It took some time before we reached the park. The grass was a vibrant green, littered with twigs. But it didn't take long before Felix found a victim. ''Pewds, it's just a tree. Don't abuse the poor defense-less nature,''I told him. He just looked at me, then pretended to punch and kick the tree.
''Defense-less? It owes me for sending that stupid bee at me when I was a kid,'' He explained. I just shook my head. ''Maybe it was trying to protect itself from your abuse.''
''Whatever, Cry. Don't worry about it.''He responded. I chuckled. It took a while, but he managed to grab onto a branch and hang on. He curled into himself, then launched at the next branch, successfully hooking his legs around it. It was kinda cute, seeing Pewds all bright-eyed and energetic. But I would never tell him that...He extended a hand to me, as if in invitation...Nope.
''Cry, come on! I need to teach you the Pewdie-way so you can-''
''Break a leg? Sorry friend, but I trust the ground better than I trust you,'' I chuckled. His face fell for a minute, and then I was going to apologize, but I was surprised by the grabbing of my arm.
''Hey! Let me go!''I yelled. No matter how much I struggled, his firm grip on my wrist never lessened. It didn't hurt, but I knew what he wanted me to do. Does anyone know how long it's been since I climbed a tree before? Ever since-
''Just put your leg on the tree, and I'll yank you up. One-
''Pewds don't do it-''
''Two-''
''I'M WARNING YOU-
''Three!''
In order to not fall on the ground, I did what he said. I felt a feeling of airiness and then I was seated right beside him. My hand was still in his, and it gave relief to the cold temperature they were always in. As if he just realized it, Felix pulled his hand away from mine. Even though I was a little hurt by the gesture, I didn't show it. I understood.
''Why did I need to be up here in the first place?'' I asked. He just laughed then looked at me. His blue eyes were so deep, I struggled not to get lost in the depth. His laugh was almost like music to my ears. Suddenly, I felt a warm feeling crawl up my face. I turned away, trying desperately to scoot away from him. He couldn't see that I was blushing anyways, but still. If he knew it, I would die.
For some odd reason, I was content with Felix to stay on that tree. Every once in a while the wind would threaten to carry me away, but Felix was like a balance. It was silent; hardly any conversation was said. It wasn't needed. Sometimes my eyes would sneak secret glances at him. His hair shine despite the shadow of the leaves, and little pieces of bark stuck to his shirt. I really don't know how long we stayed there, side by side, staring off into space.''Cry?''
''Umm, yeah?'' I asked, looking at Felix, hoping for no visible trace of the nervousness I felt. This time, he was the one to look away.
''I got a question...about your mask.''
''Wha-What?'' I stuttered. Well, this was to be expected, considering he doesn't really know my past, but still...I can't tell him. He can't know.
''I'm want to know about your mask. Why do you wear it? Doesn't it ever get on your nerves or something?'' He curiously asked. I saw his hand creep up, and I got the blinding fear that he would take my mask away. It was a part of me, I had it for a long time. A long time...And I certainly don't want to be reminded of that time. His eyes seemed to search for something. I didn't like it.
''Ha ha ha, Pewds, umm, it's no big deal...I just wear it. That's the way it is.''I said. I was hoping to convince him it was nothing important, but... I'm a horrible liar. Felix seemed to scoot away, but I guess it was to get more comfortable. But for some reason, I almost felt...sad. He was persistent in his question.
''We've been best friends over the Internet, and I wanted to come here and know more about you. You don't show your face on Youtube, and I respect that. But not showing your face around friends?'' I helplessly fell into defense mode.
''It was your choice to come to America, to see me. But why do you want to see my face so much anyways?!'' I yelled. The leaves on the tree were shaking, and I was too. Surprised at my sudden angry outburst, he just scooted closer while I scooted away. It got to the point where I couldn't move anymore; if I did, I would just lose my balance and fall off the tree. My rage evaporated as fast as it came, and I fell prey to an old fear of mine.
''Do-Don't touch m-m-my mask,''I pleaded. It sounded pathetic, like a whimper. All of a sudden, he froze. Slowly, he put one finger on my mask. I flinched, trying to prepare for anything, so-
''Fine. I'm sorry, I didn't mean for you to get upset...I guess I'm a little nosy,''He sheepishly admitted. The touch of his hand disappeared. I had to admit though, my head wasn't clear either. This was supposed to be a good trip to the park, right? So why did I have to ruin it? I looked down, and as an old habit of mine, I flexed my wrists. Maybe I should have remembered that was the only thing keeping me to the tree...All I felt was the feeling of falling, and then a harsh pain on my back. I heard a loud 'thud', and Felix calling my name. For a bit, dizziness filled my head. It was a horrible feeling, like I wasn't in control. Twigs tried to pierce my hands, and some stabbed through my shirt. It didn't hurt, but it wasn't comfortable either. I felt pressure on my hand, and I suddenly remembered where I was, who I was with. My ears registered a voice next to me.
''Shit! Cry?! Are you okay? Can you hear me? Talk to me Cry,''He pleaded. I felt my lips move, but my eyes still wouldn't open.
''I'm fine, Pewds. It was just a little fall. I won't die, Friend,''I reassured him. Why was he so concerned? I fell off a tree, it was all my fault.
''Okay. But if you want to kick me out...''He jokingly trailed off. I would've laughed too, but it was serious to me. This might be the best week of my life, I'm not going to trade for anything else.
''How about we take a break?''I suggested.
''Or we could go back to your house, treat that bruise, play video games, let me make dinner, and call it a day? Tomorrow we can go meet everyone you know, just let me make up for this guilt I feel,''He said. I really, really wanted him to meet The Crew today, but the bruise on my arm was just starting to kill me.
''Okay.''
We walked back to the house. It was barely twelve o'clock in the evening, and I find a way to get hurt. Wow. And true to his word, Felix did try to make it up. Of course I tried to reassure him; It wasn't hurting as bad, and I didn't break anything. But he still insisted. I wasn't mad, I was just a little annoyed. It. Was. Just. A. Fucking. Fall. It's not like he killed me or whatever. All of it was my fault; I got prickly when he was just getting curious. We played some Amnesia, I was controlling where we looked and Pewds was controlling the moves. It was fun. We stopped for a while, and I came up with this awesome idea to watch a horror movie. I don't know whether he was that guilty or not, but he agreed. I just plopped a random movie from my stack of DVDs since all the movies I have are scary one way or another. We sat straight, side by side, on the couch. The silence was interrupted while the movie was loading.
''Cry, I'm hungry.''
''Me too.''
''Cry?''
''Hmm?''
''I'm sorry about the mask thing.''
''It's okay friend.''
He sighed and leaded back, causing me to involuntarily be scooted away. It jabbed at me-the word friend, yet I call him that almost all the time. But that's all I'll ever be...there was no denying that I was truly, officially, and permanently, stuck in the friendzone.
A.N:
Hello! Sooorry about the late update; exams are killing me. Stress, school, la de da excuses. I'm sorry if this seems rushed, but I did promise there would be an update at least once every two weeks, and it seems I reached my limit...Thank you for reading and please review if you liked. I apologize for any spelling mistakes/errors. Bye~ :)
