Disclaimer: I do NOT own Twilight..
Author's Note: I have nothing to do, so I'm going to keep writing chapters today. I hope to get at least 2-3 more up today. But, no guarantees..
-------------------------------------------
Chapter Two
The way Edward said nothing told me that he was feeling a pang of regret. I didn't know exactly what that regret was for, but it could be a number of things. Did he really regret changing me? Or did he regret the pain I went through?
I didn't like the thought of either.
"Edward?" I asked again, this time rather quieter. Everything ached on me. It was barely there, but still a dull ache behind my eyes, ears, and everywhere else. I assumed that was due to the fact that my senses had only intensified.
This time, Edward met my gaze with a bit more of a different look on his face. He still hadn't spoken a word and something inside of me was pleading to hear his angelic voice It had become like a drug to me over the months.
"Edward.. Say something. Please," I whispered, knowing he would hear me clearly.
"I'm so sorry, Bella.." It was a simple sentence, barely audible but full of emotion.
Bang. Just like that, everything went back do being disconnected from my body. That hole in my chest was reopening as I spoke in a trembling voice.
"Edward. Please. Don't regret it." I was pleading with him, just as I had the day he left so long ago.
"Bella, I've damned you to an eternity of Hell on Earth. I've taken away your life, your soul. Everything. I am a monster.." I couldn't bear to see that look in his eyes any longer It was going to kill me if I didn't look away.
But, had I looked away, he would think I was lying. It was a thin line to walk.
"You. Are. My. Life. As long as I can be with you, I'm going to be okay. I love you. Please, don't feel this way. I'm glad you changed me. I can be with you now, Edward. Forever." The words were hollow in my ears, despite the fact that I was able to hear even the mice walk in the house, if there were any.
Something flickered into his eyes and a sigh escaped my lips, though I had tried to hold it back. He didn't say anything for the longest time, still believing that he was a monster. I gave up on trying to convince him otherwise. I was too tired right now.
E. POV
How could I have done something like this? Bella was damned to an eternity of nothing and it was at my fault. If I hadn't been so selfish to keep her for myself, then this would have never happened. It was entirely my fault and now there was no turning back.
I continued to watch her, sympathy and appology in my eyes and voice, when I did speak.
"Bella, you should rest. You won't sleep, but please relax for awhile. I'll be here, don't worry. But, first I need to go speak with Carlisle and Alice. I love you," And with those words hanging in the air, I walked out of the room and closed the door securely behind me.
Alice was the one to greet me as I turned to face the staircase. I just needed a way out. I hated lying to Bella, but I was going to talk to Alice and Carlisle. Eventually, that is. I had no intention of going back in there to face what I had so cleverly destroyed in a matter of days and a choice of pure selfishness.
Would I never learn my lesson?
Or, would I learn when everyone around me had been hurt?
I had already hurt Bella once, and I didn't plan to do it again. But, this seemed to be heading in that direction already. It was spiralling out of control and there was no way I could stop it. Could I?
"Alice..." I said carefully, giving a short nod of recognition towards my sister.
"Edward, what the hell do you think you're doing?!"
"..Going downstairs. Why?" I acted as if I didn't know what she was talking about, but I knew better.
"You're just going to leave Bella in there, wondering what she has done to turn you away?!" I hadn't ever seen Alice so angry before, and I certainly never wanted to see it again.
"I'm not leaving her to wonder, Alice! I'm going to speak with Carlisle." I snapped in return, an edge in my voice that even I didn't like.
"Edward. She's scared. I had a vision.. If you keep distancing yourself from her, she's going to end up right back where she was the day you left. Or, there's the possibility thta she'll just leave." Her voice broke at the end. I knew she was only trying to do what was best for us, but I still didn't like the fact that Alice was looking in on the possible future. However, most of all, I didn't like the fact that she was right. Completely.
"I know, Alice. I'm just worried. What have I done? I've ruined her life. I've taken away her chances of ever being 'normal'. I've destroyed her."
"Edward Anthony Mason Cullen. Do you honestly believe that you've destroyed her life by giving her what she's always wanted? By giving her the ability to be with you? Do you honestly believe that with all of your being?"
I didn't answer. I couldn't answer. Instead, I turned and headed down the hallway and towards the stairs. Once downstairs, I bolted for the door and was outside before anyone could even begin to wonder, let alone catch me.
