Chapter 2: Letters

I knew I shouldn't have but, I left a little of my self here. Under this floorboard. I tore off the board and was surprised to find it empty except for a letter. I looked up shocked, but I found that it was addressed to me. So I opened it. Within it lied my angel's handwriting of a letter to me. It read:

My Sweet Edward,

I am shocked! One day I stumbled out of bed to find all of your belongings under my floorboard. "It will be as if I never existed" no longer held any meaning to me and I cherished the gifts that you once gave to me. Then the thought came to my mind, why would he do such a thing if he left. Well, common sense told me it was because you had nowhere else to put it. But my heart yearned otherwise. That is when it dawned on me. You still love me. And nothing could break us apart. Not time, distance, or even death. I then made it a side goal to find you. Going to medical school and looking for a lost lover did not fare well with each other and I stopped. I only stopped looking, but not loving. Edward, I have spent the last 3 years looking for you, but knowing you, when you don't want to be found, you will not be. I fear in time, you will indeed forget me, but I, not being your average human, will never forget you. I will always love you Edward, and I hope someday you will find these letters and as I travel through life's weary journey, and watch the years ply by that you will someday find me. For I am waiting for the return of my angel.

I am safe,

Bella

That was one of the many letters I found from my Bella. I sat there for hours reading about her life. Charlie had died of a heart attack like Harry Clearwater, she had a hard time but she stayed in this house by herself, waiting for me. She stated that after finding my belongings she "woke up" from numbness and stated feeling again, at first it was unbearable, but eventually she went on with life by holding on to the essence of me. During medical school she took up piano again and was amazed that she had some talent, though she thinks she will never be as good as me. After medical school she was asked on many outings, to try to get out more she went. She did tell me that she thought about marriage, but found no one to her liking. She only loved once, and she had given her heart fully to that one person. Me. As a doctor, she found blood to be a bit more bearable, though she still didn't like that smell of it. She had called it he "immunity to my need." At that I had to laugh. She was still her clumsy self, she thought she had to do a lot more work on herself than to her patients. She had retired at the age of 55 and said she had a wonderful discovery, but quickly dropped the subject. All is well was in her second to last letter. All is well – she lived by this phrase. It helped her move on when the time got tough.

In the last letter I found a paper that I put aside to read after the letter.

My Angel

I have lately noticed that my time is coming to an end. Though I don't know what that means for us, I still wish I could see you one last time. I am sitting in this bedroom at 2:00 in the morning hoping you would come. Edward, if you don't show up and my discovery doesn't work, (no I am not going to elaborate) I forgive you. If you haven't noticed by now I was never angry or upset with you. Victoria was taken care of along with Laurent and besides the occasional injury I have kept to my promise. But I must wonder about yours. Did you truly think that I could forget you, Edward? You will always exist in my mind an there is no way I can forget you. You have become me. As for my death, I am sorry. I can't bear to think that you would go to the Volturi after al of these years, and if you did…well I can't even think of what I would do, if I could do anything. If you so much as even think it Edward, I will haunt you forever. It is true Edward, I am still human and the one thing that makes it true is death, as I die I think about you and wish for you to know that my last wish is for you to live and tell your family about me, show them the notes. Tell them all I loved them, (even Rosalie) and have them know that I am happy that they live on. Over the years I have become wiser Edward and believe me when I say, you do have a soul and a life ahead of you. Stay with the family and try to be happy. After all no one wants to see a crying angel.

I Love You For Eternity,

Bella

P.S. Edward, I shall never die, as long as you remember me, with a smile and a sigh.

And then the world stopped for a second. She had written this on the night she had died. "Oh my Bella, how I wish I came in time." I whispered as I closed my eyes. The next thing that happened shocked me so. I heard a soft sigh, and then someone picked up the paper that was in the last letter, and then I heard the music coming from within my head.