Forbidden Beauty

Important!: Please people give me outfit ideas for Kagome! Nothing pink, frilly or girly!

Me: Welcome back everyone! This is chapter two yay I can't believe I got first chapter done and posted!

Kuroreivun:*flies in* Yo DemonicKitty! I got what ya asked for.

Me: You did? Yay I love you Kuroreivun!*Takes the satchel kuro hands me*

Kuroreivun: Yay I'm loved hahaha. Well do ya need anything else?

Me: Nah Thanks again. Kagome! The package is here.

Kagome: Really? Yay I've been need that stuff for a while.

Me: Yup here you go.

*Bankotsu and Jakotsu walk in*

Jakotsu: Hey Demonic! How's my favorite neko?

Me: Hey Jakotsu and I'm good just finished posting my first chappy of Forbidden beauty. You?

Jakotsu: Oh I'm good just been torturing Inu.

Kagome: I thought you hated women Jakotsu.

Jakotsu: I have to admit you and DemonicKitty are the exceptions to that rule cause you aren't like most women.

Kagome: Oh well thanks I guess.

Jakotsu: Your welcome hun.

Me: Ok Keiko if you would please?

Keiko: K DemonicKitty doesn't own the animes or it's characters in any way if she did everyone knows it would be rated r. All she owns is this laptop, her apartment, and her cat as well as $50 as well as her own characters like Silver, Echo, Shadow, and Raicho.

Me: HEY! Don't tell them that!

-Kagome's thoughts-

|Inner beasts or blood beasts|

Genkai's thoughts

^Hiei's thoughts^

/Youko's thoughts/

:Kurama's thoughts:

[Shizuru's thoughts]

\Sango's thoughts\

{Shippou's thoughts}

$Raicho's Thoughts$

+Midoriko's thoughts/Talking to Kagome+

Telepathic talking

/Song lyrics if I use any/

"Singing if anyone does"

-Flashbacks-

(Very briefly)

#Naraku's thoughts#

Chapter 2: A Bit of the Past of Kagome Higurashi and the Darkness Within Her


Everyone had rushed outside to see where the scream came from. They watched as a little girl in an orange checkered kimono with a little pony tail on the side of her head came out of the woods being chased by a group of ogres. Kagome swiftly got her bow and arrows and shot a few of the youkai. Hiei was hacking up the rest while Kurama's plants were eating the ogres. After they were finished killing the youkai Kagome rushed over to the wounded girl. "Are you alight? Here let me heal you." Kagome said and used her miko powers to heal the poor child.

"Thank you pretty lady!" the child said and smiled at Kagome.

"What is your name?" Kagome asked.

"Rin's name is Rin. What's your name pretty lady?" Rin asked.

"My name's Kagome. Where did you come from?" She answered.

"Oh Rin came from Rin's camp with Jaken and Sesshoumaru-sama. But Rin got separated from Jaken while Sesshoumaru-sama was away and now Rin... Rin is alone." Rin answered and started crying. Kagome hugged her telling her it was gonna be ok and that they would keep her company.

"Ne Rin why don't you travel with us while you wait for Sesshoumaru?" Kagome offered Rin.

"Sure Kagome-onee-chan!" Rin said. Rin had taken to calling Kagome that after Kagome helped her and comforted her. The rest of the group was a little well peeved that a human child was going to join them as Hiei saw it she was just another worthless thing to protect which is what he said and got slapped for it by Kagome.

"Jerk! Don't ever say that again about a child! Hmph come on Rin let's go take a bath before leaving." Kagome said angrily. Hiei was shocked that she had the guts to do what she just did. Then Hiei got really angry and everyone started praying for Kagome's safety.

Kagome swore she heard people praying for her but brushed it off and got into the hot soothing water with Rin. "Ok Rin dunk under water so I can wash your hair when you come up." Kagome said grabbing her bottle of shampoo as Rin did what she said.

"Kagome-onee-chan what is that?" Rin asked

"It's from my village. It's called shampoo." Kagome answered, "Alright Rin turn around so I can wash your hair." Rin did what she asked and sighed in pleasure as Kagome started to massage the shampoo in Rin's hair. Kagome giggled at Rin who actually started to purr. Rin was in heaven and didn't want Kagome to stop but all too soon Kagome did, "Alright Rin wash it out after that I'll put in conditioner." Kagome said and again Rin did what she was told. After Kagome put in the conditioner she started to work on her own hair and after she was finished she sat down with a sigh.

"Kagome-onee-chan are you alright?" Rin asked after she saw a sad expression cross Kagome's face.

"No Rin but it's fine you don't need to know." Kagome answered truthfully because she couldn't lie to Rin for some odd reason.

"No Kagome-onee-chan please tell Rin what's wrong." Rin pleaded with a concerned look on her face.

Kagome sighed as she saw Rin's face, "Alright Rin you win. I've just recently found out I'm a demon and one that is not suppose to exist at that at least that what people keep on telling me. My friends Inuyasha and Miroku betrayed me and tried to kill me. Now they're working with Naraku and I've had to get a new pack. Now I want to talk to Sesshoumaru and ask him to join my pack. Hopefully he won't try to kill me like those two did." Kagome said.

"Don't worry Kagome-onee-chan! Rin will make sure Sesshoumaru-sama doesn't try to kill you." Rin said and smiled at Kagome.

"Thanks Rin come on we better get out and start moving." Kagome said and they got out of the water and headed back to Kaede's hut only to be stopped by Hiei half-way there. Kagome told Rin to head back ahead of and that she'd be there in a minute. Rin nodded and left. "Alright Hiei what do you want?" Kagome asked only to find herself banged into a tree with an audible CRACK and Hiei's hand was around her throat cutting off half of her air supply, -Ow that's gonna leave a mark. Hiei must be pissed about my slapping him or something.- Kagome thought sarcastically, wincing and breathing hard.

Hiei's beast actually escaped it's cage and before Hiei saw dark he thought, ^shit my... beast... escaped.^ Kagome gulped as Hiei's eyes suddenly were a flame red and had golden rings around the pupil, -Oh fuck all kinds of duck! I'm really screwed now. Dear kami what did I do to deserve this- Kagome thought mentally crying as she stared at Hiei who was glaring very evilly at her right now.

"Onna what gave you the idea to slap us!" Hiei's beast growled. Kagome started sobbing in her head. "Answer us!" it demanded.

"Um well..." Kagome said not really knowing what to say. Midoriko was actually finding this to be quite funny so she didn't really help Kagome at all just opted to be silently amused. -Gods what do I say damn it again Fuck all kinds of duck!- Kagome thought while Hiei banged her roughly against the tree again, "Um Well I kind of acted without think. I um was angry at that time." Kagome said kind of fearful of what he was going to do. Hiei's fire beast smelt her fear, |well this won't do at all. I don't want her to be fearful of us.| It thought and came up with a plan. Kagome saw a mischievous gleam in the beast's fire red eye and didn't really like it, -Oh what the hell have I gotten myself into. Stupid Kagome why'd you have to act without thinking!- Kagome thought scolding herself much to Midoriko's amusement. Suddenly Kagome felt Hiei's lips on hers and her eyes went wide.

(A/n: I just had to add a little fluffiness. Hahaha... Sorry fur da oocness:Out of Characterness =T.T= dun't hate me plz. I'llz try to clean meself up and do betters) Kagome stared into the red eyes then closed her eyes and started responding to the kiss. Hiei was fighting to get control before his hi beast did something more then what it was doing now. Kagome was started to get very aroused which in turn made Hiei's beast get excited and start doing more like roaming hands on Kagome's body. Kagome had her hands clenched in Hiei's gravity-defying hair. Kagome gave a moan as one of Hiei's hands stroked her thigh. Then all to soon it ended when Hiei finally got control and left Kagome standing there.

-Wha-? Oh he left... What is wrong with me that every male leaves me left out in the cold. It's a miracle I'm still kind.- Kagome thought sadly as she headed back to the hut. +Oh Kagome don't think like. You are actually very desirable.+ Midoriko said any trace of amusement from earlier gone as she tried to cheer the depressed miko up. -It's fine Midoriko. I'm used to it after all Inuyasha left me for a dead person. I guess I'll probably be forever alone cursed to guard the jewel till the end of time.- Kagome told Midoriko then shut her out. Before Kagome went in she put on her happy persona so no one would ever know how hurt she is, how much pain she is in or how sad she is. This time no one could see through it well maybe Kaede but she knew better then to ask Kagome what is wrong in front of everyone. She would wait until they were alone which is probably not going to be for a long time see as they were leaving now. "Bye Kaede-Obaa-chan! We'll probably see you in a few months." Kagome said cheerfully, waving bye to Kaede and leading her new pack in the direction of the western lands.

It was around 2pm when they stopped for lunch because Yusuke had been complaining since they left which was 4 hours ago so Kagome decided to make him suffer until that is Shippou said he was hungry and gave her his best puppy eyes look. Kagome was teaching Rin how to cook and they were sitting by the fire, "Alright Rin this is how you cook meat and boil water." Kagome said to Rin who was very interested in the teachings Kagome was giving. This is the scene that greeted Sesshoumaru as he followed Rin's scent to the camp sight, "Miko, why do you have Rin?" He asked shocking Kagome who hadn't noticed him. No one knew it, except for Kagome, but Sesshoumaru would only speak to Kagome respectfully because he felt like she was his sister or pack with what happen a year or so ago.

"Oh hello Sesshoumaru-sama! Kagome-onee-chan was teaching Rin to cook!" Rin said running up to Sesshoumaru and hugging his leg.

"Hello Sesshoumaru-sama. I was just watching over Rin for you aniki since the stupid toad can't do it." Kagome said shocking Sango by calling him aniki.

"I see. Why are you a demon Kagome, you're a forbidden one at that." Sesshoumaru asked very curious.

"Oh it turns out I'm from a place called Makai in my time and my human adoptive mother found me the day I was cast out of my home." Kagome answered now knowing Sesshoumaru wouldn't attack her.

"Well that's surprising imouto. Do you have control of your powers and do you have weapon training?" He asked.

"Well I can control my miko powers but I have to find someone to train me in my fire and ice abilities. I do have weapon training both Midoriko and Genkai made sure of that." Kagome answered. (A/N Kind of obvious who will train her in her ice and fire powers hehehe )

"Oh and what weapons?" He asked. Sango and Shippou were very confused and they were asking themselves why is Sesshoumaru calling her his sister and why is Kagome calling him brother.

"Why aren't you a very curious inu today. Let's see I can wield scythes with very deadly accuracy which is kinda scary, I'm great with a katana. Of course my long bow and arrows much better then before. I can use daggers and I'm great with a Bo staff. Great with claws like Suikotsu's. Midoriko taught me about poisons so I'm good with poison. Oh yes and I'm good with a sword that's like Jakotsu's. Great with an ax and throwing weapons. I'm also good with custom weapons. In fact after I was going to ask you to join I was going to see Totousai. So will you join?" Kagome asked.

"Yes but I have to ask where is the half-breed?" Sesshoumaru said then almost corrected himself before Kagome interrupted, "Oh Inutrasha... he's with Naraku... they're trying to kill me... and get the jewel... and probably trying to bring Kikyo back to life... by stealing my soul... probably with Kanna... sometime in the future... even though I killed Kikyo... again." Kagome said with pauses in between what was said and kind of nodding her head.

"I see so then you're the leader of your pack then," Sesshoumaru stated more then asked but Kagome nodded anyway.

"Um excuse me Kagome-chan but why are you calling Sesshoumaru your brother, I'm just wondering." Sango asked.

"Oh well I guess a while back I traveled with his group for a few weeks and we... bonded I guess you could say though it didn't look like bonding, him threatening me and me talking back but yeah. Rin wasn't there from some odd reason at the time." Kagome answered making Sesshoumaru glare at her, "Anyways Let's get going to see Totousai." Everyone then packed up and were walking along with the occasional yelling from Yusuke and Kuwabara when a very deadly poisonous snake youkai was right in front of them trying to get some jewel shards from a youkai child who had them. The child was hiding under some roots of a tree where they guessed she lived.

"Hey scaly! Yes you ugly!" Kagome said taunting the snake.

"Why you bitch!" Snakey said totally distracted from what it was doing.

"Who me? Last I checked I wasn't a female dog. I thought I was a fire demon." Kagome said playing with snakey and looked like she was thinking. (A/N: Awesome name ne? XD Couldn't think of a name so I'm just referring to it as SNAKEY! Yayz.)

The snake was getting pissed, "I'll kill you!" Snakey yelled at her well more like hissed.

Kagome was strangely feeling a little playful, "Kill me? Like you could." Kagome said with a snort making the demon even more angry if that was possible. Kagome dodged snakey's acid spitball, "Ew really? You have to spit at me wow." She said. The others were watching amused at her actions. Kagome decided to see if snakey would burn, "Hey snakey I wonder if you burn." Kagome said and concentrated. Suddenly the snake burst into flames and was screaming it's head off before it turned to ash leaving 2 jewel shards on top of the pile. "Well that was fun." Kagome said and walked over to the tree with her neko Echo following, "Hey there the big bad snake is gone now. Why don't you come out and introduce yourself?" Everyone heard the child giggle before coming out of her hiding place.

"Hello I'm Raicho Asu-ko. Thank you for saving me from that snake." Raicho said, her beautiful wings flexing nervously. Raicho had blue hair and purplish black wings that had white at the bottom and she had a fighting kimono on. Her kimono was a dark hue of gold and it had a dark green obi. It also had blue sakura petals on the kimono while the obi had blue roses on it. She also had startling sea green eyes that were cat-like. She was tan from being in the sun. She also was 4ft 3 inches and her claws were a mud brown with lightning going across them.

"My name is Kagome it's very nice to meet you Raicho. What kind of demon are you?" Kagome asked after introducing herself.

"Ano promise you won't hurt me?" Raicho said suddenly very nervous.

"I promise now please tell me Raicho." Kagome promised.

"I'm a lighting and earth hawk youkai. Please don't hurt me!" Raicho said very scared that Kagome would hurt her.

"Oh Raicho I promised I wouldn't hurt you and I'll tell you something. I'm a fire ice miko demon." Kagome said shocking Raicho. Raicho hugged Kagome and thanked her again. "Now why do you have 5 jewel shards?" Kagome asked after she introduced everyone to Raicho.

"Well I found these pretty shards one day and decided to keep them. Why?" Raicho answered.

"Well I'm the jewel's guardian and so I'm trying to get all the shards back." Kagome answered her.

"Oh then here you can have them back." Raicho said and Kagome was shocked they were still pure and not the evil purple that they usually are in anyone's hands except for mikos...good mikos.

"Well thanks Raicho. Would you like to come with us?" Kagome asked and Yusuke nearly yelled before he was hit in the head with Botan's oar successfully knocking him out.

"I would love too! I mean if you're ok with it." Raicho said doing what Hinata from Naruto does meaning she was blushing and putting her pointer fingers together. (A/n: Yes I dared to mention other animes on this mwahahahahaha! XD Jk oh and Raicho means lightning bird and Asu-ko means Child of the Earth. Hehe doesn't really sound like a girls name does it? Oh well on wit da bloody fic)

"Of course it's ok with me. Now come I want you to meet my kit Shippou and my nekos." Kagome said and called Shippou over as well as her nekos. "Ok Shippou I want to to meet Raicho."

"Hello Raicho I'm Shippou! I like your wings they're very pretty." Shippou said with a bright smile on his face.

"Ano thank you Shippou." Raicho said. Kagome's neko Shadow came up to Raicho purring and rubbing herself against Raicho's legs making her giggle. "Who's this Kagome-chan?" Raicho asked picking Shadow up and holding her to her chest.

"That's Shadow whose a rare nine-tailed shadow neko. This is Echo a rare nine-tailed heaven neko and that's Silver a three-tailed fire neko." Kagome said pointing to Silver and Echo as she said their names.

"Oh they are so cute! I like them Kagome-chan where did you find them?" Raicho asked petting Shadow who was purring.

"Well I found Echo and Silver trying to fight off some demon while badly injured and I helped them out. Shadow was given to me by someone who left Shadow in a box at my door almost a year ago. They've been with me ever since." Kagome said and then got up, "Why don't you play with them and Shippou for a bit I've got to make dinner seeing how it's almost dusk."

"Alright 'Gome-chan! Come on I know a great place to play." Raicho said and ran off with the nekos and Shippou.

"Shouldn't you stop them from running off?" Yusuke said having finally woken up.

"Nah my nekos will protect them if there's any trouble and if they can't handle it they'll get me." Kagome said as she lit the fire and took out some steak and started to cook some vegetables.

"Ooo that smells good what are you making?" Sango and Botan said at the same time.

"Oh since Inutrasha isn't here anymore I've decided to start cooking real food. What I'm cooking is steak with some potatoes and corn." Kagome said making everyone almost drool. After some time had past Kagome suddenly said, "Shadow bring the children it's almost time for dinner." Everyone nearly jumped out of their skins when Shadow appeared in her lager form with the children on her back from the shadows and the other two nekos came flying back to the camp a moment later.

"Okaa-san! Dinner almost ready?" Shippou asked running right up to her while Raicho stood a little ways away kind of envying Shippou.

"Yes and did you have fun with Raicho?" Kagome asked.

"Yup it was very fun you have to come next time the place she brought us to was awesome!" Shippou said excitedly.

"Where did you guys go anyway Raicho?" Kagome asked looking at Raicho.

"I'll bring you to see it in the morning if you want. It's a place I found that hasn't been touched by anything for years till I stumbled upon the place." Raicho said with a little blush. Kagome suddenly hugged her.

"Aw I'd love to see it! I've always loved places that weren't destroyed by humans or demons." Kagome said letting her go from the hug. "Sango-chan I'm going to go to the hot springs that nearby would you like to come?"

"Nah Kagome-chan I'm fine you go ahead." Sango said finishing up her dinner as Kagome left then she was being bombarded with questions, "Whoa whoa one question at a time!"

"How did Kagome find a way back to the group?' Kurama asked his Kitsune curiosity coming to the surface.

"I don't know she hasn't even told me anything. I've tried to get her to tell me but she just shuts me out and doesn't tell me anything just walks off to do something." Sango answered sadly.

"So even you don't know what happened to her slayer." Sesshoumaru stated.

"I have a question for you Sesshoumaru. How did Kagome come to travel with you?" Sango asked her curiosity suddenly burning.

"Simple. I discovered her in a deadly fight with some powerful youkai. She was doing well considering she was untrained." Sesshoumaru answered.

-Flashback: Sesshoumaru heard the sounds of battle and was about to just leave when he heard a familiar female voice shout, "Shut up ugly and just go away!" This intrigued him. So he followed the smell of blood and the sounds of battle only to see Kagome in a very deadly fight against three powerful demons. One was a male panther youkai with dark purple hair, ears, and tail. He also had turquoise eyes. He was dressed in all black only his sash was a different color, it was gold. Another demon was a actually not a demon at all instead it was a Ahuizotl. (A/N: Info here www. mythcreatures. and pic here www. /imgres?start=23&num=10&hl=en&gbv=2&biw= 1366&bih=643&tbm=isch&tbnid=e6HZ7X5FcLStvM:&imgrefurl= art/Ahuizotl-56265532&docid=nZnc4WwYqgKGYM&imgurl=http: fs18/f/2007/147/8/3/Ahuizotl_by_Kitsune_aka_ &w=677&h=500&ei=CD1pT_SjH-Th0QGL0pT5CA&zoom=1&iact=rc&dur =621&sig=116081526288585497401&page =2&tbnh=143&tbnw=193&ndsp=28&ved=1t:429,r:7,s:23&tx=80&ty=93 without spaces of course oh and there are a ton of other pics just search on Google images.) A very gruesome creature it was. The last one was a Haunt, a dog like creature that was in human form right now. (A/n: Info of the Haunt creatures. co .uk/beasts/haunt .asp couldn't find a pic sry) "Give up human you have no chance against us!" the Haunt said.

"Oh really?" Kagome said taking out an arrow and pointing her bow at the panther before releasing the string. The panther turned into ash as soon as the arrow had touched him.

"Shit you're a miko!" the Ahuizotl exclaimed, "Hey let's get outta here!"

"No! We'll kill this miko and then ta-" was all the Haunt said before Sesshoumaru had cut off his head.

"Wah! I'm outta here" The last of them said and ran off into the forest.

"Sesshoumaru-sama. What are you doing here?" Kagome said actually using his respectful title.

"This is my lands miko, so what are you doing here and where is the half-breed? I don't smell him anywhere." Sesshoumaru demanded to know and was glaring at her.

"Ano well I've been separated from my pack for 4 months now. Sorry I'm on your lands I'll leave if you want." Kagome said depressed and Sesshoumaru's eyes actually widened. He felt sorry for her knowing what it's like to be separated from your pack.

"Miko you will travel with this Sesshoumaru until we find the half-breed." Sesshoumaru said shocking her. She followed him back to his camp where the toad started yelling at Kagome before he got hit with her shoe. For two months she was with him and became like a sister to him. End-

(A/N: Please realize I like to make the characters OOC unintentionally sry T.T I suck at writing)"Oh I see. Thank you for telling me Sesshoumaru-sama." Sango said respectfully.

Sesshoumaru decided to answer, "You're welcome slayer." He said before walking off to sit under a tree. No one had noticed Hiei had disappeared right after Sesshoumaru had finished telling the story that is except for a certain Kitsune and avatar.

Kagome arrived at the hot springs not realizing Hiei had followed her on her half-mile trek to the springs. Kagome quickly undressed and got into the water as she sighed in pleasure. The water in her opinion was the perfect temperature, "Ah this is nice." she said before Midoriko appeared sitting on the rock across from Kagome. "Hey Kagome-chan!" Midoriko said cheerfully, "How's it going?"

"Fine got another member in the group." Kagome answered as she turned around to get her bathing supplies. What Midoriko and Hiei saw on Kagome's back made them gasp.

"Oh my what happened to your back Kagome?" Midoriko asked as she stared at the scars that were crisscrossed making X shapes.

"Oh these? Got them from my nice little stay at Naraku's." Kagome said with venom dripping off of the word nice. This info made Hiei's eyes widen and Midoriko look at Kagome with sadness.

"Dear child please tell me what happened when you were with Naraku and why you haven't told Sango-chan?" Midoriko asked making Kagome sigh and face her.

"Ok I'll tell you the short story. While stay with Naraku I got tortured everyday for 3 months among other things then I escaped and wondered around for 1 month then lived in a village for two months." Kagome said.

"So then that wasn't when you found Sesshoumaru?"

"No this happened almost 3 years ago. Almost two years ago was when Naraku had created the perfect copy of me and I mean that it was so bloody fucking perfect that even Sango didn't notice that it wasn't me sadly. Naraku took me again but this time I escaped after a week and wandered for 2 months before Sesshou stumbled upon me and let me travel with him for a while. I remember Jaken used to get on my nerves so bad I'd actually beat the toad up. He must really get on Fluffy's nerves too cause I saw him throw rocks quite a few times and even kicked Jaken a couple of times. Now that was funny to see. I think I actually beat him so hard that he cried for a few hours." At that both of them laughed.

"I see so that's how you came to that brother-sister relationship. Kaggy you sure there ain't any romance between you at all?" Midoriko said and laughed at Kagome's red face.

"NO! There was never any romance between us! Besides I've given up on all males they're only trouble and heartache anyway since there's no guy who'd look twice at me besides perverts." Kagome said with a huff.

"Why do you say that Kagome you're very beautiful." Midoriko said kind of confused.

"Well I know you won't tell anyone so I'll tell you. First Inuyasha always called me ugly, weak and just his shard detector then betrayed me and went off to Naraku. Second Hiei lost himself to his beast after I had slapped him and he well he kissed me but when Hiei gained control of himself he just vanished and hasn't really talked to me since then. Kinda makes a girl really think they're not wanted I guess. So that's why I've given up on love and males. Love just hurts you in the end well it hurts me anyways. The gods must hate me or something to make the ones I care for and protect leave me and call me hurtful names. It's a fucking miracle that I'm still kind. I mean what's so wrong with me that makes every male leave me out in the cold harsh world alone ne?" Kagome rambled on looking like she was about to cry. (A/N: Here's some of Kagome's insecurities that she doesn't even tell Sango well not yet anyways. And some of her history but later on we'll have flash backs to those time. =^.^=)

Hiei, who was in a nearby tree heard this, ^Wha-? I can't believe some one would torture a pure creature like her. I wonder what else that disgusting filth did to her. She did after all say he did other things.^ He thought as his gaze softened on Kagome.

(Back at camp while this is happening.) Raicho being actually very curious like a Kitsune was going through Kagome's bag with Shippou, staring at all the wonderful strange things that were in Kagome's big black bag. (A/N: Forgot to mention she changed from her yellow bag to a black bag that looked sorta like a giant duffel bag.) "What's this?" Raicho said as she took out Kagome's Diary. It looked a little worn and was a dark blue.

"Oh that I think it's what Kagome calls a diary. She said it was a very private thing so I don't... think..." Shippou said then stopped seeing as Raicho had already opened it. Raicho was flipping through it reading it kind of fast when a picture and a loose leaf note fell out. Raicho picked them up and looked at the picture and her eyes widened so much it was kind of funny how wide they got. Everyone was shocked when they saw tears appear and Raicho started crying. Kurama, being the noisy Kitsune avatar he is, quickly took the items and almost dropped them. He saw Kagome in the picture except she didn't look like her usual cheery self. In the picture someone had taken Kagome was sitting in a field of moon flowers. It was nighttime and it was a full moon that night since there was one in the picture. Kagome looked like all the life she had, had left her. Her usual light ocean blue eyes when she was 'human' had dulled and looked like a empty dead gray. She was staring up so lost in her thoughts she didn't notice the person taking the picture. Kurama now understood why Raicho was crying. Looking at this picture made him feel like his heart was drowning in sorrow and had faded from existence. He took a look at the note and had to read it again just to be sure he read right.

-Why am I always left out in the cold? Do males find me that undesirable? Why does he have to go to that dead bitch! Why can't he see that I love him! She's just using him and will take him to hell with her when she gets the chance. He's just like fucking putty in her cold dead hands. Would everyone be happy if I was gone? I mean it was me who broke the jewel in the first place so would everyone be happier? I can't stand this pain anymore! The pain of the heart I fear will never heal. Maybe I should just kill myself and end it all then everyone might be happy...- There was dried drops of blood on the paper making it look so wrong yet so beautiful. The note just made him feel like after his heart literally faded from existence, someone had shoved it back and rubbed salt in the hole in his heart adding insult to injury. Sango quickly took the items and looked them as well. Tears actually started streaming down her face, "Oh my god I never knew she felt that way." She said before Shippou snatched the things away.

"And that's why you don't read Kagome's things. She wished to keep her thoughts private!" Shippou said and snatched the diary as well. He put them in a box that had a lock on it and locked it taking the key and making it look like one of his many acorns he had. Then he ran off into the forest and Shadow quickly followed him know her mistress wouldn't like it if he got hurt. Everyone was silent lost in their own thoughts. Kurama needed to have a word with Hiei when he got back.

Kagome hummed on her way back to the camp. She was humming a lullaby her human mom used to sing her. When she got back she noticed immediately that it was too quiet, "Alright what happened?" She asked knowing she was gonna regret it.

"Um Kagome-chan I kinda went through your things and found your uh diary and something fell out and I'm sorry!" Raicho answered starting to cry.

Kagome sighed then asked, "Alright where is the thing that fell out and where is my diary?" Kagome asked having a dreadful feeling it was the little loose-leaf note that she wrote a long time ago. Raicho gave her a black box and then went and hid in a tree. Kagome knew who had locked the box and sighed, "Where is Shippou?" She asked.

"Ano he kind of ran off. Don't worry Shadow is with him." Yukina answered.

"Ok Shadow would you please bring Shippou back." She said and Shadow appeared carrying Shippou. "Thank you Shadow. Now Shippou can I have the key to my box?" Kagome asked picking Shippou up. Shippou nodded and took out the key.

"Here Okaa-san." Shippou said giving Kagome the key then got down and sat next to Shadow. Kagome then unlocked her box and sighed as she saw it was the little loose-leaf note and picture that had fallen out of her diary.

"Alright so who read it besides Raicho?" Kagome said appearing calm.

"Ano I did and so did Kurama." Sango said making Kagome face palm, -Great just great. Now they know I tried to kill myself lovely I feel so fucking happy.- Kagome thought sarcastically. +Oh Kagome-chan why did you try to kill yourself?+ -Don't ask just don't I might tell you someday just not now. I don't think I could handle the emotional strain after telling you what Naraku did.- Kagome said. "Kagome why did you try to kill yourself?" Sango asked with what Kagome thought was pity on her face.

"Don't just don't ask Sango it's nothing. It happened a long time ago and you don't have to worry about me trying to kill myself again." Kagome said tiredly and angrily making everyone instantly not want to speak lest they got Kagome's wrath on them. Sesshoumaru had wisely chosen to stay silent. Kagome just sat down with her back against a tree and closed her eyes kind of lost in the memories this little event had dragged up. -Flashback time! XD about 3 ½ years ago: Kagome stared at Inuyasha's back after he just called her weak and pathetic as well as just his shard detector. "Keh you'll never be as good as Kikyo was." He had said. It was always Kikyo this Kikyo that. Kagome felt her heart shatter as he walked away probably no doubt going to see Kikyo since she had seen some soul collectors earlier. She fell to her knees as it started to pour. It was like the sky was crying with her. She dragged herself underneath a tree and stared at the rain for what seemed like a very long time until the rain had stopped. She had written her feelings and thoughts on a piece of paper she had. Then she had taken her pocket knife (Which no one knew she had) and cut herself on her wrists hoping to die.

Shippou, who had been watching, then ran over to her, "No Okaa-san!" He yelled and took her arms in his hands and began to try to bandage them as he was crying. Kagome was shocked Shippou had just called her okaa-san and was now trying to bandage her self-inflicted wounds up.

"Here Shippou you do it like this." Kagome said softly and helped him wrap her wounds up, "Shippou you called me okaa-san why?"

"I see you as my mother. Will you be my mother?" Shippou asked fearing that he was going to be rejected.

"I would be happy to be your mother my kit." Kagome said and hugged him. Shippou had given her something to live for again. She knew now she had to stay alive to care for her kit. -End-

Midoriko now understood after seeing that little memory and felt sorry for her friend/reincarnate. +Now I understand Kagome-chan. I'm sorry you had to go through that. No one should ever hurt a pure creature like you I really feel like killing that hanyou now. He doesn't even deserve to be called a hanyou! He's just a bastard like Naraku. I really hope you have the pleasure of killing him.+ Midoriko said really angry at the baka inu.

|I agree we should have the pleasure of killing that traitorous bastard inu!| Kagome's ice blood beast said and her fire beast agreed with them.

-I don't know... wait yes I will kill him no matter how much I loved him. He isn't the same inu I fell in love with. That bitch has twisted him into a monster now he sides with Naraku who I am sure will just kill Inutrasha when he has the complete jewel that he will never get I'll make sure of that even if it kills me.- Kagome told them. |We do not want that to happen. Do not die Kagome. We have been waiting for 18 years for you to be able to hear us.| Both of her blood beasts said this. -Heh I remember my mother, I mean my real mother's face faintly. I should go and see her. I know she will probably reject me but I have to see her.- Kagome said.

While all this was happening the others had been speaking but very quietly and Kurama had told Hiei what the note had said and showed him the picture from his memory. /I seriously want to kill the stupid hanyou. How could anyone hurt such a pure and beautiful creature like her?/ Youko said.

Hn I'm going to torture that hanyou. Hiei said, Only very evil bastards could hurt someone like her.

:Yea and it sounds like this Naraku is the most evil out of them all: Kurama said.

/Yes red Naraku was, is very evil some say he is pure evil it's self. Stories were told about him when I was a kit and the story about a brave miko demoness battling the evil spider hanyou. Doesn't that sound like someone we know very well. Though we might not know all of her past we know her as she is./ Youko said, /Though right now I can't remember the ending to the story. Probably cause we're right in the middle of it/

:That could be very true Youko.: Kurama said.

Hn there is something you should know. When she was taken by Naraku she was tortured. There are scars on her back from a whip I think. She also said he had done other things to her I wonder what? Hiei told Kurama and then retreated closing the link. Hiei looked at Kagome to see her eyes closed and apparently sleeping. That's when they realized it. They've wasted a whole day doing nothing seeing as it was sunset right now.

Kagome's conversation with well herself/Midoriko/blood beasts had taken until the full moon was almost high in the sky, -Holy shit! It's that late already! Wow didn't think it would take that long. Well I'm going for a walk.- Kagome thought and tried to sneak out of the camp without alerting anyone. Didn't go well trying to sneak out that is. Hiei was wide awake seeing as he only needed a few hours of sleep or no sleep at all. He saw Kagome get up and try to sneak out of the camp. "Miko, where do you think you are going." Hiei demanded to know. -Great back to calling me names and titles. Lovely.- Kagome thought mentally scowling.

"My name is not miko, bitch, wench, cunt, or any other lovely stupid degrading names you fucking youkais think of! My name is Kagome. KA-GO-ME! Learn to use it hybrid." She hissed, sneering at him making sure not to wake the others and calling him names now. Hiei was taken back she had just called him a hybrid. True as it was he didn't expect to hear it from her mouth. "And it's none of your business what I do or where I go." With that she hid her aura, powers and vanished into the night. (A/N: Should I stop here? Nah I'll keep going XD) Hiei cursed. He really hadn't meant to make her angry. It's not like he knew she was so touchy about names. He tried unsuccessfully to find her with his Jagan. He cursed again and hoped back into the tree he had been spending the night in. (A/N: Almost half tempted to say spending the night with Lol. I know my sense of humor ain't great. Anyways on WIT DA BLOODY FIC!)

Kagome was pissed no beyond pissed, -Why does everyone male love to call me things besides my name except for Sesshoumaru. With Inutrasha it was bitch and wench, with Kouga it's the my woman crap, with do I dare say it Naraku it's bitch or cunt or miko, with Hiei it's onna or miko, with Kurama even though I haven't talked to him much while we've been here it's Higurashi-san, with Yusuke it's sometimes bitch but he's like the only one besides the kids that calls me Kagome. Ah maybe I should just travel on my own even though that's very dangerous.- Kagome thought. +No Kagome-chan keep on traveling with them! You would be very vulnerable if you were on your own seeing as you don't know how to control your ice and fire powers yet well maybe your fire powers just a little.+ Midoriko said not know the effect her words had on our poor favorite miko. -Oh yes everyone thinks I'm just a weak pathetic onna! I thought at least you wouldn't Midoriko but I guess I was wrong.- Kagome said and silenced Midoriko. Now she really felt like going on a killing spree weather it be humans or demons. Which was very bad, never had she been so pissed as to not care what she killed. She was walking very fast not paying attention to her surroundings or if anything that was going to try and hurt her was nearby which was a very big mistake.

(With Hiei. A/N: Don't ya just hate me for this XD) Hiei watched as Shippou and Raicho woke up. They had sensed something was very wrong as they looked around the camp they noticed Kagome wasn't there. They both stared at each other with wide eyes somehow, weather it was instinct or something else, knowing that that very wrong thing had something to do with Kagome. "Shippou-kun do you feel what I feel?" Raicho asked, suddenly very worried and fearing for Kagome.

"That something's very wrong? Yes I do and I think that something has to do with our... well I mean my okaa-san." Shippou whispered accidentally slipping with that comment. Shippou considered Raicho to be kind of like a sister and he was going to ask Kagome if Raicho can be apart of the family as well.

"Yes maybe we should go look for her and bring the nekos, all four of them. So we at least can offer oka- Kagome some help." Raicho whispered blushing as she slipped up too. Raicho, like Shippou, considered him to be her brother and wanted Kagome to be her Okaa-san since her mother had been killed a long time ago. Hiei saw the children talking but didn't know what because they were speaking so quietly but he quickly hoped out of his tree when they suddenly left the camp with all four nekos. Hiei quickly hoped in the trees above them and heard what they were talking about.

"We need to find okaa-san quickly! She is in trouble I can just feel it." Raicho said very worried.

"Yes we have to find her quickly. It's a good thing I gave her that pendent." Shippou said.

"Pendent? why are you glad about that?" Raicho asked confused.

"Well a few days after I became her son I gave her a pendent and the reason why I'm glad is because I can track her while she has it on." Shippou explained.

"Oh I see." Raicho said instantly understanding. The nekos had transformed into their bigger forms and now were follow a surprisingly very fast Shippou. Shadow saw Raicho was having a hard time keeping up with the pace so she picked Raicho up and put Raicho on her back. "Thank you Shadow." Raicho said thankful for the break from running. Don't get her wrong she was fast, very fast, she just didn't have the stamina to keep on running at that speed for a long time like Shippou apparently could. Shippou was so worried he didn't pay attention to how exhausted his body was becoming all that was running through his head was that he had to help his mother.

(Back with Kaggy. (Finally XD)) Kagome gasped as a tentacle went through her stomach instantly pulling her from her thoughts as she cursed. She felt it was Naraku well a puppet while he was hiding somewhere close by. -Damn I should have been paying more attention! Shit I forgot I hadn't brought any weapons with me. Oh fuck my life! Fuck all kinds of duck! WHY ME!- she thought as she flipped away after she purified the tentacle.

It was true Kagome had forgotten to put on her bracelet which held all of the weapons she mastered. She had left it back at camp in her pack. She faced the puppet which was in a baboon suit of course. "ku ku ku. Hello little miko I never thought I'd get to see you so soon or so alone." The fake Naraku said evilly chuckling. Suddenly it got very cloudy and lighting flashed across the sky as thunder rumbled right after each flash. Kagome dodged a few tentacles that came her way not really responding to Naraku's taunts knowing he was just trying to mind fuck her. So that she would break down because of Their betrayal. Too bad for him she didn't really give a flying fuck right now because she was very pissed and no one should mess with a miko/fire/ice demoness when they're pissed unless you have a death wish. "Oh what's the matter little miko? Demon got your tongue?" Faker kept on trying to goad her and taunt her but sadly that was the last thing faker ever got to say for Kagome cut him down like he was nothing well more like purified him but you get my point.

"Come out you mother fucker!" Kagome yelled.

"Oh what's the matter not happy to see me?" Naraku said pretending that they were friends. Sometimes Kagome wondered how sane he was. Which he probably wasn't sane at all.

"Shut the fuck up. Just tell me what the fuck you want so I can fucking send you home with your tail between your legs." Kagome said very irritated.

"I want the jewel shards and you." Naraku said making Kagome's eyebrow start twitching.

"And why the hell would I do that?" Kagome said before she attacked him. She threw a series of punches and kicks at him and didn't even notice that her fire powers were active and hurting him with every blow that landed which was pretty much every hit. Naraku hadn't expected her to be this fast nor have the ability to control fire. #What the hell? Since when was this ningen onna able to use fire!# He thought as he tried in vain to dodge her attacks. Rain then started to poor down on the two fighters. Kagome hoped that someone would sense her power battling with another and come to help her before she was either killed by Naraku, which was probably very unlikely, or get taken again and she preferred dying over that any day. Suddenly the fighters heard four loud roars as four nekos came out of the trees and got in front of Kagome growling at Naraku. Raicho and Shippou then cam running out both of them called, "Okaa-san!" Raicho blushed at her slip up.

"Shippou, Raicho? What are you doing here?" Kagome asked wonder why they were they but relived that help had come.

"We sensed somehow that you were in trouble Okaa-san." Shippou said and hugged her, "I'm glad we came with help now I know who your battling." Kagome also then hugged Raicho shocking her and whispering to the both of them how thankful she was.

"I only wish we had someone else here as well." Kagome told them quietly.

"Sorry kaa-san we couldn't wake anyone up before we went because we were very worried." Shippou said now looking sad.

"It is ok my kit. All that matters is that you have brought help." Kagome said, kissed them both on the forehead then stood and join the battling nekos. Kilala was fighting bravely but she had a wound in her side that worried Kagome so she healed it and looked at her nekos to make sure they were all right. Silver was using his flames to do attacks from the sky, Echo was using her powers of light hitting Naraku with light explosions, and Shadow was hiding in the shadows using them to attack and hide herself. Kagome then, with great concentration, created a whip of fire that looked like Sesshoumaru's poison whip except red and it wasn't poison of course. Kagome began to lash at Naraku with the whip of fire.

(Back at camp, Don't you just hate me XD) Everyone jerked awake as they heard explosions. "Where's Kagome-chan, Shippou, and the nekos!" Sango exclaimed. Kurama looked around and saw that they were indeed MIA as well as Hiei. (A/N: I know you probably all know this but if you don't MIA is missing in action. Just wanted to tell you guys so you know just in case you don't XD lotta sense I make eh?)

"Hiei's missing too." Kurama stated. Just then another explosion went off.

"What the hell is going on?" Yusuke yelled. (A/N: O.O omg I think I've forgotten about Kuwabara. Ooops my bad hehe. Oh well just pretend he never came k? Good. There's just tooo many characters to keep track of. XD)

"I have no idea Yusuke. Let's go check it out." Kurama said heading towards the explosions with the others following behind.


Me: Again I is sorry for da OOCness. It has come to my attention that I am very out of character with Hiei and again I apologize next chapter I will try to do better. Dun't hate me fur da fluffiness I'm just a fluffy person. =T.T=*Goes cry in her dark emo corner*

Kagome: Aw DemonicKitty don't cry! They don't hate you. You just are yes a very fluffy person. Right Fluffy-sama?

Sesshoumaru a.k.a. Fluffy-sama:*Growls at Kagome* Miko this Sesshoumaru is in no way fluffy. And yes DemonicKitty is a very affectionate person well neko youkai.

Kallasea:*Appears from the doorway to the kitchen* Alright! Who made DemonicKitty cry?

Miroku: Oh no one she's just sad that she is very out of character with Hiei.

Hiei: Hn

Kallasea:*sighs then goes over to comfort DemonicKitty*

Yusuke: … Where is Kuwabara anyways?

Shizuru: Well since DemonicKitty forgot about him. I guess he's back home or with Yukina...

Hiei:*growls* I'm going to kill that baka!

Shizuru: Whoops... oh well I'm sure he can take care of himself.

Yusuke: Yea I'm sure he'll be fine.. not. Anyways please fucking review and give the authoress some stupid clothes ideas!

Keiko:*Hits Yusuke upside the head* What he means is please review so we can go on with the story and give us some wonderful clothes ideas for Kagome and maybe Yukina, Shizuru and Yusuke.

Well there ya go the second chappy and sorry for such a long wait but the stupid writer's block demon decided to show it's face before my muse promptly kicked it ass out the door XD Well till next time Ja Ne! =^.^=

DemonicKitty out! XD

Anyways I'd love to thank everyone that gave me helpful advice so thanks :)