Noah.

Ho. Ly. Shit. Did that really just happen? This is a new development...it requires careful consideration and I KISSED A BOY. WHAT. I calmed myself with a few deep breathes after carefully locking my house's front door behind me. My heart was beating faster than that time I ran a mile in gym class. Almost as if it was gonna give out at any second. The only difference this time being that it kind of felt nice, if not a little irksome. "Who should I even bother to tell about this?" Family? Out. "Who else do I have...? I have Cody. But he's the subject. That wouldn't work out. Turning to Cody is what got me here."

Oh. I was doing the talking out loud thing, again.

It really isn't helping the situation that that was my first ever. More likely than not, his, too. I probably should have thought that through. Even though it was him who did the 'leaning' part. Though, I guess kissing is a lot less 'thinking' and a lot more 'hormones'. But that one didn't feel hormonally driven. More like...something else.

Not important. Need to vent these um, 'feelings' or whatever out. I went straight to my room and grabbed a worn notebook from under my bed. Only place to hide a journal where one of my asshole siblings won't dare reach. Apollo had a habit of hiding under it and biting people's hands. Just between you and I, I trained him to do that. Well, had trained him...he's gone now. I'd nearly forgotten...that goes in the journal, too.

I felt around around for the pencil that I had under there, too. It gave me a calm feeling as I wrote, so I reserved it for journal writing time only. The notebook had been covered in golden dog hairs. It really had been quite a while since something happened in my life that was writing-worthy. Two in one day, too.

So today, Apollo's life came to an end. I didn't know what to do, or even what I was supposed to. I just kinda hugged him and cried. But the realization that I was hugging nothing but a dead body came all too quickly and I remember very distinctly dropping his lifeless body and telling my mother to take care of it with so much spite. I'm really regretting that, now. I guess I was just mad that he left me that quickly. Times like these I wish I believed in a higher power so I could at the very least have the comfort of saying "Well, he's in a better place, now." But I know better than that. He's decomposing in my backyard right now. That's worse, at best. But at the very least, he didn't look in pain, and I couldn't have hoped for a better end for him.

My coping methods had failed me, though. So I brought Cody into it...I texted him, telling him to go to the park for me. I went there myself. I just really needed a shoulder to cry on. Quite literally. I was already crying pretty badly so I needed to lay down by the time I got there, and the bench looked comfier than the ground. I think I even managed to fall asleep by the time he finally got his ass over there. When I realized he was there, I couldn't help but throw my arms around him. It was really unlike me, but I had really needed him and it was such a relief that he was there. He put his hand on my back and the tears came again. I was genuinely unable to stop crying. He pulled me off his shoulder and tried to make me look at his eyes. I was probably blushing, and I couldn't do it. He sighed heavily, and wiped my tears off on his finger like I was the heroine of a shoujo manga or some shit, I couldn't help but look at him...

But then he leaned in and kissed me. That moment was absolutely unforgettable. It felt so right and like it needed to happen, even though I was well aware that he definitely did it as a spur of the moment kind of thing. It was amazing, to say the least. Everything positive that I had never imagined my first kiss being.

I looked at the couple pages I had just written. Wow, I wouldn't be surprised if future generations found this and thought a fucking fourteen-year-old girl wrote it. But I didn't mind. I smiled, I had something to add.

It was something I needed, and didn't realize I wanted until it happened.

"Well, that's enough writing for today." I closed it, and shoved it back under my bed. Writing always did help me sort out my feelings.

I woke up with one serious case of the sniffles. That usually happens after a long night of crying, I think. I wouldn't really know, since it was something I never really did often.

I checked my phone like every morning, just in case I missed a couple texts. Which I did, apparently. Cody?

Hey dude. Remember we're supposed to hang today? You never said otherwise so I'm coming anyways!

God dammit Cody. It was probably too late to tell him I wasn't feeling up to it.

Oh my god we kissed last night.

I wasn't sure if I was ready to talk about that, either. It was time for a shower, though. Since I had forgotten to take one last night. I was too busy freaking out.

By the time I had finally gotten out, the doorbell was ringing. Great, now he gets to make fun of my wet hair, too. I hate waking up late.

"Hey, Codester." I rolled my eyes as I opened the door. He looked really excited to see me. I made sure we were in my room before he could say anything.

"Hey, Noah! I know it's kinda soon-ish, but I wanted to talk about last night, like right now." Impatience was always his style.

I felt my face get hot. So soon? "Uh, what about it? The uh..."

"Yeah, the kiss!" He was so chipper today it almost turned my stomach.

"Yeah, what about it?" I tried hard not to sound too interested in the conversation. That's something I'm good at.

He laughed, "Well, call me crazy, but I'd say you liked it."

I chuckled, "Haha, well, looks like my boyfriend's crazy, then."

Oh no. I said that out it wasn't even a good idea on my part. I didn't mean to say that. It slipped. He looked at me with his eyes all big, "...what did you just call me?"


Hey, guys. This one was actually longer than any other chapter! Sorry this took so long. I procrastinated...badly. But at least I gave you a one shot! Hopefully at least some of you read it. I was really proud of it. But here, as promised, is your Noah chapter! It was pretty hard to write, but I like how it turned out, and I sincerely hope you guys enjoyed it. The next chapter will be out sooner than this one was. And again, I'm really sorry for the wait. Thanks for sticking with me, you guys. Review, please. Each one means a lot to me.