I do not own IZ, only my oc.

Short chapters from now on, onless I have decided to write longer ones. This chapter is short, I know, but try to enjoy it so far. :/ Sheesh, isn't she just a depressed oc, am I right? I have dealt with manic depressive/depression/bipolar since my teenage years, so I know it on familiar terms.


recap:"What is it?" she blinked away her tiredness and her glare was heated enough to melt any metal for a mile radius.


Of course I will bluntly put it I always have had an emotional attachment to people in my past. Whether it was healthy or not. It was worked out to having me get wounded in the end, ironic is it not? I didn't understand why I didn't get over them past. Some of my memories I keep on having over and over again. I wished that most of them came back so I can repeat them many times as I want. Every one of those happy moments, replaying like a recording. I only want the great ones, not those ones that make me wake up crying like a little smeet that doesn't understand life or this custom we all have now. Only the reason we have test tube Irkens grown is because pregnancy takes longer than having to mass produced like a product.

"I'm...i'm sorry Gaz...about...about last night" I said, refusing to stare in her eyes. She observed me quietly, she crossed her arms and told me how it is. "You need to act like a Leader is supposed to. I know that you have feelings for them, but you need to grow up" and this is why I like Gaz, she's the kind of girl that I do want around for a long time.

"I know, "I spoke quietly. "It's just hard to know that they... your father and Red-can I come in?" I glance around the hallway to notice two guards enter from the elevator.

She understood my panicked look leaving her to let me in and shut the door behind me. "Is there something I should know?" She raised a brow and waited for my answer. I let out a sigh, "I don't know about panicking. This...this pain i have... in here" I pressed my hand against my chest and bit my lip.

She stared at me thoughtfully, circling around me. "You need to figure out this, we...I... don't need you to go down this path anymore." Perhaps I did truly have her open up to me unlike the others. Somebody for her to talk to, it was certainly a great feeling, but this was not a case to talk about how she is older and more wiser.

"I know" I murmured, watching her intently as I could truly know. "Will...will you show me...show me how to get better...to..." Finding the words was hard enough, but it was fantastic that Gaz understood what I meant and inclined her head. "Very well"

~~~~~ (Tak, Tenn, Dib and Zim and Skoodge?):

The five were seated around a round metallic amber coated table; in front of them were long forgotten full drinks and half full treat bowls. Each one of them are in deep thought and conversation with each other.

"We need to help her" Tenn said, twiddling her fingers together. The others watch her and nod slowly.

"Everything she does, is just to try to cover up her loneliness" Dib said, closing his eyes briefly. "My dad he's been going out with the same women since well their break up, so I guess he's out of the equation"

Zim held his head in his hands and stare down at the table blankly. Tak glances over at him and back at the others. she leans over to him and whisper in his ear,"What are you thinking about?"

He jumped in the air clenching his heart. "AAAHHH!" he screams,"DON"T DO THAT!" He growled at her. She let out a short laugh and patted her hand against the table. "That was so funny, but I'm serious. What are you going thinking so intently about?"

He lets out a angry huff. "Zim should trap the two in a closet! No...no that wouldn't work... maybe in a...hahah INGENIOUS!" He begun to laugh. "ZIM"S GOT AN IDEA!"

While Zim was laughing and drawing up a plan. The others glanced at each other, "How does Gaz put up with him?" Tak asked. It was a question that nobody really knew for why she was with him in the first place, perhaps it was due to actually liking him? That's the most obvious answer, but still... what does she see him in other than this?

"No idea" Tenn said at the same time as Dib. "Now add that and this and ohh this too!" Zim nearly shouts, his eyes full of excitement and ideas that are turning through his head like a hamster or a space gerbil or even cogs and gears. "Perhaps this is one part she likes about him?" Tak suggests.

"Maybe" Dib said, shrugging as he and Tak made eye contact. Tenn and Skoodge took a bite of their chocolate chip chocolate muffin. "This is pretty good, I wonder who made this batch?"

The others even Zim paused in his thoughts and look at the two dumbfounded and then continued on his idea.

~~~~~~~(NORMAL)~~~~~~~~

Gaz leaned on her bed and watch as the older female pace back and forth in thought. They are finished with their discussion. "I don't understand, why would...what did you do to... I need something to fill my empty hole of doom" I grumbled and head towards the door. Gaz to my right faster than I could hear or pay attention. Perhaps she would be great at stealth missions... 'oh why am I thinking that?' I shook my thought off and proceed out of the door.

We left down the hallway towards the mass cafeteria, I want to see other Irkens, maybe I should try to make a difference or perhaps try to actually become something...something better than I am currently?

"Gaz what was with all those books in your room?" I asked her, when I was looking around her room while we had our discussion, heartfelt really, and she had thirty to a hundred books, perhaps even more that I did not see behind the ceiling high stacks.

"What do you think books are for?" She said. "It certainly isn't for decorations" I rolled my eyes and laugh out a short laugh, it was a temporary remedy. "You were reading, I know that part. What is it about?" I certainly hoped that she would answer this questions that has bombarded me since we left that moody atmosphere room.

She walked towards the elevator and waited for it to open and we entered inside it and pressed the button to the cafeteria floor. "I was reading about the history" She leaned over to me and whispered, "Did your academy teach you anything about history?" I shrugged, "Only what we needed, not that whole thing..Why do you ask?" I was more than confused, did she knoew something I didn't?

She examined the elevator and replied. "There are somethings you need to know. What you get a chance come see me and I will explain it, otherwise they're is going to be something worse then you would know" She stopped talking when the doors opened and we exited the elevator and head straight to the cafeteria, getting strange looks from the other Irkens, all wondering why a Tallest would go here.