Three days. A measly seventy two hours. Sitting in the empty squad room Olivia reflected on the last three days. She had never really noticed how much can happen in only three days. Wilkes had been beaten within an inch of death, her partner, Nick Amaro, was held in jail for assault and now the situation with baby boy doe was only getting worse. She wouldn't even let herself think about what had transpired between her and Murphy outside the gallery.
Despite all that has happened in the last three days, talking about their kiss was not one of them. Neither of them had brought it up, which was fine with Olivia. She had needed the time to sort her stuff out. She kept playing it over and over in her head. Why had she even asked him about the kiss in the first place? More importantly, why had she kissed him back? She wouldn't lie to herself, she had thoroughly enjoyed it. She had to hand it to him; Murphy was a hell of a kisser. She shook her head from her thoughts and gathered up her things getting ready to go home. She glanced back at Cragen's old office AKA her old office AKA Murphy's current office and noticed a light on. Deciding it was now or never she gathered up her courage and knocked remarkably soft on the door, slightly hoping he wouldn't hear it.
"Come in" she cursed under her breath, she had really been hoping he wouldn't have heard the knock. Anything to avoid having this conversation.
"Hey" she said sticking her head through the door. "I was just going to head out I didn't know you were still here."
He was bent over his desk, writing vigorously in some file, his glasses pushed up so they were sitting on top of his head as they so often were (she wondered if he even needed to wear glasses). He looked up at her briefly before answering, "yeah I was just finishing up some work plus I wanted to see if there was any way I could help Amaro out."
"I thought you said you weren't going to waste any favors on him?"
"I wasn't but if you're willing to go to bat for him then I guess there's something there. I trust your judgement."
"Well, thank you."
"Sure." An uncomfortable silence hung in the room and Olivia just stared at the wall trying to think of something to say.
"Anything else I can help you with?" he asked when he noticed she didn't take her leave.
"Umm well actually…" she trailed off. Noticing her apprehension he stopped his work and came around to the front of his desk so that he was standing in front of her.
"Yes?"
"I wanted to talk about what happened between us the other day at the gallery."
He ran a hand through his hair, taking his glasses off and placing them on his desk. "I'm really sorry about that." Olivia was taken aback. She hadn't expected him to apologize.
"You're apologizing? Why are you apologizing?"
"It was wrong for me to kiss you, I mean we work together I don't think it would be a good idea for anything to happen."
"So that's it?" She was pissed. He was the one who initiated the encounter and now he was going to use some bull shit excuse.
"I don't know what to say Olivia. I'm not usually the type of man that acts on his impulses but honestly I just couldn't resist kissing you. I saw my opportunity and I took it. It was wrong for me to do that. I'm sorry." He was a complete idiot. Here she was right in front of him, all he had to do was reach out to her. He didn't know what would happen between them but all he knew was that he wanted her. And yet here he was pushing her away. He instantly regretted what he had said as soon as it left his mouth. He should have told her that he liked her, that he wanted to try for something with her.
Olivia scoffed, "Ok then" that was it. That was the only thing she could come up with to say. She had no idea why she was so angry. What exactly had she been expecting to happen between them? Marriage? Children? She had ruled that out for herself after her break up with Cassidy. She was confused by her feelings for him. They seemed to have come out of nowhere. She didn't even really know anything about him but she did know that he made her feel. After all she had been through with Lewis she wasn't sure she would ever want anybody to touch her again but with him she actually craved it. The feel of his mouth on hers, the warmth of his hand against her cheek, even the scratch of his beard.
He watched as she turned to leave and in that instant he realized the horrible mistake he had just made. Without thinking he reached out and grabbed her hand, spun her toward him and pressed his lips to hers.
Olivia pulled away in an instant. "What the hell are you doing?" This man was utterly confusing. He was saying one thing but doing the complete opposite. "I thought you didn't want this?" she asked.
"I'm an idiot Olivia... All I want is this."
Olivia gave him a small smile and he closed the distance between them again. This kiss was much more passionate than their last, as he pushed her up against his office door, the blinds rattling behind her. She threw her arms around his neck and pulled him closer, his tongue pleasantly invading her mouth. Moving her hands under his jacket she helped push it down to the floor before she began to unbutton his shirt. He pulled back when she reached the last one and tucked a lock of stray hair behind her ear.
Looking deep into her eyes he asked, "is this what you want Olivia?"
"Yes." She said, leaning in to kiss him. He smiled against her mouth and led her back toward the small couch in the office, both of them stumbling over one another as they fell upon it.
