A.N. Anonymous wanted: Max realizing her feelings for Chloe and that she she's bisexual
Max closed the door behind herself and leaned onto it. She still couldn't believe what just happened, but the fact that her lips still tingled told her it's true. She actually just kissed Chloe! It may have been just a dare, but...to Max it was so much more. It made her realize that she actually fell in love with her best friend. Well, she did feel weird around Chloe since the day they met again. But she always thought it's because they haven't seen each other for five years. Well, actually it was partly the case. When she first saw — and recognized — her, her hart beat so fast as if she saw her biggest crush ever again — which...was probably the case.
Actually, she had this feeling before she even left Arcadia Bay. Though, she was too young there and had no idea what it meant. She just knew that her heart hurt as if it's been squeezed to death and then cut up when she left for Seattle. Max had cried for days, if not weeks. She's been naïve enough to think it's just because she missed everything about Arcadia and not just Chloe. Man, she's been hella dumb back then. Always just thinking it's just a 'best-friend-love'. How could she be in love with her best friend all this time and not see it?
Maybe she should rewind and take the kiss back. But Chloe said she shouldn't take it back. And she wanted the bluenette to remember it, too. But why did Chloe dare her to kiss her anyway? Could it be that she liked her, too? But the little spark of hope in her heart quickly vanished again, leaving a bitter taste behind. Chloe was in love with Rachel. Why would she love someone like Max anyway? Rachel was so much better than her. Chloe had no reason to love Max. She was nothing. A living time machine, yeah, but other than that she was just a shy hipster girl. Why would Chloe love someone like her? Why loving stupid Max if she could get super cool Rachel? Ugh, that thought made Max furious. And jealous.
Stupid Rachel! If only she kept in touch with Chloe during these five years. It was her own fault that Chloe replaced her with Rachel. Max couldn't blame her. She'd replace herself, too, if she could. Rubbing the bridge of her nose frustratingly, Max went heartbroken to the bathroom to wash at least a bit chlorine off of her. She totally had to hide these feelings from Chloe. Not that it would be too difficult, since Chloe only saw Rachel...
Bonus:
Chloe lay in her bed, joint in hand and thought about what happened not even five minutes ago. What started with a playful dare, became a hella serious matter. To be honest Chloe didn't really think, when she dared Max to kiss her. She knew Max wouldn't do it, but still a little part in her hope she would. And when she actually did it...Chloe's fucking mind went totally blank. Max hella caught her by surprise and she instinctively pulled back a second later. Though, she really regretted it afterwards.
That's hella bullshit. Why did her stupid feelings for Max had to return with her? She had those feelings for her for six years now. The first year was a mix between hell and insecurity. Little Chloe had no idea if her love for Max really was more than friendship, but whenever they're together, she always was a bit more certain about them. She actually wanted to tell Max, but then she went to Seattle. After a year if reassuring herself that her feelings where real, came five years of denying them.
And when Max came back, then obviously her feelings for her did, too. Though then she tried to hide them behind her anger. But what's even more fucked it is that only after two days, she felt like she couldn't hide them from Max any longer. She wanted Max to know. But maybe she should wait till all this shit was over. Chloe still wanted to find Rachel, but not because of the same reasons as before. Yeah, there's still some love for Rachel left, but the love for Max became bigger than that. She just hoped this won't destroy their friendship...
