You are the music in me

Storyline – When I hear my favourite song, I know that we belong. You are the music in me. [Rinoa x Squall [College

A/N: Okay you can all throw things at me for not updating sooner I know. Things have been rough lately, too many thoughts. I wrote a Oneshot explaining it all and its been posted so if you're remotely interested its up there for you guys to read. Okay I've re-shaped the storyline a little and added a few more chapters so not that you'd know but yeah they'll be some changes to what I'm sure you all expected. Anyways, where are the reviews people? Please tell people about my stories; I really need the reviews badly. Thanks to those who have been reviewing, I really appreciate it. Anyways, on with the show.

Chapter 4 – Rinoa's POV

Here I was, kissing my best friend, kissing Squall. I knew we shouldn't be kissing like this and I knew it was wrong but it just felt so right to be kissing him. He was probably the best kisser I'd ever come across and I'd never felt this rush before from kissing someone. I'd never felt so much passion or heat. It scared me a little. What about after we'd stopped kissing? Then what? What about our friendship, what'll happen to it?

Not being best friends with Squall would kill me, I love him as if he was my brother and that was the part of kissing him that felt so wrong. Knowing that this one act could ruin us was terrifying.

"Squall…" I mumbled as his hands made their way up into my hair. His touch was sending me soaring but I knew we had to stop.

"Hmm?" He mumbled whilst trying to kiss me still. I pulled away and looked at him. There was confusion swimming in his eyes and I knew that he wanted to carry on kissing, I knew I wanted to.

"We can't do this, Squall. We're best friends" He sighed and sat down on my bed. I sat down next to him to look at him. He knew I was right.

"I know, I'm really sorry I shouldn't have done that"

"Its okay, I didn't exactly pull away" He looked up at me and smiled slightly.

"It was nice though" I nodded in agreement "It felt…"

"Right?" He nodded

"Yeah, it felt so right. The thing is though" I looked at him with wonder "I'm not ready for a relationship and I know this"

"Yeah and I really don't think I'm quite ready either and I would be so scared to be with you even if we were ready"

"Whys that?"

"Because we're such close friends, not having that would really hurt. I know if I was with you I'd be happy but I know that I'd be scared of what would happen if we broke up"

"Our friendship"

"Wouldn't really be there anymore would it?"

"I don't think so"

He sighed and looked at me before taking my hand and giving it a light squeeze. He smiled and kissed the top of my head before pulling me into a tight hug. I clung onto him, not wanting to let him go. I'd never felt like this or thought like this with Squall. It was so new, never before had I wanted to kiss him or even be with him in that way. I'd always had a spark with him I guess and yeah sometimes we'd flirt but that's always as far as it ever got and we always knew it was just friendly and nothing more. This was different, now I felt something, which I was finding so hard to let go of, something new, I could see in Squall. Something that I hadn't ever seen before.

"I should go home," He said as he slowly got up from the bed, meaning our hug was over. I nodded. He stopped for a second and just looked at me. I looked back at him, into his eyes. Those stormy eyes that I'd always found so amazing were now even more amazing than I'd ever realised before. His features stood out more in my eyes now, I now for some reason found myself extremely attracted to him. It was something I really wanted to shake; I didn't want to think like this about Squall. He nodded and smiled before walking out of the room. I heard the door shut downstairs and I knew he was gone now.

I collapsed backwards on my bed and stared at the ceiling. He had been the most amazing kisser I've ever had, it was weird, I never thought that I'd kiss Squall. He really was amazing. "Stop thinking about him!" I mentally screamed at myself. I groaned as I ran one of my hands down my face. "His eyes…no! Stop it Rinoa!"

My phone started to vibrate and blast my ring tone from it over on my desk. I sprang up to answer it "Thank fuck, something else to think about". It was Selphie according to my caller ID.

"Hello?"

"Hi Rin!"

"Hi Selphie, whats up?"

"Not a lot. I was just wondering, we're all going clubbing tonight at Neon City. Up for it?"

"Who's going?"

"Me, you, Irvine, Zell, Yui and Squall of course" I thought for a second, did I really want to be seeing Squall again so soon? I would have to eventually.

"Yeah okay what time?"

I stood in front of my mirror, just checking myself over, making sure I looked okay. My hair was in punky bunches and my make up was done pretty well. I was wearing a pair of black skinny jeans with black sparkly ballet pumps and a grey sparkly vest top, which showed a little cleavage from my push up bra. I nodded before heading downstairs to go and pick Selphie up. I grabbed my mobile from the coffee table and texted to Selphie that I was just about to leave.

"I'll be back late Mum, don't wait up" I shouted through to the kitchen

"Okay, stay safe"

"I will"

I left the house and got into my car. I hit the stereo onto Kerrang radio before speeding off down the road to where Selphie lived. She didn't live too far away, ten-minute car journey at most. I then of course had to pick Squall and Zell up from Squall's place, which was about 5 minutes from Selphie's.

"Hey Rin, looking good!" Selphie said as she got into the car. She was wearing some brown hot pants with a yellow t-shirt that hat a cute little anime cat on it and some brown knee high boots.

"Thanks, you too!" She giggled and we were off again in the direction of Squall's place.

"Maybe you'll find a nice guy tonight Rinny" My eyes flew open wide

"W-what?"

"Maybe you'll find a nice guy, you know, for dating and general smoochyness" she said with a giggle

"Uh yeah heh heh maybe" I tried to stay quiet for the rest of the journey

We pulled up outside Squall's place and I honked to horn for them to know we were waiting. No sooner Squall and Zell emerged from the house. My heart started to drum fast in my chest. I could feel my cheeks were starting to warm up a little bit. He looked so attractive. I'd seen him wearing those exact clothes before and I had no idea why now suddenly my heart was beating so fast just from seeing him.

"Ladies" Zell said as he got into the car

"Hey" Squall said as he slid onto the seat behind me. I was trying so hard to not look into my rear view mirror to check to see if Squall was trying to look at me, "Stupid eyes" .

"So you boys looking for some lovely ladies tonight?" Selphie asked as we drove to the club

"Why? You offering Selph?" Zell joked

"No! I meant I was saying to Rin that maybe she'd meet a nice guy so maybe you boys will meet some nice girls" My eyes widened and I couldn't help but look back through the mirror. Squall's eyes caught mine and my god did he look more than a little pissed off.

"Yeah maybe" He said as he eyed me in the mirror. I gulped and carried on looking straight ahead.

We all entered the club and of course, loud dance music greeted us. I looked at Selphie who just grinned at me. I rolled my eyes and gave my coat to the person taking them. As I turned around I came face to face with Squall. My heart felt like it had stopped for about a second. He was staring daggers at me.

"So you're going guy hunting?" He hissed at me

"No I'm not! Selphie was just asking me in the car and what does it matter to you anyway?!"

"Cause we kissed earlier Rin!"

"So? You don't want to be with me anyway!" And with those last words I stormed off over to the bar where Irvine was ordering a round of drinks, I guess Selphie found him.

"Drink Rin?" He asked with his usually trademark cheesy grin. I nodded my head

"Something strong"

"Uh okay" he raised an eyebrow at me before ordering me a strong vodka and coke. I took it from him and started to gulp it down whilst Selphie just sipped on her Smirnoff.

"Rin you sure you wanna drink that fast?" Selphie asked me. I turned around to see Squall talking to a very attractive girl. Her hand flying over to his arm every time he made her laugh.

"Oh yeah, I'm sure"

About a half an hour later and I had gone through 3 very strong vodka and cokes and I wasn't feeling at my normal self. I felt the need to dance randomly even though in my opinion I had two left feet. That was until I heard Pretty Rave Girl by I Am X-Ray start to blast through the speakers of the club.

"Oh my god Selphie! I love this song! Dance with me!" I said without waiting for an answer. I dragged Selphie onto the dance floor and started to dance along to the music.

I know this pretty rave girl

Always thinking 'bout her

And when she says hi to me

Butterfly's go right through me

While I was dancing two other guys joined me. One of them was tall and the other was about my height. Before I knew it, I was dancing close to them and it was getting pretty heated. I'd lost sight of Selphie, she must of made a dash for it. At this point I wasn't really concentrating on her, more on the two hot guys I was dancing with and the hope that Squall was getting insanely jealous.

When I see her dancing

Want to take a chance

In getting a little closer

And maybe get to know her

I carried on dancing, the boys getting closer and closer to me and the dancing getting hotter and hotter. By now the vodka had completely taken me over and I just didn't care if I looked stupid, I was having fun. I had never found dancing so much fun before and I'd never danced like this with any other guy before. It was a rush to me.

I know this pretty rave girl

Always thinking 'bout her

And when she says hi to me

Butterfly's go right through me

When I see her dancing

Want to take a chance

In getting a little closer

And maybe get to know her

Squall's POV

I left the girl I had met and went in search of the others, I hoped Rinoa was there just so I could glare at her and show off the girl I'd met's number to everyone else, really letting Rinoa see. But when I went over to the bar I didn't see Rinoa I just saw Irvine, Zell and Yui staring at the dance floor with a look of shock on their faces.

"What you looking at?" I asked as I attempted to look at what they were looking at. Just then Selphie emerged from the crowd of dancing people, pushing them slightly as she went.

"I am NEVER dancing with Rinoa ever again!" She said as she walked over to the bar and took a sip of her drink.

"Rinoa?!" That's when Irvine pointed me out what they were looking at.

It was Rinoa dancing with two guys, which I had never seen before in my life and I was pretty sure it was the same for Rinoa. The way they were dancing wasn't just dancing, It was 'get a room' dancing. One of the guys was holding her hips and she danced up and down him with her hands in her hair while the other guy just tried to dance along with the action.

"How much did she drink?" I asked Irvine, being that he was the only one with the 18 ID.

"She had 3 very strong vodka and cokes"

"Fuck" I said as I left them and started to barge my way through the crowds to where Rinoa was dancing.

Rinoa's POV

I know this pretty rave girl

Always thinking 'bout her

And when she says hi to me

Butterfly's go right through me

It felt like this song was going on forever. As time was going on I was losing more control over myself and was dancing more and more hotter by the second.

When I see her dancing

Want to take a chance

In getting a little closer

And maybe get to know her

Suddenly I felt another hand grab onto my arm, which made me stop to see who had grabbed me so hard. It was Squall and he really wasn't happy, neither were the guys that I was dancing with.

"Hey man what gives?!" Asked one

"Yeah she's not your girl!" shouted the other.

"Oh really?!" Squall said before punching the tall one right across the jaw. The whole crowd stopped to look at the forming fight. I was still within Squall's grasp when he'd done it. I just stood there with my mouth hanging wide open. Before I could think of anything else the other guy had come at Squall. I gasped as Squall moved and dodged the guy's attack, causing him to go toppling into some other guy who really wasn't happy about it. Squall had started the typical mosh fit fight.

"What did you do that for?!" I screamed at him before he started pulling me of the crowds. He pulled me straight past the bar and over to the coats where he grabbed mine and headed for the door. I managed to shake him off as we entered the car park. "Squall!"

"What?!"

"Why did you do that?!"

"Why?! Because if I didn't you wouldn't have got out of that club alive! Did you see those guys!?"

"Well no not really…" I confessed in my drunken state.

"Car keys!"

"What! No way! I'm driving MYYY car!"

"Rinoa you've had three vodka and cokes! Let me drive!"

"Oh screw you then have the sodding keys!" I said as I threw them at him.

He opened the car and I clambered into the passenger seat. "Hey don't I sit there usually?" I asked stupidly as he started the engine "Why's the steering wheel there?" I asked in confusion and before I could answer the car sped off down the street. I looked over at Squall; it was like he had a permanent glare glued to his face. "What up with you face ache?" I asked with a giggle

"What wrong with me?!" I nodded "Rinoa you and me kissed earlier and already you're all over other guys"

"So? You didn't want to be with me! You aren't ready you said! Why do you care!?"

"Yeah and you didn't want it either!"

"Well maybe I do now!" He hit the breaks hard. Lucky it was the middle of the night and no other cars were on the road.

"You…you what?" He asked in a kind of hushed tone. I folded my arms and looked away

"You heard me! I like you! I've been trying to make you jealous all night! I liiike you!" He started the engine up again without saying a word and carried on driving to my house.

He cut off the engine and stepped out of the car, I did the same and begun rummaging through my handbag looking for my door keys. I took them out and handed them to Squall knowing I'd make even more a fool of myself if I tried to open the door. The door swung open and I was happy that Mum wasn't still awake. She'd have killed me for getting so drunk.

I walked in and suddenly felt a little dizzy, like I'd just been hit or something. "S-Squall…" I said as I started to feel my legs go. I prepared my self for the impact of the floor but never felt it. Instead I felt my weight being lifted from the floor and some arms around me. When I opened my eyes I saw that it was Squall carrying me up the stairs to my room. "What're you…"

"I'm taking you to your room"

"Why… I thought you hated me…"

"I don't hate you at all Rin" He said as he placed me down onto the bed. I sat up slowly and he sat down next to me.

"Did you mean what you said in the car? About liking me?" I nodded "Then why did you pull away earlier?" I shrugged

"Cause its wrong"

"Why is it?" He asked taking a hold of my hand

"Because we're best friends and you're still in love with Quistis!"

"Yeah…but maybe because we're so close that could help us?"

"Are you really willing to risk our friendship?" He shook his head "Neither am I, even though I want to be with you I know that being friends is what we do best, and that's how it should stay"

"I agree but…"

"What?"

"Can I just hold tonight? Please?" I smiled at him softly before drawing my head close to his and stealing a little kiss from his lips.

"I'd really like that"

With that we moved up the bed a little and got into a position in which I was laying next to him with his arms wrapped around me. He kissed the top of my head lightly and held onto me a little tighter. I'd never felt this way before, I'd never felt so comftable in my life. It made me wonder why we hadn't been like this before. Maybe if we'd realised this before we'd met Quistis and Seifer things would have been a lot better, maybe we would have been together but for now I just wanted to bask in his arms.

I only had one fear.

"Don't fall in love with him…"

A/N: Okay the long awaited 4th chapter is finished!!! Please review, I really need them. Thanks!

Leese

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