I do not own IZ, only my OC.
They were screaming and fighting to get to me. When I'm alone I get really depressed and do some really horrible things. I watched wordless as they hauled them out, "DO NOT LET ANYBODY, I MEAN ANYBODY, NOT EVEN THE TALLESTS IN HERE! GOT IT?" The guards nodded, "Yes, My Tallest" as the door shut and I plopped down on my couch and looked around emptily. I stared at my drinks on the shelf and got over and retrieved a bottle, I popped the cork and took a long drink. The tears stinging my cheeks, I feel my core burn from the bitter taste. I close my eyes and lean it against the wall.
'Thank Irk that they didn't even argue with me...'
Music played in the background; I wasn't even paying attention to what the words were or how it was going. I was too far concentrated on my own inner turmoil. I took another long swig and another and followed by more. I consumed another bottle and grabbed a new one and waddled to my bed and collapsed face first in the satin sheets. "I hate my life" I sobbed. "Nothing ever works out good for me anymore"
I flopped on my back and watched the digital show of the stars on the hologram ceiling; it was actually what the stars on outside of the ship are doing above me. My nose gets stuffy and I couldn't breathe so I used my mouth. I took another drink and gulped the pungent liquid down; it was beginning to make me feel tired. I forgot what it was like to drink this stuff. It's been what, twenty unbearable years? Before I met and fresh out of the academy I met a human, Rylle, and we both were so in love, I told him everything about me and he believed me, one day I watched him grow old and die. It hurt so much. I met Arte on another planet, he was a different species, he committed suicide because his parents didn't agree and believe in interracial relationships; they sure learned their lessons for that. After that, I met Membrane I knew I had to do something before he would die and once more I was on love with him, but then he went our different ways after a terrible break-up…he was kissing another woman, perhaps he was intoxicated but that was rarely happened…
One thing I knew was before all of these loves I had, there was always Red. The one I always loved. He made me day when we were in the academy, my brightened my sorrow lit days, he made me smile and laugh and cry, sometimes all at the same time. I thought we were so in love, but the others said it was young love and it never lasts. They were right…so darn right. I think that had changed me after the academy and made me depressed and led me towards that dark spinning spiral staircase to the bottom of no-Irkens land.
I dropped the bottle and it collided with the ground and it shattered in many pieces. I have to say, I love glass bottles or containers. I placed my hands on my face and let out all my sobs and tears, all the years of pain I experienced has let loose. No matter how many wails, screams, growls, sniffles or moans, the music blocked out the noise. I couldn't stand this agony I have been living with. I wanted to experience the love I once had again. To have arms open for me and only for me. Nobody really could feel this…like what I'm going through.
I shut my eyes and tried to sleep, nothing came to that; I was filled with so much melancholy that it canceled out sleep. I sat up and watched the wall across from me hoping that it made me succumb to sleep. It never worked. I turn my attention on the balcony and discarded my attire and change in a black knee length strapped night gown and went slowly over there. I looked at the stars and pressed a hand against it, my breathing fogged up the glass.
"Nothing is what it seems anymore, is it?" My voice is croaky. I leaned my head against the glass and shut my eyes, feeling how cool the glass was against my warm skin. I let out a heavy sigh and bit my lip. It was true, nobody wanted to care about me like I did for them anymore…sure my friends is what I have...but I want Love, the real thing again.
'I wonder...I wonder what will become of me….'
~~~~~~~~~~~~~{Earth}~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
It was a rainy night on Earth. It was Saturday and school was out. Dr. Membrane was heading home for the once. He opened the door and darkness greeted him, "Kids? Hello? Is anybody home?" He flipped the switch and seen that nobody was there.
He searched the house, hoping that they were playing some hide and go seek game they always played when they were little kids. He called out again, 'Dib, Gaz!Helllloooo?" He received no response.
He searched their rooms again, under their beds, in the closets, nothing. Last place he checked was his bedroom. One thing caught his eye was the necklace that seems abandoned on the bed side table, he picked it up and was going to through it out but it snapped open and a picture caught his eye. He held it open and looked down at it. "Dib, Gaz…. I miss you both so much" he sat on his bed and held his head in his hands, his glasses slipped to the ground and you could see his eyes were red, but there were no tears.
"Dr. M, is everything okay?" called a young petite woman as she walked in the room. He put his goggles back on and stood up, "Everything's fine. Get out! Get out of my house!" he yelled.
Her eyes rose in fear and she darted out of the house, tears streaming down her face causing the make-up to run.
Membrane clutched on to the necklace and placed it inside his pocket. "Where could they gone…" Once in his life, as known, he missed his children. "Kira…I'm sorry" he whispered to himself and looked up at the stars and shook his head, "It won't work. I should tell Rose I'm sorry"
~~~~~~~~~~~~~(Exit)~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~(Red and Purple)~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
It was another day for the two Tallests as they munch away on their treats, Consuming as much as they can to cure their hunger that formed at the bottom of the squeedlie spooch. Nothing beats a boring day then eating for them.
"Red. Do you think she was just speechless?" Purple asked, peeking up from his large mass of junk food. Red scoffed, "No. She is never speechless, remember? She always had something to say. It was always something that caught us off guard. Like the time we were chased by the hybrid thwarg on planet Ishwarm" he started laughing, tears of joy escaping his eyes. "And she says—" Purple cuts in. "Hey, it looks like some kind of tutu on its head!" he laughs.
Red wipes his tears. "and so we go, wait what?!" they both said. They turn to each other and start crying. "We miss our Kira! We need to find her! This Kira is not her!"
Purple cries. "But it's her! I can feel it, we know if it's her! Didn't you notice the aura around her? She always brings us to be happy! She was there for us and we….we abandoned her there…."
Unfortunately for one Irken, the Tallests brought him into the hug and he was cried on. He was so scared he just stood there. The other Irkens that went by had sneaked on by and didn't offer help.
"You're tallest, you have a meeting" one unlucky Irken said.
The Tallests gave him the most horrifyingly scary look; the Irken thought he had a thousand deaths over and over again. "Do you see us over here? We're busy, reschedule it!"
"But..sir…my Tallests…" he bit his lip nervously. "Sir, it's urgent. They're demanding you to be there"
"We said reschedule it!" the yelled loud enough it felt like the poor fellows ear drums blew up. He scurried off to tell the bad news, he always hates to be the messenger.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~(EXIT)~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I crawled to my bed and collapsed onto it. I finally drifted off to sleep, well after several hours of rolling around trying to get comfortable. Cannot ease an restless mind. I needed a cure that fixed this little syringe of pain in my heart.
~~~~{Dream}
I did not but run. Run away from everything behind me, the blazing background was burning with flames. Something's chasing me, making my tears escape. I couldn't fathom what it was. All I know was that it frightens me dearly. I heard deep rumbling of roars behind me, it made quicken my speed. I wanted to leave this place.
Then it got to me. I was surrounded on a planet that was in flames, the cries and screams of agony and fear hit my ear drums. I watch helplessly as one man Arte was on the fallen ground, he outstretched his hand and i reached for him but then I was thrown back against a wall. His blue skin drained of color; he opened his mouth and screamed. "Get out of here, run Kira!"
The buildings around us begun to crumble, I climbed to my feet and tried to run to Arte, I ignored what he said. Before I reached him, he was pulled away from me and under a crevice in a wall. I heard him scream...over and over again... there were gunshots but nobody came out. I thought he was playing a game with me and come out a few seconds later just to get me scared, but I was wrong; nobody even came out. I heard more growls around me and I turned around quickly. Five large bulky purple Earth looking lions with horns and eight legs had launched themselves at me. I rolled to the side and eliminated one with a knife.
As I took another one out, a scorching pain scraped from my shoulder down to my hip. My blood escaped the wound. "AAAAHHH!" i clutched it and quickly as I can I climbed crumble of a building. I was about to make it to the other side but then i was pulled right back down and one of the Aeline creature's had their large sharp teeth right in my leg. I was yanked on my back and I had another Aeline's claws on my chin and it slashed me to my collarbone. I let out another gut quenching scream.
I grasped on my knife and plunged in to the heart of the Aeline who is holding me down. I twisted the blade and it collapsed on me, i pushed it off and tried to get up but another one had jumped in to the dead creature's place and held me down again. Scream after scream I had, nothing or nobody came. I received bite after bite and my skin was torn from my flesh on my arms or legs, my back too. I thought my organs were being ate but I was unsure, this pain was unbearable.
"She's over here!" but I was wrong before... My eyelids were droopy and I closed my eyes, unable to hold them open or even stay awake. I heard gunshots and loud rapid steps, I thought i felt like I was being picked up and placed on a stretcher but I was unsure. I tried to pry open my eyes but I was too tired to even get them to move.
"Kira, please stay awake. Stay awake dang it!" I heard a comforting voice shouted. I thought i felt warm tears fall down on my skin. I thought I was imagining it all. At the most I could smell them anywhere, my two good friends found me...
"Red...Pur...you're...here" I mustered enough to energy to say. I heard their voices fade away from me and I fell in to a deep sleep of darkness and coldness.
~~~~~~~~~~~~{END}~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I sat up and clenched a hand against where my heart would be or is, who knows anymore. I hung my head and murmured, "Why can't you guys remember me?" I swallowed a sob and staggered out of my bed and went to clean myself up. I stared at myself in the mirror and clenched my fists tightly, i swung my fist at the mirror and smashing it, the glass shattering in to the sink below. I groaned and with a piece of the glass I picked it up with my two fingers and stared at myself, dark purple lines under my eyes and my skin by stained my tears.
I dropped the piece and shook my head slowly. "Why live a life that's painted with pity and sadness and strife?" I fixed the under circles with some powder and then left my room and dressed back in to my acquainted attire. I wouldn't prance about in my under wear and in bare minimal protection.
I left my room in a slow pace, asking the guards to send somebody to go clean up my mess that I have caused. I just dare not to even allow myself to cause bodily harm like I once did fifteen years ago.
I went in to the elevator at one end of the hall. I went to the floor where my friends had their sleeping quarters designated too. I had the utmost desire to apologize to them for my behavior yesterday, it was unacceptable on many levels. I didn't have the heart anymore to even want to hurt them, did I? It just shatters me anymore that I had led myself down this sorrow lit path.
I stood before their door and held my knuckle up against the door. I knocked three times. I backed up a few feet and watched as the doors slid open and I gulped down my fear of social interactions of apologizing. There stood Gaz, in all her now Irken glory and she looked very pissed off to be awoken at this hour of noon, if converted in to Earth hours it would be that time. "What is it?" she blinked away her tiredness and her glare was heated enough to melt any metal for a mile radius.
