Title: Stylistic Infatuation
Author: Freeing Alys
Rating: T
Summary: Casey hated Derek seeing her weaknesses, but it seemed to happen more then she wants. [Dasey
Disclaimer: I DO NOT own Life With Derek or anything affliated with it. I AM NOT claiming this as my own. I'm just a fan practicing my writing skills, that is all. No copywrite infridgemnet intended.
Author's Note: Gosh…it's been awhile since an update right? But no more waiting here you go! Enjoy.
Chapter Five
Casey glanced at her clock on the computer and saw it was nine at night. While smiling to herself Casey quickly finished off the last of her homework, turned off her computer and leapt up from her chair. She had been doing her English homework trying to pass of time until it was the time that Derek wanted her to meet him in his room.
Casey checked herself in her vanity mirror, pulled her hair into a high ponytail and walked out of her room. Casey gently shut her door behind her and glanced at the empty hallway. No sounds were coming from anywhere, so Casey took that as a sign to quickly walk to Derek's room. Casey stood by his door and gently tapped on the white surface. "Come in!" Casey heard Derek say and Casey pushed open his door.
As Casey walked into the room and shut the door behind her she saw Derek plop down on his bed, a wide grin on his face. "Hey." Casey mumbled as she took a couple steps into Derek's room.
"What's up?" Derek asked sliding off his leather jacket and tossing it on the ground.
Casey smiled at the gesture and wished again that she was as reckless as Derek. She loved how he didn't seem to care about anything and that the world was a cavnous to be pained. To Casey everything was about time, order and neatness. "Nothing. Just did homework you know." Casey answered and Derek shook his head.
"I forgot to do mine." He admitted and Casey nodded her head, it wasn't some big surprise. Derek always forgot.
"I know." Casey joked and Derek rolled his eyes.
"You're mean." He retorted.
Casey laughed, fiddled with her ponytail and glanced away from Derek, taking in his room. Everything was just as messy and out of order as before and somehow it felt right to Casey. She loved seeing his room in the state that it was in, even if she herself wouldn't be able to live in it.
"So." Casey said, sighing out the word in a short, single breath.
"Come here." Derek replied. Casey glanced over at Derek who was sitting on his bed with his hair messed up and a quirky smile on his face.
Casey stared at him for a second, trying to second guess herself, but she gave in to everything she wanted and walked over to him. Her relationship was weird with Derek, but she loved it at the same time. Casey sat down on his bed and felt as Derek slipped his arm around her shoulders. "I'm scared." Casey mumbled the words surprising her. She had been thinking them since the first day her and Derek had started their odd relationship, but she never thought she would actually saw them out loud ever. But being with Derek was off and weird and he always brought out Casey's weak side. The side she didn't want anyone else to see.
"What?" Derek asked leaning back from Casey and staring at her, his eyebrows furrowed to the middle of his eyes.
"I'm scared." Casey repeated louder this time. She clasped her hands together and pressed them together until her knuckles turned white.
"Of what?" Derek asked and then let out a small laugh, but Casey knew that he wasn't being mean, he was just shocked.
Casey shrugged her shoulders and scooted away from Derek, causing the arm he had around her to fall to the bed. "You. Me. Us. This whole thing. Living here. Emily. Everything." Casey explained saying the words quicker then she could even think of them.
Derek shook his head and smiled at Casey with an expression that Casey fell in love with. The looks that Derek flashes at Casey made her want to be honest with him and pretend that everything was okay all at the same time. "It's fine Case. Trust me." Derek whispered as he leaned in and kissed Casey on the nose. "It's all fine."
Casey felt tears spring to her eyes and she tried to make them go away, but instead they just rushed down her cheeks. "I know. It's just…everything. It's all out of my plan and any order that makes any sense to me."
Derek laughed and brushed tears off of Casey's face. "Case. Everything isn't supposed to be part of your plan and it's really not supposed to be in an order that makes since to us. It's life." Derek explained and Casey nodded her head. She knew that, she understood it, but it still hurt the way it went against her in every way.
"I know."
Derek scooted closer to Casey and wiped at her eyes and then kissed her softly on the lips. The feeling made Casey feel weak and she loved it, it wasn't anything she had ever felt before. Derek was the one person who ever made Casey go outside her and it scared the hell out of her. "Thank you Derek. For everything." Casey mumbled after Derek released from the kiss.
"Anything for you." He mumbled back and Casey hugged Derek, feeling safe and free for the first time and it was a feeling she didn't want to go away.
000
Casey walked through the doors of her new high school and bite back an irrated sigh. She hated having to march through crowds of immature boys and girls that were too busy texting on their phones to get out of anyone's way. At the academy life had been a lot different for Casey, everyone at the school was more involved in school work and activities then they were about talking, doing each other's hair and drooling over boys. "Excuse me!" Casey exclaimed as she tried to push her way through a crowd of boys playing with a hacky sack. Turning her head after she pushed through the group Casey gave them her best glare and then walked quickly towards her locker.
Casey's day had gone from partially bad, to bad to extremely bad in the hour that she had been awake. She woke up feeling nervous and regretful about the things she had told Derek the night before nad about their relationship over all. Then she got in a stupid fight with Lizzie over the last bagel in the house and then she had to practically give up her life just to walk to her locker. Casey's day wasn't going according to plan at all.
Casey had planned to wake up early, print out her English assignment, have a bagel and orange juice for breakfast and then slowly walk to school, taking time to breath. But none of that had turned out and it made Casey mad. Ever since her mom's wedding it seemed like nothing in Casey's life had turned out at all and nothing was going to the plans that she had made and it was wearing down on her. As Casey reached her locker she thought back to what Derek had said about it being life and she felt a little better as she thought about his messed up hair and stupid smile.
"Hey Casey!" Casey spun around and saw Emily sauntering up to her in a denim miniskirt, a tight fitting tank top and her hair in a very trendy bun.
"Em, what's the occasion?" Casey asked trying to think back to the last time she had seen Emily dressed so nice in the short time she knew her, which was never.
Emily clasped her hands together and let out a very girly giggled and leaned against the locker next ot hers and Casey's. "Well…I decided to go for it!" Emily exclaimed with a look on her face that suggested that Casey should know what she was talking about. But Casey was drawing a complete blank.
After setting her last book back in her locker Casey turned her full attention to Emily, with a confused look on her face. "Go for what?"
Emily shook her head and smiled wider. "I'm going to ask Derek to go to the movies with me tomorrow night!" Emily squealed out and Casey felt her stomach flop at Emily's words. Casey knew she was supposed to act normal and smile and hug her new best friend, but she couldn't. The thought of Derek going out with anyone made her skin tingle.
"What?" Casey asked, her mouth suddenly dry.
Emily furrowed her eyebrows towards the center of her face and shrugged her shoulders. "What's wrong?" Emily asked and Casey snapped back.
"Uh…nothing, I just…I'm surprised?" Casey asked not sure if she sounded the least bit convincing.
"Why?" Emily asked as she crossed her arms over chest and stared Casey down.
Casey swallowed the lump in her throat and shook her head. "Sorry, it's nothing. I just had like the worst morning ever and you surprised me with awesome news." Casey mumbled as she grabbed the books she needed for first period out of her locker and shut the door.
Emily put her arm around Caesy and nodded her head. "I understand. Do you know where Derek's first class is?"
Casey shook her head, even though she knew the answer as they reached their class. "No."
Emily let out another one of her high laughs and released Casey form the hold. "It's fine. We share lunch." Emily stated casually as Casey slipped into a desk in the front row and tried to concentrate on everyone filing into class and not the knot she felt in her stomach.
The day couldn't possibly get worse.
LWD
Casey was wrong, the day did get worse. As she shut the door to the McDonald-Venturi household she saw Marty running at her like a track star. "Smerek has a date!" She exclaimed and then turned on her heel and ran out of the room to spread more of the good news.
Casey heard footsteps at the top of the stairs and glanced up to see Derek standing there with a stupid smile on his face. "I warned you Smarty!" He called back and Casey crossed her arms over her chest.
"Derek." Casey stated and she watched as Derek noticed her and his face dropped.
"Case…" He started but Casey shook her head and rushed up the stairs, moving quickly past Derek.
"Forget it." She mumbled and then walked into her room, slamming the door behind her.
Casey plopped down on her bed and instantly regretted her actions. She knew that her mom would hear the slam and would want to know what was wrong. And Casey was way to tired to try to think of a lame excuse. As tears fell down Casey's face she started to breath hard and she prayed she could got back to her life before the Venturies.
Casey's door burst open as Casey was wiping at her face and Derek walked into her room shutting the door behind him with a worried expression on his face. "What's going on?" He asked quietly as he walked towards Casey slowly.
Casey wiped the last of the tears off of her face and shrugged her shoulders. "Nothing." She mumbled as she took her jacket off and turned from Derek.
"Look Casey, it's not like we can be official or anything." Derek stated and Casey let out a sigh.
"Whatever Derek."
Derek walked closer to Casey until Casey could feel his body heat on her bare arms. "I just think we should try to act as normal as possible." Derek explained and Casey nodded her head. She knew that it made sense, but the day's situations were weighing down on Casey.
"I know." She mumbled and then turned to face Derek. "I've just had a really bad day." She admitted and then cracked a small smile.
"I'm sorry." Derek mumbled as he sat next to Casey. "You've been having a hard time since the wedding huh?" Derek asked and Casey nodded her head and then rolled her eyes.
"I think that may be understatement." Casey laughed for the first time in the day and Derek joined her.
"It'll get better." Derek promised and then quickly hugged Casey. "It'll be fine." He stood up from Casey's bed and walked towards the door and walked out without looking back at Casey.
Casey pushed the thoughts of Derek and Emily out of her head and fell back down on her bed, glade to finally be able to sleep.
