Yay! I'm not slacking off on my writing! But I should probably be doing homework right now...


Years have passed, but the memory still hasn't faded. Still, new emotions. I crouched all alone. Remember the blazing sun, the hilly road. We were walking, blurry in the summer evening, The heat was in my eyes. "Don't mind me" you said and held my hand. "Just go off somewhere." I brushed your hand away. "I won't go" you insisted and grabbed it back. "You're so annoying!" I walked ahead, not looking back. What is my real heart? Time passes, and I can't look forward anymore. There's no reason, so I keep rotting. I wish things could be turned back. Many years have passed, but I'm still not dead. Always hoping you'll come back. But naturally, you're not there. Saying "I don't care anymore, die, die!" I grab my wrist and curse at it. But I can't even do anything, so I'll just indulge in life. They say the summer can show us dreams? Let's go to before you were taken, then! The days I hid out of shame light up the air and scorch my mind. I wait where I last saw you. It's blurry, but I remember the shape. On the campus, once more under the blazing sun. Once more you were smiling. Once more you said "let's play" and gently swayed. "I'm worried" you say awkwardly. But I'm just a neighbor, I wouldn't understand. "Stop pretending to be sad." Let's keep living life unnaturally, and keep going to yesterday's pace. That way, I won't forget your warmth. So what if I'm wishing for a dream that can't come true? I'll just embrace my hurt past. Dreaming a dream I won't ever wake up from. Secluding myself from the rest of the world. "So you can't even see tomorrow, then?" I'm fine with that! Staining my hands, killing off boring days. "I chose to be alone!" Praying another day, her smile still clings to me. Blazing sun, just take me with her. My breath quieted. A voice disappears into the wind. "Can you hear me?" And then I finally understood. I reached out to the summer warmth once more. Under the blazing sun again. I chose to live in the "then". Your smile was still the same. "I died, I'm sorry. Shall we say goodbye?" you say. "Don't say such lonely things, don't go away!" Fading away, the silhouettes stood and they watched me. But I'm still here. Shall I try to live again?


MUST. DO. HOMEWORK. R&R and bella ciao!