurapika, i honestly hate you."
Kurapika hurled himself to the corner of the bed after hearing those words, "You-!"
"But right now, am confuse if i hate you or not." Shalnark's eyes gazed on Kurapika's eyes. "For you save Danchou and yet you killed the person who raised me up..."
Unable to collect those statement, Kurapika didn't notice that he was moving himself near Shalnark, his own body tells him to listen carefully.
"I-I dont understand...What do you mean the person who raised you got killed by me?" Kurapika thought carefully, he didn't killed any innocent parent like people except for Ubogin and Pakunoda. He gap from the thought and said, "P-Pakunoda?!"
"No! not her lol!"
"Then who?" Shalnark nodded and directed his head to the ceiling.
"Uvogin." he said, and stayed to his current position. "He was the one who raised me."
Jaw drop and and stunned to hear that statement. Kurapika got surprised by himself, he can't say anything. Shalnark continued to speak.
"I was 6 years old when i got thrown in ryuuseiga's residence. I can't recall whom are my parents and who thrown me there..." a pause. "But then Uvogin came..."
Shalnark's flashback story
Uvogin was throwing some random stuffs that he was told you throw out. "Trash! Crash! Rust! Dust!" and he was singing out of tune. "la! la! la! la!" he stop from doing everything he was about to do when he heard some little whimpers out from the trashes.
"hm?" Uvogin didn't think much out of it, but he just got curious to follow the sound, there he found a little Kid with dirtied sandy bright blonde hair. It was little Shalnark.
Little Shalnark was crying but later fell in deep silent when he saw a big gorilla coming near, yes It was Uvogin coming closer towards him.
"Ahh!" got frighten little Shalnark run away as fast as he can, and he was surprisingly fast.
"Oi! Wait brat!" Uvogin chased. Uvogin would haven't been able to catch little Shalnark if Shalnark didn't trip from some trashes that was getting on his way.
After tripping, Uvogin's big shadow surfaced from Shalnark's view. With trembling eyes and body. "P-Please don't hurt me!" Covering himself with his both open arms he heard the big man laugh.
"hahaha!"
"h-huh?"
Shalnark peeked with his eyes onto the big man's figure. Uvogin smiled wide with his teeth after saying, "I like you kid would you come with me?!"
Uvogin held his hands for me, for me to hold, i'm still young and unable to think properly, but i do have a brain, its just my own body tells to accept those hands.
Shalnark grabbed Uvogin's hands.
"Hey everyone! Look what ive found!" Said Uvogin's voice outloud which it took all attention to his spider comrades. There was young Pakunoda, Franklin, Feitan,Machi and Lastly Nobunaga who was coming near towards Uvogin.
"Found what Uvo?" ask by Nobunaga, and later Machi spokes on background, "Let me guess, you found a living thing."
Uvogin laughs outloud even there's nothing to laugh about that statement and he revealed small Shalnark behind him, "Ive found a child!"
All was like been struck by a thunder.
"You brought a kid here?!" Nobunaga asked as if he was way doomed.
"Are you alright? you must have eaten some trash while you are throwing some..." Feitan teased.
"Uvogin would you please explain why did you brought that kid here?" Franklin was the last one to ask,
Uvogin ignored all the teasing and just smug a big grin, "Aint he so cute?!"
All was like 'ugghhh' faces, especially Machi, She said, "Alright he is so what now?"
"Uvogin, you can't possibly let that kid staying here, we are the Genei Ryodan, its our job to steal beautiful artifacts not to abduct some childrens." Pakunoda said,
"Hey! i didnt abduct him! Ive found him!" Uvogin protested.
"Ok, ok fine you found him, but that still doesnt change the fact that you've brought something that wasn't supposed to be here." Machi rolled her eyes.
Shalnark is still hiding behind Uvogin.
"Your dead towards Danchou..." Feitan commented at the back, Uvogin glared at him but he just let it pass when he heard the voice of their Danchou.
"What's the commotion here?"
All said, "Danchou!?"
Kuroro was still young and as ever so handsome. But his bangs are down with bandages.
"Uvogin, who is that child?" he ask pecularlly.
Being happy with the question Uvogin introduced Little Shalnark to them, "He is! Ugh well i still dont know his nam-"
"My name is Shalnark." little Shal answer for Uvogin instead.
Uvogin patted Shalnark's head and wanted to kiss him on his cheeks, "Danchou aint he so adorable?!"
All was like another 'ughhh' faces.
Kuroro still has his motionless face as ever said, "So why is he here?"
"Danchou! Don't you see and get it?! Let's make him a spider!"
"Ehh!?"
Kuroro blinked from that moment, "Pardon?"
Uvogin cheeringly repeated, "I said let's raise him like a spider! Since we lack some members!"
Kuroro thought off. Machi said, "Are you nutts? Spider's should have some unique abilitly. Not just mere weaklings..."
Nobunaga agreed with Uvogin, "Danchou! Let's give him a chance pleaseee!"
Kuroro stared both Uvogin and Nobunaga and later on to Shalnark. Shalnark look like he had a future, Kuroro grinned and said, "Sure he can."
Both Nobunaga and Uvogin jumped in joy. "Horaay!" the rest of spider's were on facepalm.
"But one condition." Kuroro added, "On the age of twelve, he should take a Hunter Exam, in order to test his abilitly."
Uvogin's head had a question mark. "Hunter Exam? what's that?"
Kuroro took a pick with his book that was been there on his hands since earlier. "I just saw it on a book, and it seems interesting. But since i can't go see it myself, i'll test that little kid of yours to know what it feels like."
"Ahh i see...Aint that great Shalnarkly?!" Uvogin said raising him up.
"E-eh!? S-shalnarkly?" Little Shalnark ask with slight scared face.
"From now own your mine!" Uvogin kissed him on the cheek and Little Shalnark felt gross but he later like it.
And so then, everything went smoothly. The rest of the story will be remained unknown.
Back to current timeline.
"I felt thankful for Uvogin, letting me be a spider, and learned how to fight. But you killed him, and it coudln't be helped. That's why i hate you...But...Now you save our Danchou, the one who approved me as his member, is legs...I don't know if i should hate you or..forgive you from what have you done to Uvogin after saving Danchou..."
Kurapika bowed his head, what's this? Does he suddenly felt sorry? Or was he feeling guilty? Why there is a sting on his heart and his hands were gripping tight to the bedsheet.
Shalnark sighed and smiled which was not expected from the atmosphere. "But, Like they say,Trust takes time and so as Forgiveness, but hate...Won't last forever..." there was a sudden trigger of Kurapika himself and Pyro. How come the words are same?
Kurapika's eyes were widen, 'those words...are...' He can recall it, he was sure to hear it somewhere before. 'This weird feeling...i...'Suddenly Kurapika's head stings him.
"ah!"
"Woah! What's wrong?"
"My head...it hurts..."
"I'll get Machi-" When Shalnark was about to stand, Kurapika pulled him to sit down, "Don't you dare."
Blinking his eyes in wonder, "But why?"
"This is nothing, i always experience this..." Still clutching his head.
"Ain't that bad then? If you always have a headache you need a doctor or a medicine."
"No i don't need any...its just..." Lingering his eyes down,Kurapika saw his own body exposed with some bandages over his stomach, " Kyahh!" he covered himself with the bedsheet, hitting Shalnark's chin to fall down the floor.
"Auch!" Shalnark rubbing his back, "What's with the sudden?" Kurapika was shakingly nervously, covering his whole body. "I was naked!?"
Shalnark then burst out laughing,"We didn't do anything WEIRD at you..." Kurapika glanced a glare to him with blushing cheek.
"Oh no, don't tell me your-"
"Am not."
"Fine,fine, ok just kiddin..." Shalnark stood up. "Relax Kurapika, No one did that to you except Machi, does that feel more better?" the guy still holding his poker face, and Kurapika felt more embarrass.
"Why are you getting shy when we are both males...lol"
"You don't get what i feel!" Kurapika's eyes turned sad, his hands softly gripped on the sheet that was covering him, "...you don't understand the feeling i have...always..."
The silence fell between the two.
Shalnark started to examine Kurapika's whole appearance and recalling his actions earlier. The question is why would Kurapika act that way when the big fact is they are both guys, they have same body parts...Plus being a guy seen been naked is supposed to be nothing, for men are born to be proud of their bodies, despite the nekkid point. What the point is, why do Kurapika act like a girl been seen naked by a guy and nervously shaking. Some perverted thoughts came through inside Shalnark mind but he later shake them off into a shrug.
And then Shalnark eyes landed on a bruise. Wait, Kurapika has a lot of them?! Shalnark gawked, the realization came, "Kurapika..don't tell me you always..."
Kurapika cut off immediately, "I hate this body. Nothing had really happen..but.." he muttered, "Because of this appearance of mine,humans would always attack me...in a way that was very disturbing. Especially mens are..."
If someone of you notice, Kurapika is so dead pretty, handsome and beautiful. Kurapika is so angelic figure that no one could resist, he even looks like a woman becuz of his stunning beauty. Right, becuz of this, it always causes Kurapika a lot of trouble. Like he would get harassed by someone wether man or woman, people just getting so indecent when they come near him. Kurapika fears someone to see him naked or things might get worst...
Kurapika could recall the times when he was 13 years old, the day he lost his home, his family, all alone on this dark world...How did he manage to survive? Shalnark doesn't need to ask for the reason was so obvious. it was already there, Maybe back on Kurapika's journey to get stronger and to reach the Hunter Exam, he must have some experience of getting attack by bunch of ugly maniac people.
It's not really that surprising for until now, Kurapika is always getting in those KIND of trouble. Those kind of pinch. That's why, Kurapika would put a wall, no one could go near to his private space.
Shalnark lifted up his hand to reach him out but then he fell it down. And trying to change the topic, "Saay...Kurapika are you hungry?"
Kurapika didn't answer. Shalnark sighed and thought, "Maybe Danchou is the only one who could make him talk and comfortable.."
Glancing to the kuruta.
"Yeah, plus they are already getting close than it wasn't supposed to be..."
Shalnark suddenly felt eyes on him, he look at the eyes and found Kurapika. "W-what is it?" he smiled nervously.
"..Where is..." a pause. "Where is Kuroro..?" Kurapika finally ask, and Shalnark smiled without the nervous expression.
"He is on another room, if you want i would call him for you..." Kurapika shook his head, then later nods. Shalnark then off his own, before he left the room he glance once more to Kurapika and said, "Thank you."
The door closed. Kurapika was stunned with the sudden 'thank you' of a spider. But he didn't gave much thought he was so tired to think, he was confused too. His body telling him to stop thinking, just rest. 'right i need a bit more rest.'
Before Lying down again, Kurapika gazed at the door. '...i forgot to say thank you back...' Kurapika drifted back to sleep.
Wait, did he just hear his own mind say that?
Closing the door, Shalnark gave out a huge sigh when a voice came called him, "Shalnark!"
"AHHH!" Both side scream in surprise. Holding his heart and screech towards Nobunaga and Phinx, "Are you trying to gave me some heart attack?!"
Phinx and Nobunaga said, "S-sorry." and that just shock Shalnark.
"oook...why are you two are being nice?"
"HEY WE ARE NICE YOU LITTLE-"
"Hold it Phinx! Danchou might hear us!" Halted by Nobunaga, Shalnark raised both of his hands in ok-ok-i-got-it.
"So, what do you guys want?" Phinx and Nobunaga stared at eachother faces becfore facing Shalnark, both of them said in time, "Is Kurapika awake?"
Shalnark blinked, and he wanted to do a poker face but then he receive some warning glares from both. He nodded and placed his index finger on his own lips with 'shhh' "Well he is awake but he needs more rest."
"Is he ok now?" Phinx asked. With a nod on Shalnark, he sighed in relief, next turn was Nobunaga's.
"How does he feel?"
Shalnark felt like hitting his head on the wall, "um, i guess he feels fine? Wait why are you guys asking?" the idea came on his mind, "ahh i see, you guys are worried towards the chai-"
"WOULD YOU SHUT UP?!"
"s-sorry."
Shalnark then move his way, "alright i need to go now~"
"W-where are you going?" Phinx said, and the sandy bright blonde replied, "To Danchou"
"Say what?!"
"Relax i'm not going to tell something ok!? Kurapika asked me to call him..."
unbelievable Phinx and Nobunaga's eyebrow frowned. "He ask that? For what reason?"
Shalnark shaked his head, "Who knows...Anyway, Danchou also told me that when Kurapika is awake i need to inform him~" Finally he left.
Both of the men sighed again in relief then eyed Kurapika's room.
"Nobunaga, are you sure we should go do this?" Phinx said placing his arms to Nobunaga's neck while whispering, Nobunaga nodded in hesitation with sweat drops.
"I-i don't know but i think-"
"What are you two doing here?" The pink haired stonic woman ask with crossed arms behind their back.
"M-Machi!? Since when you were-"
Shortly cut by Machi, "Didn't Danchou said until he hasn't talk to Kurapika, no one could go inside his room?" raising her eyebrows in suspicion. "Perhaps i hunch that you two are going to-"
"OH MY! FRANKLIN CALLED ME BYEE!" Immediately Phinx dashed away and left Nobunaga.
"Hey you-!" but seeing Machi still staring to him, he did the same excuse and runs off.
Machi sighed. "Geez...what a pain..."
Kurapika is now awake once again he had heal his wound by his Holy chain, but this time, he was staring to Kuroro. Standing infront of him in his danchou attire.
Before Kuroro could speak of anything Kurapika was the first one to spoke.
"Where are my clothes?!" Kurapika was asking in impatient. Kuroro deadpan replied, "They got destroyed back at the Incident."
"No!" Kurapika's voice hoarse, "Even if its been in pieces give it to me now!" he ordered the taller man.
"don't worry, i ask Machi to sew it back on its original form." another unexpected event!
"R-really?" with Kuroro's nod. Kurapika continued, "How did you know that i was-"
"Of course it is one of your last memory from your clan, that's why you would surely refuse to throw it away. So i just did what was for good."
Kurapika felt another sting on his heart, what is this? Is he suddenly feeling soft and forgetting the big darn fact that They are enemies, he sold him, but he later pick him up and now this.
Kurapika gripped on the sheet that was covering him. "Why...Tell me, why are you being kind towards me?!" He can't stop himself anymore, he wanted to know it right away. "I dont know what your planning next, but stop playing already and show me the truth!"
Kuroro knew that the boy would ask such thing, of course who would have not got confuse when you have an enemy then now he/she suddenly being kind. Of course if you were on Kurapika's position, you would also think the same. You would doubt it. You would surely thought that your enemy must planning something.
Kuroro didnt answer him right away, but after pulling the chair beside's the small table, and taking his gesture sit. Staring to Kurapika's eyes and Kurapika didn't fail to stare back at him, however with the 'glare'.
"Alright, let's make things clear. I don't feel sorry for selling you." Kurapika grit his teeth, I knew it!. But cut off shortly when Kuroro continued, "But i do feel bad when you save me."
Kurapika frozed, he remember what have he done back at the Hokken's kingdom. Now he wonder how they are able to escape. He wondered what happen to the Hokken estate. But right now that is not what he was supposed to be thinking.
Kuroro continued, "Why did you save me?" Kuroro actually got confused too, but either the boy would answer him or not, it doesnt change the fact that he felt uneasy eversince the incident.
Kurapika hesitated to answer and nearly said in a whisper, "i-i dont know..." he lick his lips to get wet , for it was been dry, he gulped for his throat is also dry as his lips. "Dont ask me!" he closed his eyes tight. He was so confuse, why the hell did he do such a thing? He should have let Kuroro get stab and just die for good. But he didn't.
He feared to Loose it, He feared for Kuroro getting stab.
both got silent, and finally Kuroro said, "Let's make a deal."
Kurapika raised his head once again to face him, "A deal?" Kuroro nodded, "Its a deal that let's just say for the best."
The information about the deal is on 'What If Something Changes' fic, so am not going to include it here, if you notice all are in random places but one conclusion XP tehe
after their talk about the deal. It confused Kurapika more, more than anything..Especially he was afraid, wait... Afraid of what?
Until Kurapika notice the window on his side, he saw clouds moving. "Um, where are we?" Kurapika just now notice, he just now able to notice that he still didnt know where he is.
"We are on an airship balloon...Shalnark rented it." Kuroro said while reading his book.
"why? Where are we going?"
"We are going to Ryuuseiga." As ever Kuroro said with not much being bothered by it.
"Ryuuseiga!?"
"That's where we are going to start about our Deal." Kuroro smug a grin.
TO BE CONTINUED
About Shalnark's past, of course its just invented 8D remember this fic doesnt really follow much to the anime and manga itself~ that's why it is called a FANFIC XD ok?
Anyway , out of characters? well just ignored, its just a fanfic ok, but i hope it makes sense of why both sides are starting to feel of 'loosing' the sensation of hatred, like got to admit that they are no more with that passion. they are going to the state of forgiving and forgetting, however for Kurapika's side, it would became worst after having nightmares eversince he was starting to feel the word 'forgiveness' which really ish confusing him~ X3 ok lets stop the chitchat desuwa! 8D how its' not that boring chapie...^w^ and i hope that its not a confusing story :V
Review if you have something to say... :3
