Disclaimer: I do NOT own Twilight/New Moon. Sadly. : (

Author's Note: I'm sorry for the shortness of last chapter. I had to get it posted before I left, because I wanted to keep you all updated. )

For some reason, FanFic keeps squishing my paragraphs together, even when I have them double spaced! -shakes fist- That's another reason for my slowness. I have to always fix it.. Urghh.

Thank you, all.

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Chapter Eight

B.POV

Deer. The smell was absolutely hypnotizing. I found myself swimming in it, mentally of course. I could still imagine the feeling of it filling my stomach, taking over my entire body.

Edward's soothing voice broke my trance,"Bella. You need to calm down until we get there. Control it," He whispered in my ear.

I took a deep breath. That didn't help, for the smell only filled my mind and hazed out all sense of control. I couldn't do this. I was ready to give up when Edward's voice was next to my ear again.

"Don't breathe," He suggested,"Until it's in your sight, don't breathe. Then let instinct take over," He whispered. Kissing my cheek lightly, he snapped my trance. I could do this. I could do this. I would keep telling myself that until ----

I didn't finish that thought because at that moment, a deer stepped into the clearing ahead of us. Edward whispered once again to follow my instincts before I blocked everything out of my mind. All I focused on was that deer, yards ahead of me, and smelling so appetizing. I was suddenly starving.

Instinct kicked in and I don't know what came over me, but I began running at full speed towards the deer. The helpless animal looked up at me then and its eyes grew wide before it turned to run into the forest. I easily caught it, jumping onto its back and sinking my teeth into the neck as it broke. Beneath me, the deer collapsed onto the forest floor and I drained it quickly.

When I stood up, I realized I was no longer thirsty and turned to Edward, who had taken a deer nearby and drained it as well. Looking at me, he gave my favorite crooked smile and I gave a fake one in reply.

I had just killed a helpless animal. What kind of monster was I? I stared blankly at the deer's carcass as it lie lifeless at my feet.

"What have I done?" I whispered, staggering back from the deer and stumbling into Edward's waiting arms. I must have looked faint ro something because he was able to catch me.

"Bella, are you okay?" he asked softly, smoothing back my hair as we both sank onto the forest floor.

"N-no," I stammered out before looking at my love.

"What's wrong?"

"I.. I just attacked that animal. I killed it," I whispered, shaking my head back and forth in denial,"I am a monster."

"Bella, you need to survive somehow. You are not a monster. Angels can't be monsters," Leave it to Edward to always make me feel better. I gave a small, timid smile in return and nodded softly.

"Okay, Edward," I mummured though I didn't believe my own words. I didn't think this was okay, but he had a point. We had to survive somehow.

--------------Later That Day-----------------

Alice must have seen that we were almost home, because the minute I got to Edward's, she came bounding out and nearly tackled me onto the ground with excitement.

"BELLA, WE HAVE TO START PLANNING THE WEDDING!!" She shrieked as I toppled over. She ignored the glare Edward sent her, though.

"Um, okay?" I looked at her and then chuckled. She would be the perfect person, err vampire, to help me with the wedding. Infact, she was the only one who would help me I figured.

With the exclusion of Edward.

"Bella, we need to talk about the wedding, too," Edward's voice jolted me back to reality and I smiled up at him, nodding.

When I stood up, Alice giggled and scurried off inside, leaving me outside with Edward.

"Then let's go talk," I replied.