I do not own Kim Possible or any related characters, they are the exclusive property of Disney and used in this story without official permission.
AN: This is based on Your Guardian Angel by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. Sequel to Face Down, x3 Also, sorry for taking so long, I had it beta-ed and then re-checked it afterwards. I have been having a lot of work demanded from me from school, so sorry folks, but I promise some goods stories after I'm finished with this one. By the way, KP:MM-AT is canceled for re-writing process; sorry for the inconveniences...
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And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one
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Kim and Shego are training at the park for several reasons that day; most of the time they keep it in the confines of their house, deep within the walls of their training room, but Shego decided that today, they were going to the park.
"But why?!" The hero whined.
"Because you need it, that's why!" Came the irritated reply; the discussion consists of Kim's whining. "And it's final Princess! It's not that I don't enjoy our private training sessions, they end up quite nicely, but I believe that you are ready for a long lasting one in the park. It will help you regain your concentration," not to mention to dispel some of your still intact fear...
"Okay," Kim sighed and gave in.
Which is why they are now exhausted, on the grass, panting and sweating; between breaths, she asks, "care to, please, remind me, why, I agreed, with, this..?"
"Because I said so," comes the reply, not sounding one bit irritated. Shego sits on the grass and turns to her red-head hero, and mocks her, "tired already? You are a princess then: delicate, unable to take care of yourself, needing a strong Shego to help you about, huh?"
"Ah," came the answer with a wicked grin, "yeah, I think I better look for a better Shego..."
"Sorry Cupcake, but there is only one of me, and it's a faulty model, so it's your loss."
"I find it my gain," she remarks, sitting too and looking at the sky, "for there is only one of you, so I get to monopolize you for myself."
They look at each other, they gaze conveying their deep love for one another. They do not expect an interruption to come, much less at that time. If someone can ruin this moment, that would be Ron. He better not... Kim thought to herself, but she could feel the same murderous aura around Shego, telling her that the pale-woman would curse anyone who interrupts them. Someone does, and they are unable to do anything about it...
"Hey, Kim!" The said red-head turns around to the call, and finds Josh Mankey, her old crush and someone who Shego wishes to crush just because of that, "it's been years!"
"Josh!" Kim cries like a teenager, and jumps to her feet, "what are you doing around here?"
"Well," he replies, not noticing Shego standing up and Kim going to her, hiding a little; "I need some real life pictures so that I can draw something worthy, but every time a couple notice me, they go all stiff, not natural as I need it to be..."
"Wow, that is true, and kinda deep too," the pale-green woman comments, and stretches a hand before the brown-head; Josh stopped dying his hair long ago, "name's Shego, mind you, never forget it."
"Don't think I will," replies the blue-eye male, eyed Shego with a kind of critical eye.
"Need help with taking the pictures?" The ex-thief offers, raising the released hand and Josh takes the camera out of his pant pocket, "I can leave you two to catch up and I promise they will all be natural."
Shego, of course, wants to intimidate Josh and scare him off. Well that is not going to help her Princess, so if she leaves the two of them alone, they might be able to go back to normal, back when they were in high school and giving Kim some confidence back. For this purpose, Shego takes the camera and goes off so quietly that they don't even feel her going away. For Josh, he can only think: damn sexy woman, I would go for her but I don't want trouble with Bonnie, I know she would never cheat on me so I won't ever cheat on her. For Kim, the only thing she can think is: why didn't I feel her go? I normally would have felt her, but not anymore... I want things to go back as they were before, but I want to be with Shego... This is all so complicated. Left to their own thoughts, it took them a while to go back to a normal topic and conversation.
"So, Josh," she begins, "the art is going good?"
"Wonders!" He replies, "but I need some real life, and though Bonnie is a great model, let's just say that I need some things that look natural, that are actual real life... Ah well, I am still trying to figure it out..."
"Is that why you are here taking pictures?" Kim asks shyly.
"That's one of the reasons. I took some awesome shots of you and your chick fighting. Those are incredible!"
"Thank you," the red-head replies, her face and hair no longer distinguishable. "So...um...what is your other reason?"
"Huh?" Josh shakes his head, to get of his reverie, "oh, yeah! Bonnie's birthday is coming, and I want to give her something special, hence, a real life of me and her, taking for model a collage of different pictures."
"Huh," they heard before a flash blinded them both so that they had to blink several times, "if that is so, then the pictures of Kimmie and I that you took are useless."
"But both of you simply looked so...natural!" That is the best word that the blue-eye man could think up. "I can use it for another moment, for a fighting scene of something, but I will use it!"
"We were more like," the hero looks for the right word, looks at her beloved, giving the pale-green woman an impish grin, "dancing; some sort of dancing that only Shego and I can do. Gosh, the rush and the excitement are still there, and for that I am glad."
"Yeah," agrees the pale-green woman, "there is no point in beating your sorry ass if you don't give a good fight back."
"Shego!" Kim cries in indignation while the ex-thief just grins and the artist laughs at the comment and remark.
"Lover's fight?" He muffles, laughing afterwards when both Shego and Kim turn to him, astonished. "Oh come on! I cannot expect Kim to go back to even trusting men after what she has gone through. Also, it is all over the news the fact that the criminal plasma-producer Shego was the one to save you. Not everyone knows from what, they didn't say, but Bonnie has connections..."
"With my family..." Kim finishes, and nods.
"Yeah," the blue-eye charmer agrees, nodding too, though he really doesn't know if that is true, "so, Kim, how about coming to Bonnie's party?"
"Huh?"
"Yeah, just give us a call," the raven-haired woman gives Josh a paper with their house number and mobile phones, "and tell us about the party and, who knows, we might get to know one another."
"Sure!" Josh says, happy to have her phone; he might get some other pictures of her, show them off, and then call her over to prove he knew a really hot babe. "Oh yeah! Here is mine."
The artist passes Shego a piece of paper with his mobile and home number, and then the group says bye and part ways; Shego and Kim call the dogs over. Selene, like her master, received many glances; Circe, like her owner, was petted and fussed over like the adorable creature it looks like. Kim looks just like that, for she continues to act like a child; trying to block all that has happened, she reverted back to an immature state, but she can give intelligent conversations if she is in the right environment and with the right people. Shego is looking just this for, such an occasion with the right people and in the right environment. She doesn't know, though, the extent that Bonnie will go to make Kim miserable but she knows that if it's a girl, then no harm done; Kim is still quite reserved to herself even in such situations with men, and the pale-green woman is desperately trying to get that over. She is trying her best.
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Weeks passed and still Josh didn't call to tell Kim about the party. Kim called every once in a while, to check on him and on Bon-Bon, always talking a little more on the phone about the pictures and his birthday present for his girlfriend. Josh always told Kim to ask Shego to take pictures for him that he would even pay her for that; with her stealth really natural pictures can be taken, and Josh wants to exploit that. Shego's answer will always be: "Learn how to do it yourself! ... Moron..." Josh never heard the last bit, and never will for that matter.
Finally, the day came. Josh calls over to the Govier-Possible household, to inform Kim that the party is Friday and to bring Shego over. He also gives them the address and they know his number so they can call him if they get lost; information of that sort. Kim hangs up, turns around and sighs; she really doesn't want to go to the party, she has a very bad feeling about it, and she isn't the only one. Shego, a few feet away from her Princess, knows that the party might cause the delicate friendship and balance that she has with the young red-head but on the long run, it will help Kim with her male-phobia or whatever it is that Kim has.
"So..." Shego whispers softly, seductively and in an extremely raw way on Kim's ear, who for her part blushes deeply, shivers and get Goosebumps; "when and where, is the party, huh?"
"Uhhh..." Is the only answer she gets; the red-head hero cannot think properly when the raven-haired ex-thief is softly rubbing her arms. Kim turns around to face her beloved, and places her arms around the pale-green woman's neck. "Friday, around 11 pm; he asks us to bring some drinks over..."
"I'll get them some good tequila and a wine in name of the occasion."
"Bon-Bon's birthday?"
"Nah, that is no case to celebrate; something else is going to happen, my gut tells me, and it has to do with that bitchy cheerleader and that moron of an artist."
"Shego!"
"What!?!"
"Never mind," Kim sighs, turning to the woman she loves, "there is no fixing it, you will still call them names no matter what."
"Damn right Kimmie," Shego answers, leaning into the embrace of her lover, and giving her another crushing kiss that leaves them both wanting more; leaving one scared about the implication and the other in a deep need of an extremely cold shower to cool her over. She would need ice for that but no way that she would do that. "Sorry Pumpkin, I need an urgent bath..."
Kim, knowing what that means, makes no offer to accompany the other woman into the shower. She goes to their room behind Shego, who enters the bathroom alone. Both woman lie on the ground after the door closes, dividing them and both leaning against said door, both trying hard not to cry and only one partially succeeds. Once one of them started the sniffling, tears streams both of their cheeks and they silently ask why, and cursing the reason that there is.
Why can I not allow her to take me and make me hers!?!? The hero cries to herself. Why can I not take her and make her mine in one night!!?
Why won't she let me!?!? The ex-thief cries to the heavens. She could at least take me, but no, she just won't!!
Both cry to themselves and not daring to face each other in such state. Shego controls herself first, managing to dry the silent tears and opens the door and leans into Kim, giving her a needing embrace. For her part, the red-head turns around and cries openly on the pale-woman's shoulder. The ex-criminal just strokes the hair, rubs the back, and holds on tightly on to Kim, showing the hero that she will never part from her side. After Kim feels better and is calm, she allows Shego to take her back to the room and to the bed.
"Ah..." Comes the remark and Kim gets ready for the worst: 'why can you not love me? why can you not take me?!' but is surprised, "its' a good thing that I am going to get a shower right now, my shirt wouldn't do for the rest of the night."
"Shego!" Kim replies, laughing lightly and feeling better.
"Do you want to take a shower before me, Princess?"
"Yeah..."
"Then go ahead before I regret this and get the shower before you. I know that if I do that you wouldn't shower and we just finished making and eating dinner; and you know that training is tough in the training room because it's closed with no windows to let some breeze in." Shego goes to the door of the room and opens it to go out, "I'll climb the tree in our back yard to get the sight of you stripping naked."
Shego knows, even if she isn't looking at Kim, that the red-head is blushing deeply. She does as she says, and climbs up tree once she is on the yard. Selene is besides her, looking at the sky, and giving her long, mourning yet soothing howl at the full moon. Other howls can be heard, but none are as soothing and as longing as the howl of her Selene. Stupid comet, fucking meteor, blasted space rock! Coming to earth and ruining my life! And that bastard Hego and hiswe are the new generation bullshit! ArghI swear if I hear that he is coming here, I won't answer for my acts! He knows very well what is happening, yet he can ignore it like no other fucking bastard can!She sighs, and looks at the beautiful blue moon, the second full moon of the month. Kimmie, if I could just ask you right away what is the matter... I have some idea, I think you don't want anyone getting that deep inside of you; it will just make you as vulnerable as when you were at his mercy. The fucker...if he dares disrupt my Princess healing process, I will become a killer, just for my Pumpkin's sake. If I could just kill this lust for you, quench it and drown it...but only you will do, and you are still not ready for that. Anyway, your tears already quell the feeling, and now I cannot help but feel so empty...
"Shego!" Kim calls from the window, and the pale-green woman, who looks as if made out of green light in the moonlit night, turns to look at Kim; who completely missed the pained look marring the beautiful features, "I am done, you can get your shower now."
Selene howls again, it sounds so painful this time, but she isn't howling at the moon, she is howling at her master, and the vibes that she feels from the ex-thief. Shego jumps down after taking a deep breath, and hugs Selene once she gets by her puppy's side. Carrying the green shepherd, Shego goes to her room and a reddish puppy is at her ankles, jumping and barking and howling lightly. Selene growls lightly at Circe as she is being placed down, and Circe behaves herself, entering their room behind their master and going directly for their bed. They lick each other and proceeds to sleep.
"Okay Princess, go to bed and rest, I'll be out soon." Shego then goes to take her hot shower. Once she is done and in her pjs, she slips on to their bed and wraps her arms around the semi-dead red-head who, for her part, just snuggles closer to the warmth of the other body. "Rest well, Princess, I'll guard your dreams so that they are sweet too..."
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The day of the party comes, and both Kim and Shego find themselves in front of Josh's house; both nervous and not really ready for the gathering. Shego is nervous because she fears for her Princess; she could care less about drinking or about what people would say and stare at her skin tone. But for her, Kimmie is first and top most priority, she just wants to make the red-head better, help her through all of what is happening, help her adapt to the change, but it's proving tedious and hard but for Shego, it's all worth it.
"Come on, Kimmie, let's go," she extends a hand, which is gladly taken.
"Okay..." Is the answer Kim gives; she is nervous because she knows for a fact that Bonnie is going to make her miserable and that some others will think like her...there were simply too many thoughts.
They enter the place after knocking softly, hoping that no one would answer. Kim is happy to see Monique there, and also Felix. They seem to have a serious relationship going on, and Kim is happy for them. Tara is there, along with the other cheerleaders, and Brick and most of the football team are there too. As no surprise, Ron is the only one not assisting, but everyone knows why this is; Ron is on his own now, living a nice life with his wife, and everyone here is single; even if they are dating others no one is fully committed.
Everything goes well; the party is a complete success. It seems like Brick and Tara are hitting off and even if they are not the brightest, they are the cutest. Shego causes sensation among the male part of the part which does not suit Bonnie at all. The brown-eye woman tries to get the raven-haired one to get out of place, to lose her cool, and to over all try to make her look bad. The emerald-eye ex-thief decides to melt the leg of an ice sculpture of the birthday woman, who for her part turns pale and doesn't bother Shego for the rest of the night. 1am, and they are just about to sing happy birthday when Bonnie decides to give up to temptation and decides to prod Kim.
"So," she begins, giving Kim an evil smile, "heard your marriage wasn't as perfect as you thought you were?" Gasps; everyone knows it's a delicate subject, "and now you are a dyke with a rather freaky and sick skin tone, person, bleh."
"Bonnie!" Josh cries in indignation.
"Ah, come on Josh," she replies smoothly, "you know you think just like me, like most of the people here right now. I know all the cheerleaders think just the way I do."
"Stop it Bonnie." Monique firmly requests.
"I won't Monique, because everyone here knows the truth. Kim is but a fake, she even pretended to have a crush on Josh to spite me, knowing all too well that I like him," she shrugs off the order, and continues with a wave of the hand, "she must have enjoyed all the cheerleader's practice for it gave her a chance to check the girls in their miniskirts and the also changing with her in the same room. So, tell us, K, who did you like best?"
"Wow," is all that is heard as everyone turn to look at Kim, and then for the one who said the wow but they soon found the source, "that was amazing. I congratulate you for finally coming out and saying how it must have been for you. So what is it now, you couldn't handle taking Kimmie's crush from her so now you have to do that? Lame-o. Even when Pumpkin and I were rivals, there was always a line, and I believed you just crossed it."
"No one called you over, freak!" Is all that Bonnie musters but it crumbles as Shego smiles her predatory smile at her; she visibly swallows.
"Oh, did I hit a nerve? Soooo sorry..." She says in a mocking caring tone. "And it was you who called an invitation to the conversation, calling me a, what was it now? Oh yes, a freaky and sick skin tone, person. Extremely lame, too, by the way; have heard worse, in a ranking of one through 10, I can barely give it a negative number."
"Shut up!" Bonnie cries, and before Shego can continue her sub ministrations, she says, "are you trying to defend her? 'Cause if you are, you are being the lame one."
"Really?" Shego asks, craning an eyebrow and then yawning loudly in a bored manner, "is that what you think I am doing? She can defend herself; I can only defend myself after all, and I can tell you there really was nothing to defend myself against. Why she ever saw you as a rival, will forever be out of my grasp, you are not worthy of the title. If you want me to defend my Kimmie, I will gladly do so. There are many reasons, I will just count a few of them.
"One: from what I have seen and dealt with, Kim's crush for Josh has always been born from the heart; thing which I personally think wasn't your case, you just were with him to spite my Cupcake so it's the other way around." Shego counts on her fingers, "two: you were the one who probably enjoyed being in the cheerleader squad cause you could get to see all the other girls in their underwear; I am willing to bet that you had a crush on my Pumpkin. You must have grown fonder of Josh to be with him and not to keep appearances up. So, come on, Bonnie, tell me."
"Wh--" Bonnie takes a deep breath and lets it out slowly, calming her racing heart; no one ever before could read her and she is far from transparent; "like I give a damn about what's coming out of your mouth."
"Good enough," Shego stands up from the couch she was occupying for herself and picks Kim up; the red-head looks like a zombie, the pale-green woman goes to the door and opens it with a light kick. Before leaving for her car, she turns to face Bonnie again, and with a care-mocking tone, she calls to Bonnie, "I get to have her every single night, and I do not share, so forget to ask."
Bonnie is shocked, the only thing to show that things are out of place is her pale face; her crush for Kim is something that, for her, no matter how much time pass between them or the distance placed, it might remain dormant while the red-head is nowhere near, but once she is, it comes back at full force. A single tear rolls down the tanned girl's cheek but no one notices the glittering pearl going. That's the only thing that Bonnie acknowledges but no more tears come. Right then and there, Josh proposes marriage to Bonnie, who does accept, not because Kimmie will be jealous or because she can toss it at the red-head's face, but because Josh has been there for her, and she has learned to love him, the most incredible man in the world in Bonnie's eyes. His other gift is a beautiful portrait of Bonnie; who for once isn't faking as the camera snaps, with Josh besides her. The picture Josh uses for his own portrait is the one Shego took of him and Kim. Bonnie is blushing at the attention the painting is drawing, thing that she usually doesn't do. What is different this time? The fact that Bonnie isn't acting, her happiness shining in her eyes is genuine and real.
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Shego places Kim in the co-pilot seat; the hero hasn't moved at all, her eyes not even giving off signs of life. Thinking of something to do that could cheer up her Princess, the pale-green woman decides to go to the Possible household in the afternoon. Being a considerate person for her Cupcake, the pale-green woman knows better than to go at 4 am to the Possible residence.
They arrive at their house, and that is when Kim finally reacts to what happened at the birthday party. Shego takes her inside bridal-style, while the hero cries her heart out at the pain. Only her lover stood up for her, Josh tried, and Monique too, but only her Shego was able to give her some kind of support. Her heart aches for things to go back into what she can call normal, but she knows it's impossible; for once there is something not possible for a Possible. She doesn't feel when the pale-green love of her life changed her clothes into her pjs. She stops crying once she feels the covers of the bed fall over her, and a warm and sweet body pressing next to her.
I swear nothing like that will ever happen to you, Kimmie, I swear, Shego thinks to herself, as she hopes for a brighter tomorrow. Going to your old home will make you happier, I know.
What Shego does not know is that her thoughts are far from the truth...And that Nana Possible is on the house...
